Contents

Cover

Title Page

Copyright

Dedication

Preface

PART I: IN THE FIRST PERSON

1: Cataclysm

2: When You Try to Die and Don’t

3: Psych-Ward Sojourn

4: What, Me Depressed?

5: When Diagnosis Makes You Crazy

6: Killing Yourself Is Tougher Than You’d Think

7: Know Thine Enemy

8: Checking Boxes

9: Suicide Blues

10: Getting in Trouble

PART II: TREATMENT ATTEMPTS

11: A Pill-Popping Parade

12: Good Noticing!

13: Zapping, Shocking and Burning Your Brain into Submission

14: Brainiacs

15: A Dry Pharma Pipeline

16: Old Illness, New Tricks—The Electrode in Your Brain

17: Old Illness, New Tricks—From Psychedelics to Smartphones

PART III: A KICK IN THE TEETH

18: Stigma and Related Bullshit

19: Through the Cracks

20: Mental Health Is for Rich People

21: Trying to Heal the Littlest Minds

22: “More Children Do Not Have to Die”

23: Race as Barrier

PART IV: IN THE MAZE

24: Who You Gonna Call?

25: How to Talk about What We Talk about When We Talk about Wanting to Die

26: Certifiable

27: Trust Issues

PART V: A DENOUEMENT OF SORTS

28: First Person Afterword

Resources and Further Reading

Acknowledgements

Notes