JUAN

Last night the young master gave me a coin,

    one peseta

    an old coin

    not a new one bearing the likeness

    of King Fernando

    ruler and monarch of all the provinces

    and colonies of Spain

    including Cuba

    especially Cuba.

Now La Marquesa gives me one of the new coins,

    a pretty one, bright and shiny,

    with the picture of the King.

Give it to that beggar who keeps

    knocking at my door, she commands

    and almost without thinking, I switch the coins

    tossing them lightly from hand to hand

    as I walk toward the door

    open it

    place a coin

    in the palm

    of the beggar.

I do it almost without thinking,

    but not completely

    because really, isn’t it true

    that everyone is always thinking,

    at least a little bit?

The shiny new coin has inscriptions

    so even though its value

    as money is the same as the old coin

    I see a chance to read

    and I take it

    a chance to understand

    the curls and angles

    of mysterious letters,

    delightful, adventurous

    words.

The coin falls

    the new one

    intended for the beggar

    who has already scurried away

    thrilled to be holding my old coin.

Shameless!

La Marquesa cries out

    when she sees me grabbing

    the bright coin

    the one that I’ve dropped

    so now I try to hide it

    but the shiny surface

    and beautiful picture

    and mysterious writing

    make me look like I’m trying to lift a golden star

    or the silver moon.

Shame!

Shouting and pulling me by the ear,

    she accuses me

    of stealing

    from beggars.

She’s right,

    I’ve stolen,

    I’ve cheated

    in order to possess strange letters and words,

    letters that don’t even make sense,

    so in an odd way she’s right:

    I am shameless,

    shameful.

    She’s always right.

    Isn’t she?

    Or is she?

    Maybe we’re both right.

    Is such a thing possible?

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