There was one other person whom I had talked to who might still be in danger. The next morning I walked over to Central Park West and Ninety-sixth Street and took the subway downtown. If someone was following me, I planned on making their life difficult.
The subway stations and connecting tunnels underneath Rockefeller Center were where I headed. There are more exits and entrances than in one of those meerkat villages on Animal Planet. I came up to street level twice, and ducked back into the next entrance I came to before making my way back to track level, where I rode the express downtown for one stop, crossed the platform and came back uptown, exiting at Lexington and Sixty-third. By that time, I was sure I had either lost anyone trying to tail me or convinced them that I was thoroughly lost myself.
It was a short walk from there to my destination.
The cats all welcomed me back—each in its own way. Orange stripe caressed my ankles, gray thought about it, and the light brown stalked in front of his mistress, warning me off. Mistletoe must have cleaned the kitty litter box because the apartment smelled less like cat and more like chai tea.
“I knew you’d be back, you know.” Mistletoe had changed out of her black T-shirt into a white one. I sat in the same armchair. She folded her legs into a yoga pose and perched on the couch.
“I guess that’s because you didn’t tell me everything last time I was here, Missy.”
She smiled. “Paddy called me Missy.”
That was not a good start for what I had to say. “Mistletoe, I am worried about you.”
“You shouldn’t be. Willie told me not to be afraid.”
“He had a plan for you?”
“He said I shouldn’t worry.”
“Right. That’s what I need to talk to you about.”
“No. Willie said not to talk to anybody about the plan.”
“He must have said it was okay to talk to somebody. Did he say Paddy was going to help you?”
“No.” Her eyes were blinking rapidly and she was looking everywhere but at me.
“Because Paddy’s not coming, Mistletoe. Paddy’s hiding from some bad people. Very bad. There’s something they’re looking for, but Paddy doesn’t have it, does he?”
“I don’t know.” She wrapped her arms around herself and tucked her head down. She really couldn’t lie.
“Who is it, Mistletoe? Who did Willie say was coming?”
“I don’t think Paddy liked me.” The change was abrupt—jarring. She had switched to a coy, flirtatious child. “I can tell you like me. You said I was pretty.”
“Yes, I like you. And I want to help you. Who is supposed to help you?”
“But he didn’t come,” she wailed, now the hysteric again. “Willie’s been gone for months and months and he didn’t come!”
“Mistletoe, you are not a good liar. You are a sweet person, and you’re not very good at lying.”
“I can keep a secret.”
“Yeah, well, three can keep a secret . . .” I stopped there.
She shook her head in incomprehension.
“. . . if two of them are dead,” I finished. “There was a lawyer. In Zurich. Is that who is supposed to come? Please, Mistletoe, help me out.”
“Stop it! Stop it! Willie said not to tell. Can’t you understand? It’s a seeeecret!” She stretched the last word out in another wail of frustration.
“I’m so sorry your Willie is dead. But things are getting a lot scarier out there. We need to make some other plans for you.”
She rose up and threw herself at me, kissing me hard, her tongue thrusting into my mouth, her hands groping at my crotch. It was an assault—ugly, pathetic, nearly psychotic, and, I was ashamed to realize, a turn-on. Synapses were firing up, directing blood flow into the appropriate vessels.
She gave a moan in my ear and a soft laugh. “See. This is what you want, isn’t it?”
“No, it’s not. I . . .”
She covered my mouth with hers again, stopping the words.
I tried pushing her away—gently. I did not want to hurt her. But she was stronger than I could have imagined. And fiercer. She grabbed my hand and pulled it to her crotch, grinding herself into my palm. She moaned again, louder and deeper.
There was nothing else for it. I was either going to get raped in that cat-fur-covered easy chair or I was going to have to risk hurting her. I pushed her away—hard.
She tumbled back against the couch and lay still for a moment.
“I’m sorry,” I said. My voice was harsh with fear, anger, and a mix of powerful hormones. “Are you all right?”
She mumbled something into the floor.
I leaned forward, careful to keep my distance in case she attacked again. “I missed that, Mistletoe. What did you say?”
“I thought you liked me.”
“I do like you.”
“And I could tell—you liked it.”
I bent down and took her in my arms. “I like you. Just not like that. Okay?”
She shook her head slowly—either in confusion or denial. Then she began to cry. Soundlessly.
“I miss Willie so much,” she said.
I pulled her to me, her face against my chest, and let her cry. Slowly, in the tiniest increments, I felt her body soften and melt into mine. Her crying stopped and she was asleep.
My body was twisted and strained, but I let her rest. I shifted slightly until my back rested against the front of the sofa. It wasn’t a comfortable position exactly, but it was an improvement.
There was no doubt in my mind—if the “goons” that scared Randolph’s wife showed up at Mistletoe’s door, she would fall to pieces. Of all the fragile people I had met, she was the star. She made soft mewling noises, like a kitten, while she slept. They may have been tiny cries of grief. Or maybe I was projecting. Maybe it was just her way of snoring.
There were about a thousand things I should have been doing right then, but letting Mistletoe Evans sleep on my chest seemed important—and I wasn’t going anywhere without waking her. And across the room beckoned the giant television.
I felt around the couch cushions. The remote was there. I hit power and followed it with mute immediately. The system woke up quickly. Channel 53. A YES Classic was showing. The Yankees–Red Sox opener from 2005. Boomer Wells throwing for the bad guys, wearing Babe Ruth’s number 3, thumbing his nose at Steinbrenner and Cashman for trading him away. Randy Johnson’s debut in pinstripes. Matsui went three for five. Great game. A good time in my life. Angie and I had watched it together—she still watched baseball with me then. I moved the volume up just enough to hear the crowd’s roar as a whisper. All three cats snuggled up against me and I could feel them purr through my clothes. A cold beer would have been nice. When Matsui hit his two-run homer in the eighth, Mistletoe whispered a soft “Yes!” and gently pumped her fist.
“How long have you been awake?” I said.
“Not long.” She tapped my chest gently with her fingertips and stood up, unfolding with the odd grace of a heron. The cats followed her into the back of the apartment.
My back only hurt when I tried to move. I took my time getting up and stretching out. The game was winding down. 9 to 2 final. I heard a toilet flush farther back in the apartment and the sounds of opening and closing doors and the soft slap of bare feet on polished floors. I heard the refrigerator door opening and the cats began an insistent chorus, which ended abruptly as Mistletoe placed their bowls on the floor. A moment later, she entered the room with a tray of tea things.
“I’m having some green tea. Will you join me?” She was gracious and in control.
I hit the power button and the screen went black. “Thank you. No. I should go. But I need to know that you are going to be safe.”
“Sit down, please.” She had changed to an ankle-length Indian-print hippie dress. I hadn’t seen anything like it since the last time I went to a Grateful Dead concert.
I perched on the arm of the easy chair, not quite trusting her—or myself—to sink back into it.
“Can I persuade you to go away for a few days? I’m worried for you. Someone is following me—and people I talk to are being threatened. It could get worse.”
“I have not stepped foot outside of this apartment in months,” she said, while pouring herself some of the pale green liquid. Her movements were both languid and elegant—like someone practicing tai chi underwater. “Everything I need is delivered. My therapist gives me a forty-five-minute telephone session every day at four. I have no need to go out. I do not want to go out. I don’t do well in crowds. I will go out again someday, but not today. Or tomorrow.”
Again, I was talking to an entirely different human being. This version of Mistletoe was calm, in control of herself, direct and firm. But still as nutty as a protein bar.
My mild post-prison claustrophobia gave a discomforting twinge at the idea of being cooped up in that space. The room seemed much smaller. Weren’t we a matched set of neuroses?
“I understand. Then I want to have some people come here and keep an eye out for any trouble. Just for a few days. I hope I can make some arrangements by then that will take care of all this.”
She sipped her tea, and her gaze went inward. Had she taken a pill? Or was this serenity the aftermath of a good cry and a nap?
“I’m not good at making friends.”
I could believe that.
“I doubt that will be a problem. I don’t think these guys are very good at it either. I don’t even know if they’ll speak English. But they will make sure you stay safe.”
She looked up, and her eyes were quite clear. “Why do I need them? I don’t really understand.”
“I know. I’m doing a lot of guessing right now, but if I can figure this out, so can someone else.”
She put down the cup and saucer. “Stay here.” She glided down the hall, the sack of a dress billowing, accenting her thin, curveless frame. She was back in seconds.
“You’ll need this,” she said, holding out a black-enameled socket key. Short, stumpy, with a sturdy-looking flange. The type of key that might operate one of those U-shaped bicycle locks. Or a safe-deposit box?
“Did Willie leave you this?”
“He said if anything ever happened to him that a man would come, and if I showed him this, he would take care of me.”
“I don’t think he meant me.”
“No. An old man, he said. A lawyer.”
“Did he give you a name?”
“No. Only he never did come. I don’t think he’s going to anymore.”
“No. You’re right. The lawyer isn’t coming.”
“Did she kill him, too?”
I was confused for just a moment. “Mrs. Von Becker? The wife?”
“She killed Willie. I know it.”
“I don’t think so. I still think Willie killed himself.”
She gave a pitying smile. She expected people to lack faith in her judgment.
I took the key. “I’ll let you know. And I’ll try to help, if I can. No promises.”
“That’s good. No promises.”
I called Tom and told him what I needed. Twenty minutes later the doorman called up to announce two visitors. They could have been clones of Tom and Ivan. No one bothered with names.
“The lady never goes out. You guys just have to make sure no one else comes in.”
“Ya.” He examined the room and took note of the huge television. Then he turned to Mistletoe. “You like movie. Is okay. We watch. No one come in.”
“I’ll make some popcorn,” she said.
I let myself out.