The split second I bumped into Alicia it was as if the inside of my head had exploded. I saw the energy of a baby and felt the love. That bond between mother and child. It was only meant to briefly experience the wonders of those early weeks of growing, safe inside the shell of someone with whom she will forever be linked. Out of all of the zillions of energies, we each have a ‘family’ in tune with our own unique vibration who are with us forever. No matter what happens, or which plane we are on, that bond never weakens. That’s why the power of love is so strong and miracles sometimes happen, fuelled by an emotion that can transcend everything.
I knew instantly that I had to leave the party, to walk away from Alex before he had the chance to officially place that ring on my finger. It would link us with a promise that I couldn’t make, simply because I knew it was wrong. My heart was in pieces, but my ethereal mentor was calling me and directing me to leave.
It was an impossible situation and at first I seriously doubted I had the strength of character in this mortal body to obey. As I pushed clothes into the holdall and gathered the things that I would need I knew that I wasn’t just leaving Alex, but also Seb. It was unfair on my dear brother who, despite the sad memories, had come home to help celebrate our engagement.
But I wasn’t running away. This wasn’t something of my choosing.
“Why?” I asked the voice with no name, as our minds linked and his thoughts filled my head.
“Because it was never a part of the plan for your earthly life, Ceri. I think you knew the moment you touched Alicia that she is the next person you have to help. In order for Alicia to heal and forgive herself for the decision she made about that young soul, she needs to hear Alex say he understands. That will bring them together once more, because that is their true destiny.”
“No!” The sound that came forth was hardly recognisable as my voice. “I can’t give him up. I can’t survive here without him. Please, I’m begging you.” As fast as my feet were taking me away from the apartment, a part of me was hoping I would soon be making my way back. “Please don’t wrench us apart.”
“I’m not the creator. It isn’t in my power to change anything and you know that’s not how it works. No one questions the path, it’s simply there and in each life it’s different. Alicia has suffered for many years and it’s now time for the suffering to end. Destiny is a part of creation, everything evolves through experiencing emotions and when Alicia returns to spirit she will be able to help others along their path. She will have empathy and understanding that can only come from experiencing something first-hand. You are destined to understand the loss of true love. There is no turning back, Ceri. As an angel you know that.”
His words spoke the truth, but my human form was much frailer than my spirit energy and one was overpowering the other.
“Pull yourself together. You have important work to do. You will have to work at sorting out the situation you have made so much worse than it need have been.” The tone of his voice was more of a reprimand than his words. I know I created this mess. If I had listened to my instincts, or even the guidance I’d been given, Alex and I would simply be good friends. Alicia coming back into his life would not have been a problem. I hung my head in shame. There is no such thing as a fallen angel… or is this yet another earthly anomaly?