AFTER

During the second hour, with the sun still

stuck in the sky, my father and I hold the cross-

bar of our swing set above us as he tightens

a screw. Then, our arms still extended above

us, he hands the tool to me and I try to make

my side mirror his. We have done this for decades,

the span of me. The swing set began as a lot

of pieces, which he equates with quality, compared

to something already built that can unfold

and crumble on a whim. I once was many

pieces. My father became sharper

with a wrench or switch. He says they don’t

build things to stay anymore and I know he is

apologizing for how he left our home, built one

without us. Once my side is tightened, we let go

of the swing set to stand on its own, a bar above

our heads, steady as a firm hand. He reaches out

for the tool, and I know I should call more

often, that I have built a house between

us and filled it with years. We begin to hang

the swings, the plastic horse, the slide, green

and wavy extending its new song into the grass.

He comments on how I’ve taken care of the yard

and he understands I won’t let him die alone.