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Chiron in Taurus

Core Wounding by Neglect

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Wounded Chiron Feels

A lack of self-worth

A lack of feeling solid or safe

Valued based on material possessions

Always vulnerable

Healed Chiron Feels

Trust in the wisdom of the body

Forgiveness of the inner child

Worthy of committed love

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The sign of Taurus regulates our material resources and our value system. The psychoastrology of Chiron in Taurus creates a sense of lack in those two areas, ranging from neglect to being completely without. Themes of ethics, morality, and finances are highlighted in this placement of Chiron.

Chiron was in Taurus during Black Tuesday—when the New York Stock Exchange completely collapsed on October 29, 1929—and the ensuing Great Depression began. Al Capone’s prison sentence for tax evasion in 1931 and the opening of the FBI Crime Lab in 1932 are two examples of the healing of our country’s value system that took place under Chiron in Taurus, demonstrating this placement's ability to heal and support finances and moral values. The next Chiron in Taurus generation born in the early 1980s became known as the millennials. They came of age during the Great Recession of the late 2000s and early 2010s. The recession featured historically high levels of unemployment among young people, causing long-term economic and social challenges to this generation. Themes of ethics, morality, and finances are highlighted by this placement of Chiron in Taurus. What does this mean for you as an individual with Chiron in Taurus?

Here is a picture for you if your Chiron is in the sign of Taurus: In your upbringing there may have been instances and experiences of neglect that resulted in a damaged sense of your self-worth and self-esteem. You may have been sexually coerced, thus making you a survivor of sexual abuse, trauma, assault, rape, exploitation, or human trafficking.

In your desire to heal you may have unconsciously employed defense mechanisms to repress feelings of shame, vulnerability, and powerlessness. By using compensatory methods to feel valuable and in control and to conceal low self-esteem, you may have made great efforts to pursue financial gain, material wealth/possessions, or sexual conquests in order to assert a sense of personal power and control over your life.

It can be challenging for you to feel vulnerable because you may label that feeling as weakness. In the past, it often wasn’t safe for you to be vulnerable. Vulnerability left you powerless and at the whim of those with ill intentions, who eventually hurt you.

As a result, fantasies of power and dominance may pervade your imagination because of the experience of having no power as a victim. Taking the victimized child’s power back in healthy ways is at the core of your healing. These drives may cause you to compromise ethics that conflict with your true value system. As a result, your desire for mastery and your attempts to heal remain elusive.

An important step in your healing that must not be bypassed is to feel the initial wound of neglect that was born at the core of your victimization and powerlessness. It was not your fault. You were innocent. You don’t need to wall off from your consciousness the memories and accompanying feelings that may be buried deep within you, or contained within alternate personality constructs. You can learn to find love for yourself and peace of mind. Initially you may do this in the context of a safe and secure healing relationship. You can also find nurturance with people who understand what you have been through and want to be a safe haven for you. You can learn to feel truly safe in your own skin and in your own body without engaging in peak experience activities, behaviors, or purchases that generate extreme highs of pleasure that soothe you only temporarily and then let you down and leave you feeling depressed and powerless.

Repairing and recalibrating your sense of value in regard to your finances, body image, sexuality, and material possessions is necessary. Misguided attempts to repair your self-worth and esteem by maintaining a falsely projected body image or reputation can actually create new financial, emotional, physical, psychological, and spiritual traumas.

As a way to source power from your projected identity, work (for example) may provide you with temporary external validation, while instead you could draw upon internal validation that’s sourced in meaning and purpose by being of service or by helping others. Conversely, because of your childhood background and experiences, you may have powerful intuitive abilities. You have the potential to be creative with healing modalities that flow from a place of your inner radiance, strength, and resilience.

I encourage you to tune in to the inner knowing of your higher self. Chiron’s message to you is that you do not have to continue to hide and defend against the orbital pull of your personal experiences of neglect, which you have felt periodically throughout your life. This neglect has resulted in appropriate feelings of grief, sadness, vulnerability, and helplessness. It is now time to face the deep interior work that’s required to heal the psychoastrology of Chiron’s core wounding.

By facing your inner wounding and choosing to step into your fear or denial, you will open up to:

When you emotionally disconnect from the damaging wounds of neglect and actually become unconscious of those wounds, a shadow self is created. Instead of using all of your beautiful, innate, intuitive powers for love, healing, and helping others, you are prone to perpetrate and hurt others. This shadow aspect of Chiron in Taurus longs for the light of love to shine into these wounds with forgiveness, healing, unconditional love, and with authentic connection to your precious inner child and adolescent self.

As all bodies are designed and programmed to respond to physical enjoyment, your body may have physically responded to inappropriate sexual coercion, trauma, or abuse in its naturally designed way of pleasurable arousal.

There is no shame in your body’s response to the trauma, abuse, or coercion. There is no fault to be found within you at all. Forgiving your body and yourself for anything you’ve held against yourself is key to your complete healing. Gift yourself love for the body that you inhabit and fully restore and reestablish relationships with your healthy adult sexuality, finances, and material possessions.

You will benefit greatly by developing skills to meet your own unmet childhood needs. One way is through self-love and self-approval born out of a corrective emotional experience in the context of a therapeutic setting that’s supportive and affirming. Being mirrored in this therapeutic alliance will allow you to learn to empathize with yourself and understand how you have been affected and how you affect others with your words and actions.

Your daily self-care practices are important to maintain as a cornerstone of your routines and rituals. Devote yourself and a portion of your time daily to meditation, journal writing, professional work that has deep meaning for you, humanitarian pursuits of service and giving back, spending time with friends, and interacting with an intimate partner who can tell you the truth about his or her experience of you. In these ways a solid foundation is laid for the building of your beautiful self-image based on loving yourself as you truly are. Remember, you were born perfect, and you are worthy of unconditional love no matter what.

Your healing is found through love with commitment. This means that healing is found in your commitment to visiting the wounded places in your memory as the devalued and wounded child you once were.

Your inner child is the conceptualized image of yourself as the innocent young one of a childhood past. It’s all of the internalized thoughts, feelings, and experiences of childhood that reside in your adult memory—both conscious memory and subconscious memory.

It’s important to become intimately familiar with this little one, and the adolescent self within. Create an image of him/her/them to hold within your mind and heart. When you are triggered and feeling twinges of pain from past wounds of neglect, send unconditional love to these younger parts of yourself.

Invest in the work necessary to strengthen your emotional capacity to be with these emotions. Instead of turning to escapist, numbing, self-harming, and dissociative behaviors, learn to self-soothe in new and healthy ways.

Affirmation work is an important tool that can be used to replace internalized, critical messages from neglectful or abusive caretakers, past or present. Affirmation work involves using a loving narrative of encouragement, empathy, and acceptance of yourself as you are today. Finding a source of deep and unconditional love can’t be stressed enough. Forgiving yourself is germane to accessing a radiant white-light shower of peace for your soul. This peace transcends any earthly trappings and is radically different from your former temporary refuges of escape that left you unfulfilled.

Utilizing meditations that contain messages of affirmation permeates your senses and saturates your body, soul, and spirit with new messages of love, safety, security, and trust. This is a powerful combination of tools for growth and healing. Make a commitment of even five minutes a day to participate in guided meditations with affirmations. This work will shift your unconscious and reveal self-sabotaging behaviors and patterns that have hurt you and others.

Another great source of support in sending forgiveness to yourself, and offer amends and atonement to those you may have wounded, is found in the book Conscious Uncoupling: 5 Steps to Living Happily Even After by my friend Katherine Woodward Thomas. Called soul-to-soul communication, this process invites you to use your imagination in a meditative state to heal yourself and another person by inviting his or her soul to come and sit in dialogue with yours. It is a powerful healing experience that brings closure and forgiveness to people in your past whom you can no longer speak to in person.

You may find as you begin this healing work that the shadow side of Chiron in Taurus is buried in your unconscious and may manifest in behaviors that incur the unwanted criticism of others, instead of bringing about the desired closeness, understanding, and empathy you wish to receive. These shadow aspects of Chiron in Taurus are a tendency to excuse and justify within yourself overly harsh and critical judgments of others; you may verbalize these thoughts in order to push people away. What may be driving harsh, possibly even cruel words and actions toward others is your fear of vulnerability and intimacy.

This can present itself when acting from your unconscious where you are actually dismissive of others or you seek to dehumanize them in some way. You may have felt stuck in a cycle of judging and dismissing your own self. Beware of your tendency to dehumanize others for self-protection.

If you are reading this and it’s resonating with you, please give yourself permission to begin the journey of deep self-forgiveness. It will allow you access to a higher vantage point from which to see yourself and others more clearly. Truly, we are equally valuable and vulnerable human beings, and we all deserve love and forgiveness.

The need to truly hold your inner child tightly with unobstructed and unbridled compassion, understanding, empathy, attunement, and unconditional love is possibly your deepest need. I ask that you consider, right now, granting yourself permission to experience this.

Here’s a way you might begin this work. Breathe compassion and understanding into yourself. Try to release yourself from expectations that are self-imposed and unrealistic. Be careful to notice when you’re unable to meet your own expectations, because that triggers your internal judgments. Try to enlist your inner moral compass as an accountability partner and supportive inner coach to help yourself achieve this particular challenge. Commit to treating others with more respect and sincerity instead of using your innate charm to manipulate outcomes in your favor.

Most important of all is to remember that you are worthy of unconditional forgiveness and love. You are worthy and deserving, unlike what you may, in the past, have been told by abusive caretakers.

As human beings we are not immune from making mistakes or feeling pain. Both experiences, in fact, are necessary components of growth. The gifts of learning that come to us through hardship are a large part of what we bring to those we serve. Remembering that most people are doing the very best that they know how to do. Life is for us and not against us. Life is happening as us. Unseen forces are at play continually to bring us what we desire. The odds are in our favor. Over and over again repeat these supportive messages to yourself. Infuse your work with this energy, your life with this energy, your relationships with this energy.

Think back to the ways you had fun as a child and as an adolescent. In some families, overarching neglect, trauma, abuse, lack of material resources, or the issues present in a single parent home may have dwarfed your childhood development and your carefree adolescence.

It’s never too late to give yourself beautiful opportunities to let your inner child and adolescent emerge and be happy now. You can learn to protect, love, laugh, and be with those parts of yourself. Take your healing as an opportunity to expand into your adult self in ways that are both fun and responsible. You deserve this reparenting of yourself.

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“I love and approve of myself just as I am.”

“I allow myself to heal.”

“I am lovable.”

“I am good enough now.”

“I forgive all others, including myself.”