Revelations
Three phone calls later, King tossed the trussed-up, still-unconscious Deuce over his shoulder, and we sneaked off the old HQ grounds. Between his burden and Ethan’s pronounced limp—he denied any sort of ankle sprain or break, but his left foot was already swelling—our progress was slow. We managed to cross the street and make it down a block to the somewhat protected courtyard of an abandoned office building. Twelve stories tall with its own underground parking garage, the building had a huge For Rent banner strung across the decorative courtyard gates.
Gates that King opened without breaking a sweat.
I helped Ethan sit down on a cracked stone bench, beneath the welcome shade of a half-alive juniper tree. Perspiration rolled down the sides of his face. Pain etched lines around his eyes and mouth. If he ground his teeth any harder, they would snap.
King dumped his package next to a putrid fountain that hadn’t run in years. The stone was stained with algae. A few centimeters of rainwater clung to the bottom of the last tier. In the distance, sirens wailed. Good. Phone call number one had been a success: the ambulance for Renee would be along shortly.
Call two was a message left on Gage’s voice mail, giving him the number of King’s phone and asking him to call the moment he got it. I wanted him with us during this final fight. Encounter. Whatever it turned into. I needed his advice.
Noah hovered by the gates, watching the street intently. I approached in a wide arch, giving him advanced warning of my presence. We were all on edge. Needless startling should be studiously avoided. His hands were tucked beneath his armpits. Small shivers still racked his body, raising goose bumps up and down his arms, even in the oppressive heat.
“I’m sorry about that,” I said.
Without tearing his eyes away from the street, he asked, “About what?”
“Stealing your heat. The cold chill. Not realizing one of my dearest friends wasn’t who I thought he was. Pick one.”
He turned his head, skin so pale. Almost fragile. “It’s not your fault. I’m beginning to think none of this could have turned out okay, no matter what we did or didn’t know.” He leaned against the gate, facing me full-on. “You heard what Queen said. It was never about Forney or Bates. Or maybe it was at first, but when Queen and Deuce got hold of them, they turned it into something else. Something twisted.”
I shoved my hands into the pockets of my jeans, wanting to hug him and somehow provide some warmth. His stance practically screamed Back Off, so I kept my distance. “Putting a contract out on me because of professional jealousy and a sense of vengeance, that I could handle,” I said. “I understand it, even if it scares me to death. Bates I get. I don’t get Queen or what she wants.”
“I don’t, either.” Noah dropped his hands and opened his arms. I fell against his chest, grateful for the simple physical contact—I thought at any moment I might collapse under the weight of my fear and grief. Noah’s skin was so cool, almost clammy. I had done that to him.
“Deuce said you don’t know what I am,” I said, resting my head on his shoulder.
“She was just trying to get to me.”
“Are you sure?”
He pressed one finger beneath my chin, urging me to raise my head. I met his stern gaze. At least one of us was confident about something. “I know what you are, Dal.”
She’s mine. I shivered, as scared by those two words as I was tempted by them.
The ambulance tore past our courtyard, sirens wailing and lights flashing. We watched it drive through the open gates of the old HQ and disappear inside. One nugget of fear began to dissolve. Renee would be taken care of, but a dozen more fears remained.
“Guys?” King said.
He stood over Deuce’s body, hands on his hips, dressed up again as Ortega. We had no real way of keeping Deuce under control, so on a hunch that she needed her hands to throw more dirt at us, we’d tied her arms behind her back. And her ankles together. For good measure we’d also rolled her up in a section of old carpeting, partly inspired by my own imprisonment in a wrestling mat back in January. She looked like a brown sausage and was probably hot as hell, but her comfort was of no consequence to me.
It had been strange, watching the tender way King and Noah trussed her up and wiped blood from the cuts on her face and throat. Very gentle, almost caring. They identified her as their sister, their blood, while treating her like the enemy she was. An odd dichotomy. Even though I’d have rejoiced in her immediate and painful death, part of me wanted her alive. Somewhere inside her, Marco still survived. If what Kinsey said was true, then the experiences and memories of the host lived on inside of the Changeling, becoming part of their personality. An amalgamation.
Noah had chosen that life. But would Marco want it, too?
“What is it?” I asked.
“I think she’s waking up,” King replied.
I waved at Ethan to stay put on his shady bench. Noah followed me. Deuce blinked against the glaring sunlight, her face flushed. Pain pulled her mouth into a straight line. Her eyes flickered back and forth between our backlit silhouettes. I didn’t feel the least bit sorry for her.
“How does it feel to be bait?” I asked.
“I told her this was a stupid idea,” Deuce said in her half-formed voice. “But Queen wanted to play, and I went along like the obedient girl I am. The Overseer teaches us to obey.”
“You mentioned this Overseer before,” Noah said. “Who is he?”
“There is so much you don’t know, dear brother. So much about the Recombinants and our long history. So much that even your beloved father does not know. Weatherfield is only a small cog in a much larger wheel. All you need be aware of is that the Overseer turns the gears of the wheel, and if you fail him, you are crushed.”
“He sent you here to kill Dahlia.”
“Yes.”
I shuddered. Noah put his hand on the back of my neck—a centering touch. “Why?” he asked.
“You ask why,” Deuce said. “We do not. This is why we were taken from Weatherfield, and you three were not.”
“Do you have to speak in riddles?” I asked, growing frustrated with the circular conversation. This was impossible. I wanted to reach into her brain and yank out every single bit of pertinent information she was so reluctant to share.
“Did you know we were alive this whole time?” Noah asked, redirecting the conversation.
She blinked. “Of course.”
“We were told you were dead.”
“And we were told you were weak.”
I snorted. “Yeah? Who’s the one tied up in a rug?”
Deuce’s dark, unfocused eyes latched onto mine, shimmered, then turned a brilliant, luminescent green. The same shade as Marco’s eyes. Was he in there? Fighting against the Changeling’s control? Fighting to be free of her? Kinsey told us the Changeling always overpowered the host. Dominated. Was that true even if the host was a Meta?
Her eyes changed back to flat brown. It broke the spell, making that momentary glimpse of a friend seem like nothing more than a heat-induced hallucination.
She arched an eyebrow. “How long what?”
“How long ago did you take Marco? How long have you been spying on us?”
The irritating woman took the time to yawn. I fisted my hands, restraining myself from kicking her in the head.
“The parking garage this morning,” she finally said.
My temper cooled a few degrees. The apology in my room had been Marco. We’d forgiven each other, been friends again. It hadn’t been a trick.
“Why does the Overseer want me dead?” It felt strange asking about a person I’d never met and didn’t know from Adam. This mysterious Overseer seemed to be the one who handed out death warrants to whacked-out female Changelings.
“You were a mistake,” Deuce said. “He doesn’t allow mistakes.”
Mistake. There was that word again. She said it as though it explained everything, when it explained nothing. Not to me. Not about me.
She blew out hard through her nose, sending a cloud of dust flying across my sneakers. “You truly have no comprehension of any of this, do you?” she said. “Not a single doubt about your past. Your origin. We could have left you alone, and you never would have known differently.” Her eyes widened, filling with something akin to amazement. Shock. “The Overseer was wrong.”
A gong of doom hung in those four words. She could have been speaking heresy in front of the Pope from the dread in her voice. In the downturn of her mouth and arched eyebrows. Her chin quivered.
“I take it this Overseer isn’t wrong very often,” I said.
“I have never known him to be wrong.”
“So I’m not a mistake?”
“Yes, you are.”
My head spun, dizzy from Deuce’s flurry of double-talking. “You said—”
“I said the Overseer was wrong, but not about what,” Deuce said. She twisted her neck to look at me. “You are still a mistake, but you did not require termination.”
That should have made me happy, overjoyed even, but it didn’t. It was her opinion of the facts, and she was just a lackey. Maybe she didn’t think the mysterious Overseer required my termination, but His Highness did, and she was trained to follow his orders. I wanted to trust that Deuce no longer believed I should be killed. However, doubt niggled in the corner of my mind. Doubt about how much her conscious mind was affected by Marco and his memories of me. How much of him colored her judgment and influenced her rationalization?
“How does the Overseer even know about her?” Noah asked. “What gives him the right to police Metas and decide their fates? What could she possibly have done?”
Deuce rolled her eyes, bored with our questions or maybe our inability to grasp some simple concept. I didn’t know which and I didn’t care. My patience was stretched thin and about to snap. Whether I lashed out or lashed inward remained to be seen. I was hoping for out.
“The Overseer cares nothing for Metas or their squabbling,” she said, eyes drilling through mine, right into my skull. “Are you truly this naïve, girl? So wrapped up in your existence you cannot see the ocean for the waves? Haven’t you ever wondered about those earliest childhood years where the memories are fuzzy? Why you’re obsessed with Weatherfield? Why you feel so comfortable around Ace and King and Joker?”
My insides clenched, squeezed flat by a frozen fist of fear. I didn’t want to hear anything else. I wanted to clamp my hands over my ears, hum lalalalala, and pretend she wasn’t there. Anything to prevent her from saying it. “No,” I said, taking a single step backward. “I’m a Meta.”
“You’re not,” Deuce said, smiling as though we were about to share a private joke. “You’re like us, Dahlia Perkins. You’re a Recombinant.”
Blood rushed through my head, roaring like a freight train and blocking out all other sounds. Even after hot cement scraped my elbows raw and sharp stones dug into my shoulder blades, I didn’t stop struggling. Someone was holding me down, saying something I couldn’t hear. I couldn’t hear much of anything over the thundering in my head and shattering of my heart.
Lies, all lies. She would tell me the truth. I’d make her tell me. That’s what I’d been doing when Noah knocked me down. Noah.
I stilled, no longer fighting my captor. I closed my eyes and inhaled deeply. Exhaled. The roaring ceased, allowing words to filter in and make sense again. Noah loomed above me, backlit by the bright sun. My hands were pinned by my sides, and the entire weight of his body pressed down on mine.
“Calm down, for Christ’s sake,” he said.
I twisted my head around, past the length of our bodies. Deuce was unconscious again, her head lolling to one side. Blood dripped from her nose and from a gash on her forehead. The toes of my right foot ached. I’d kicked her. I’d hurt her just like she wanted me to hurt her. If I had killed her, we would have lost our bargaining chip. We’d have lost his brothers.
Noah’s liquid eyes burned into mine. “Can I let you up now?”
“Yes.”
He moved. The loss of his still-too-cool body wrapped me in a swirl of humid air. Perspiration broke out across my forehead and throat. I sat up, wincing as my raw elbows twinged and burned. My stomach gurgled, as much from lack of food as from the stroke of sudden, overwhelming terror—and understanding. I wanted Deuce to be wrong, but something deep down, buried below instinct and reason, told me she was right.
Footsteps shuffled. A shadow fell across my lap. Ethan squatted in front of me, groaning at the strain on his battered legs. Blood had dried on his face like garish war paint. He radiated calm, muddled with just a tinge of worry. Worry for me, or because of me, I didn’t quite know.
“She’s lying, Dal,” Ethan said. “Trying to keep us off-balance so this doesn’t go down in our favor.”
“No.” I shook my head. “No, Ethan, I don’t think she was lying. I don’t think I’d feel this way if she was.”
“Feel what way?” Noah asked.
“Relieved.”
Noah stared. “Relieved?”
I didn’t realize I felt it until I voiced the emotion, and then it hit me full force, like a slap in the face. Total and utter relief that I wasn’t targeted for death because of a stupid grudge; relief that my sense of misplacement among the Rangers stemmed from being completely different from them, and not just new to the group; relief that I finally—finally!—knew the real agenda behind the mayhem of the last few days.
As frightening as Deuce’s announcement had been, I felt liberated for the first time in years. An impossible thing to describe, I could only sit there and feel it, let it wash over me like warm water, caressing away the soil of doubt, leaving only certainty in its wake.
“It’s hard to explain,” I said. “But it makes sense. I don’t have anything from my life before the age of four. No proof I existed in the outside world.”
“You said a mudslide destroyed everything,” Ethan said. “There was a slide that year, Dal, your mom didn’t make it up.”
“I don’t think she did.” Mom, oh, Mom, how much did you know about this? “I’m just saying I think Deuce was telling the truth.”
Ethan shook his head. Hard. “No, it can’t be true. You reactivated at the same time as the rest of us. How is that possible if you aren’t a Meta? Some very freaky cosmic coincidence?”
“I don’t know, Ethan.” The first time my powers had manifested, it was out of self-preservation and the need to stop a grease fire. I hadn’t experienced the same gut-twisting agony the others described on the night the Metas’ powers were returned; Dr. Seward has attributed it to my being young and new to my powers, but now—“It makes sense, doesn’t it? I mean, I never felt the reactivation the same as you guys.”
“You didn’t?”
I met Ethan’s blank stare, surprised and a little confused. “I told you that.”
“No, you didn’t.”
“I—oh God. I told Dr. Seward during my first exam. I just assumed he mentioned it to the rest of you.”
Ethan snorted. “Probably didn’t cross his mind, being so busy trying to kill us all.” He still seemed wary, but at the same time sympathetic.
Was it possible the timing of the grease fire and discovering my powers really was some sort of cosmic joke, and that I wasn’t a Meta? Yes, it was possible. Was I something completely unnatural? I had no idea.
Unfortunately, Deuce was still unconscious from my hasty response to her announcement. “I guess we’ll have to wait and ask Queen when we see her,” I said.
“Someone’s coming,” King said. Silent up until now, he bolted to the courtyard gates and peered through.
I scrambled to my feet, wobbling a bit on unsteady legs, and latched onto Ethan for support.
The rumble of a car engine fast approached. “You know someone who owns a green sedan?” King asked.
“Agent McNally,” Ethan said.
The third phone call. We both hated involving her in our current problem, but we needed a vehicle. She hadn’t asked for details, for which I was eternally grateful, and had agreed to meet us at our current location. Good timing, too, because our debate on my supposed genetic history was going in circles. Second-guessing Deuce’s motives and her words wouldn’t help us. We needed to find Queen, get the Scott brothers back, and then get the answers I so desperately craved, and not necessarily in that order.
King pulled the gate open wide enough to allow the car entrance. It wasn’t exactly subtle, but most passersby in this neighborhood wouldn’t think twice about such an odd sight. Agent McNally left the engine idling, opened her door, and climbed out with a first aid kit in one hand.
“Always prepared?” Ethan asked.
“Good thing, too,” McNally replied. Her mouth twisted into a frown, and her age-lined eyes took stock of his injuries. “What happened to you?”
“Took a flying leap out a closed window.”
“Next time I recommend opening it first.”
Ethan smiled.
“Have you heard from Gage or Simon?” I asked.
“No,” McNally said, “but I did hear part of a retraction on the radio. Cipher was released and the rest of you are no longer wanted for questioning in the near death of Detective Pascal.”
“Good, then she’s keeping her part of the bargain.”
McNally cocked her head to the left. “She who?”
“Really long story, and I promise we’ll fill you in later, but we have to go.” I snatched the first aid kit from her and tossed it to Ethan. She started to protest. I put my hands up to ward it off. “I’m so sorry to scoop and run like this, Agent McNally, but the less you know right now the better off you’ll be.”
King and Noah started loading Deuce into the backseat of the idling sedan. I’d have preferred the trunk and crossed mental fingers no one pulled us over (or attempted to pull us over, because no way would I stop for a cop today). Ethan dug into the medical bag, probably in search of high-potency painkillers.
I grabbed McNally’s arm and tugged her a few feet away. “Can you promise me something, Agent McNally?”
“Of course, Ember.”
“If anything happens to me today . . .” I had a hard time getting past those words. It voiced my greatest fear: I might not pull this off. The only way to save Jimmy and Aaron’s lives might be to sacrifice my own.
“Ember, you don’t—”
“No, I do. If anything happens to me, please tell Teresa I’m sorry. About all of this.”
“It isn’t your fault.”
“Believe me, it is. If I weren’t a part of her life, of all of their lives, none of this would have happened. Teresa wouldn’t be shot. Marco wouldn’t be, uh, missing.” Shit, I hadn’t communicated that part. I didn’t really want to think about it; I was much too close to falling to pieces as it was. Reliving his loss (it seemed such a stupid, unworthy word for what had happened to Marco) hurt too much. A person could only handle so much pain at once without imploding.
“Please,” I said. “Just promise you’ll tell her.”
She furrowed her sleek eyebrows and nodded. “I promise. But you promise me you’ll do your damnedest to tell her in person. Tomorrow. When all of this is over.”
I forced a smile. “Promise.”
“Okay.”
King and Ethan had already overtaken the backseat, their rug-rolled burden propped between them. Noah stood by the passenger-side door, leaning on the roof of the car. Watching. Waiting.
This ends today.
With that mantra in mind, I strode toward the driver’s door. It was time to get this started, because Ranger or Recombinant, lives were on the line, and nothing was more important than that.
“Dahlia?” Agent McNally called out.
I stopped, turned. “Yeah?”
“Where’s the nearest bus stop?” she asked, so deadly serious in tone I just stared for a long moment.
And then I started laughing.