Tom was quiet while he brushed down the horses with Brenda, but it didn’t matter because she was talking a mile a minute. He’d invited her out to see the new baby, just a week old, and she was all jazzed about that. Then they took a quick ride and he listened to her go on and on about the cheerleading tryouts for her senior year that were coming up. He had already agreed to take her to the prom, though it was only February, and she had a million things to say about that. When the horses were put away, he grabbed her hand and led her into the tack room. He sat on the bench, pulled her onto his lap and kissed her deeply, lovingly. And he said, “I have to tell you something.”
“What?”
“I love you. I know you believe that. And I want you like mad, which you can’t help but believe. But I’m going to do something—even though it might cost me everything. You and whatever I have with you.”
“What? What are you talking about?”
“I talked to the police,” he said.
She jumped right off his lap. “What?” she asked in disbelief, shaking her head to try to make it go away. “No.”
He tried to pull her back onto his lap, but she skittered out of his reach, the look on her face one of sheer horror. So he stood up and faced her. “Not just Mike. Other police. A special detective unit, as it turns out. I’m going to help them get the guy who gave you the drug—because there was a guy and there was a drug.”
“No,” she said again, shaking her head. “You can’t know that any more than I do.”
“Yeah, we both know. It might even come back on you, but I’m not sure how. You might be asked what you know about it, and you’ll say whatever you want. Maybe you won’t say anything. But I had to, Brenda.”
Tears immediately ran down her cheeks and she stepped back another step. “No, you didn’t have to!”
“Yeah, I did, and I’ll tell you why. Because I want to sleep at night. Because I don’t want to try to imagine that sometime this summer or next year some poor slob like me is holding the girl he loves while she cries her heart out over being raped. I don’t want to think of some poor girl—a good girl who’s saving herself—waking up pregnant when she probably wouldn’t have even scored a hangover! I’m not going to lie awake at night and wonder if there are a couple of kids like me and you, in love and playing it so carefully, so straight, getting ripped up by this asshole. I’m going to try to stop him even if you never speak to me again.”
“But I told you, I don’t know what happened! There’s nothing I can do! And even if I could, I don’t want to! God, Tommy, I don’t want anyone to know!”
“I don’t blame you. I didn’t tell the police about you, but that’s going to be irrelevant. Eventually they’re going to want to hear from every kid who went to every one of those keggers and parties, to know what happened to them. And I’m sorry for that—you’ll handle it however you want to. But I’m not letting this guy do it to anyone else’s girl. I’m sorry you’re mad, but I’m not sorry I did it.”
“I hate you!”
“I had to.”
“I hate you!”
“Yeah,” he said, hanging his head. He lifted his head. “Well, I love you, and I’m sorry this upsets you. I hope someday, like in about a million years, you’ll think back about this and even if you still hate me, maybe you’ll have some respect for me doing the right thing.”
She started to sob, shaking her head until her pretty, silky light brown hair fell over her face. “Why did you do this? Why? Now it’s going to get out. I shouldn’t have told you—I thought I could trust you! Now everyone will think I’m just a slut!” He reached for her and she pulled back. “Don’t touch me! Don’t you ever touch me!”
But he pulled her against him anyway and held her while she cried. And oh, man, she cried so hard he thought she was going to throw up. She started to gag, in fact, but he hung on until she exhausted herself. And he still hung on. “Why?” she kept saying to him. “Why? It wasn’t for you to do—it was for me to do if I wanted to.”
“Yeah? And if it happens to someone else because you didn’t say anything? And if someone dies?” he asked, but he asked gently even as he held her. “I don’t care that you aren’t saying anything about it. That’s your choice. You know what—you go ahead and hate me. You blame me if you want to, when we both know the real bad guy isn’t me. Thing is, I have to live with myself.”
She pulled out of his arms. “Well, I just hope you can.”
He stared at her for a long moment. “I can,” he said. “Come on, I’ll take you home.”
The next day after school Tom drove his little red truck over to Jordan Whitley’s house. He ran up on the porch and knocked on the door. Jordan answered and Tom said, “Hey. Got my stuff?”
“Yeah, man,” he said, laughing. “You’re gonna love it.” He reached into his pocket and pulled out a little baggie and an envelope. When Tom reached for it he said, “Hey, forget something?”
“Oh, yeah. How much did you say?”
“Just a hundy, man. You’re gonna be so happy.”
“What we have here?” Tom asked.
“Roofies, ecstasy, meth. Made to order.”
“I changed my mind about the meth,” he said, and Jordan took back the little baggie. “So, I get a discount right?”
“Sorry, pal. They don’t exactly give refunds.”
“Ah,” Tom said. “You use this stuff a lot?” he asked. “The roofies?”
Jordan shrugged. “Coupla times. Just for kicks, you know.”
“Yeah,” he said, smiling. “Just for kicks.” He handed him a wad of bills, accepted the drugs and stepped out of the way.
A detective came around from each side of the house, plainclothes, badges out and aimed at Jordan. One was a young woman in a ball cap with a ponytail strung through the back—she looked not much older than Tom. She could have passed for a college girl, young looking and petite. The other undercover cop was a great big guy in jeans and a jacket. Both had guns, cuffs and tasers on their belts. “Police!” the girl said. “Jordan Whitley, you’re under arrest. We have a search warrant. Turn around, hands up against the house.”
The look on his face was priceless. It almost made Tom smile. Pure, horrified shock. “Hey!” he yelled. “Hey, what’s up with this!” But before he could even finish his sentence this little bitty girl had him whirled around, his legs kicked apart and was patting him down while the big guy stood over him, daring him to move.
While they cuffed him, he looked over his shoulder at Tom. “You’re gonna be so sorry, man.”
“Yeah, probably,” he said. “But I’ll never regret it.” Then he handed the envelope to the big detective and walked down the porch steps to his truck just as a patrol car pulled up and a uniformed officer got out. Down the street was a dark SUV with tinted windows, an unmarked police vehicle. Inside, watching the arrest, would be Detective Delaney and Mike. Tom went home to tell his family what he’d done.
Paul’s fifth wheel was hooked up to the back of his truck, and his bags were packed and sitting out on the front walk of the general’s house. Before going outside to leave, he put his arms around Vanessa and drew her against him, baby and all, and kissed her cheek. “Please come back very soon,” she whispered. “I could never have gotten through this without you.”
“I couldn’t have gotten through it without you, too,” he said. “You’ll be okay now, Vanni. If you need me, you just call.”
“I’m going to miss you more than you realize. You’ve been like one of the family,” she said.
“I know,” he said, and he thought, that’s why I have to go now. Because I can’t be like that to her anymore. Like a brother. It’s killing me. “Thank you for making me feel so welcome, so much a part of everything.”
“It was natural, Paul. It felt right, having you here. Now that the house is done, I’m afraid you won’t be around too much, and that’s gonna be awful.”
“Nah, I’ll be around. I come down regularly to meet up with the boys, to hunt or fish or play poker. Even if there’s no building to do here, there’s always that.”
“I’ll be taking the baby up to Grants Pass to see Matt’s folks. I’ll call you, okay?”
“You’d better,” he said. He kissed her forehead, then leaned down to kiss the baby’s forehead. “I’ll talk to you soon, I’m sure.”
He went out front where the general and Tom waited, and Vanessa followed. He shook Walt’s hand. “Thank you for everything, sir.”
“Don’t be ridiculous,” he said. “We’re in your debt.”
Paul gave his hand to Tom, then pulled him in for a hug. “I’m damn proud of you, son,” he said. “It was a hard thing, what you did. I hope it all works out okay.” And as Paul said that, the general patted his son’s back.
“Thanks,” Tom said, but he looked down when he said it. Then, raising his head, he said, “I’m going to miss you, man.”
“Yeah, me too, bud. Maybe I’ll get down here for graduation or something.”
“You know you’re welcome anytime. Standing reservation,” Walt said.
Paul nodded, picked up his duffel and suitcase, walked out to the road and threw them in the backseat of the extended-cab truck. He gave a wave and a toot of the horn as he drove off. He watched in the rearview mirror as Walt put an arm around Tom’s shoulders and led him away. But Vanessa stayed, patting the little bundle she pressed to her shoulder, watching as he drove away.
Maybe someday, he thought. Maybe someday.
Jack put the last of the boxes from the cabin into the back of his truck and leaned into the cab to blow the horn. Mel came out of the cabin and just stood on the porch, turning in a circle. She brushed a little imaginary dust off the arm of one of the Adirondack chairs. He shook his head and smiled. She was having a really hard time leaving, even though the new house was big and beautiful.
“Mel, come on,” he called.
“Coming,” she said. But she stood there a while longer. She was getting a nice little tummy on her now. She wore jeans, boots and a yellow sweater pulled down over her belly, her golden hair falling in thick curls over her shoulders and down her back. She was such a little thing; she could look like a pregnant teenager, standing up there like that. But as Jack knew too well, this was no girl. His woman was all woman.
He went to her because she wasn’t moving very fast. He took the porch steps in one long stride, lifted her chin and saw that she had tears in her eyes. “You going to cry again?”
“No,” she insisted.
He chuckled. “We own the place now, Mel. You’re not giving it up.”
“I’m just remembering,” she said. “Remember that night you brought me home and put me to bed after I’d had a couple of whiskeys on an empty stomach?”
“I remember.”
“And you left fishing gear for me to find when I woke up in the morning?”
“Yes,” he said, happy with the picture in his head of her wearing her brand-new waders and casting into the yard from the Adirondack chair. “I really thought I was going to get lucky that night.”
“You got lucky in that cabin more times than I can count,” she said. “David was born in that bed,” she said.
“Talk about getting lucky.” He laughed and pulled her into his arms. “Anytime you want to sneak out here and revisit the past, I’m your man.”
“I’m remembering how it was when I first got here—there was a bird’s nest in the oven.” She looked up at him. “You rebuilt this whole cabin for me—trying to get me to stay.”
“The second I saw you, I was doomed. I don’t know what would have become of me if you hadn’t stayed.”
“You’d have fewer children, I think. Jack, I had so many happy days and nights in this little cabin. My whole life was changed here.”
“And mine. Now come on, honey. We have a new house waiting.”
“Do you think we’ll be as happy in that new house as we’ve been here?”
He kissed her nose. “I guarantee it. Now, come on.”
With a heavy sigh she walked down the porch steps with him and got into the truck. She watched out the window dreamily as they drove through town and up the drive that had become her drive, feeling moody and nostalgic as though she was moving to another state when it was really less than a twenty-minute drive. She sighed again as she got out of the truck and walked toward the new porch, the new house.
He grabbed her hand and pulled her back. Then, lifting her into his arms, he carried her into the house and stood just inside the doorway, holding her. It was fabulous—Paul had clearly outdone himself. The floors were shiny hardwood, the ceiling of the great room was vaulted and beamed, the new tan leather furniture that sat around the stone hearth was lush and inviting. He walked farther into the house, past a beautiful, huge modern kitchen, which he believed would be the center of many gatherings in the future. Silver appliances, black granite counters, dark polished oak cabinets and a long oak table that could seat ten or more.
“What are you doing?” she asked him.
He carried her into a spacious master bedroom with king-size bed and large, man-sized bureaus. “Taking a little tour.” He pointed her toward the big new bed. “How do you like your new playpen?”
“Jack,” she said, laughing and tightening her arms around his neck.
He kissed her, a long, deep and lusty kiss. “I think we have time to christen the new house before Brie and Mike bring David out.”
“Oh, Jack, we have things to do around here.”
“We certainly do,” he said, laying her gently on the bed and leaning down to pull off her boots. “Yes, we do.”
The sheriff’s department’s detectives were extremely cooperative in letting Mike listen in on some of the interviews they conducted with both Jordan Whitley, Brendan Lancaster and students who may or may not have been victimized by the suspects. He considered it very fortunate that only three Virgin River girls seemed to have fallen prey, because there were others around Valley High School who appeared to be suspiciously likely to have been drugged and raped. And, as Tom had suspected, there were more drugs involved—what was referred to as white dope. Two short weeks after these young men were apprehended a fount of information and piles of reports had been generated and confessions were falling like raindrops around the county ADA.
Brie’s reputation as a prosecutor extended beyond the boundaries of the Sacramento Valley, and when she offered her services as a consultant to the local district attorney, they welcomed her help gratefully. The one thing she never thought she’d be able to do she did extremely well—she assisted in interviewing teenage girls who were likely rape victims. Her skills were impressive, but it was her compassion and finesse that probably assisted in prepping at least one girl for a possible trial. Carra Jean Winslow knew exactly what had happened to her, and who had raped her.
The most interesting thing to Mike—and so unsurprising as well—was that these boys, Whitley and Lancaster, were singularly unimpressive. They were neither clever nor savvy—they were simply idiots with access to dangerous drugs and the opportunity to use them. Lancaster had been present at a couple of raves held in a larger town down the coast where he had located and purchased GHB, sharing his wealth with Whitley. He also had a local marijuana dealer he worked with, and traded pot for meth and ecstasy. He had the stuff and was dealing. It boiled down to teens in search of a good time and the misfortune to have ended up being around these two losers.
It didn’t take Lancaster long to flip and turn on his suppliers. This delighted Delaney, who’d been looking hard for white-dope dealers. He was also willing to flip on Whitley—he was pretty much the only witness to the rapes. Unfortunately for Whitley, the only person he could turn over was Lancaster—so it looked as if the rape charges might stick.
No names of teenagers were published in the local papers, but that didn’t keep the word from spreading. In Virgin River, Mike found some of his neighbors wanted to express their gratitude for his work. He was given a case of good wine, half a butchered calf, a dozen jars of canned tomatoes that were put up last summer. He pulled a couple of bottles of wine from the case for Brie, but took the rest of the wine and produce to Preacher. Since he’d taken his job, Jack and Preacher hadn’t allowed him to pay anything for his meals at the bar. That was the way things worked around here. All for one, one for all…
Mike leaned against his SUV, waiting outside the sheriff’s department for someone, a young woman who had just completed her third round of questions with detectives. When Brenda Carpenter came out, a svelte young blue-jeaned girl with a book bag slung over her shoulder, he pushed off the car. “Hey,” he said.
“Hey,” she returned.
“I talked your dad into letting me give you a lift home. I thought maybe you and I could have a few minutes.”
“What for?” she asked with a shrug. “There can’t possibly be anything more you want to ask me. Not now.”
He opened the passenger door for her. “Nah. No more questions. But I might want to tell you a couple of things.”
She gave a heavy sigh, but needing that ride, she got in. Mike hurried to the driver’s side, because once they were under way, she couldn’t refuse to go with him. “Brenda, it was very brave, what you did,” he said.
“I didn’t have that much of a choice,” she said.
“Well, but you did. You could have lied, you could have refused to talk to anyone, you could have feigned sick…. I can think of a hundred ways you could’ve been unhelpful—but you gutted it out. And knowing what that meant to you, I just wanted to thank you.”
She looked at him. “Why thank me?” she asked.
“Well, it’s my town—you’re my family, my people. If I’m doing my job, I try to make sure you’re safe. Believe me, I know from personal experience how hard it is to answer some of those questions.”
“Yeah. Your wife,” she said. “You must think I’m a pretty big sissy for holding out so long after what your wife was brave enough to do.”
“Not at all, Brenda. Number one, my wife is thirty-one. Number two, she’s not only a lawyer, but one with experience in prosecuting dangerous criminals. Three—she had some serious backup in me and Jack and many others. You’re just a kid who was never sure what happened to you. You were up against a lot.”
“Thanks. I guess.”
“Really, kiddo. For me and Brie—we’ve been through some scary stuff and have kind of thick hides by now. Now all we want is a peaceful life in a peaceful town.” He laughed. “Jesus, I hope that’s not asking too much.”
She was quiet for a long moment. “I’m sorry you went through all that. I know what it’s like.”
“Thank you, I know you do,” he said. “Hopefully it’s behind us now. We want a family, you know. You get to be my age, you don’t want to miss too many chances at that.”
“Were you proud of her? Your wife?”
“Oh, kid,” he said in a breath. “She was amazing. She was so afraid, so sick inside, so vulnerable…. But one thing you learn as you get older—it’s usually better to face the threat and the fear than try to dodge it. In the end the most important thing is that you have no regrets.”
“Because it’s never as bad as you fear?” she asked.
He laughed. “Did someone tell you that? Because sometimes it is as bad as you fear, or even worse. And sometimes you have to do it anyway, because the kind of life you’re left with if you don’t isn’t really of the same value. Brie is a perfect example of that. She went after that guy for raping women, knowing that if she couldn’t get him, he would be free to hurt more women and even free to go after her. But ignoring him would not only have the same effect, she would have to add to it that she never tried to do the right thing. Double pain. Double regret. To try your hardest and then fail—no shame in that. To do nothing? It just ends up being harder to live with.”
“The detective said he doesn’t know what will happen to those guys…Doesn’t even know if there will be a trial.”
“They don’t even know if they’ll do time. I think almost all the drug charges were pled down for information that will help the police with bigger cases. I don’t think they pled down any of the sexual assault, but if I were Whitley’s lawyer, I’d talk him into a plea agreement rather than a trial. He goes to trial, he’s so cooked.”
“No time?” she asked.
“Don’t worry, Brenda—he’s over eighteen, barely. He’s outta here—he won’t be back in school with you. Since he made bail, he’s been in another city with his father. He isn’t going to be back here. He’d get tarred and feathered.”
“What if…?” She stopped and thought a second. “What if I’d come forward sooner? Would I have saved anyone?”
“Don’t know,” he answered. “But, honey, when your number was called, you stood up, you told the truth and you helped get the job done. You should be very proud of yourself. I’m very proud of you. We all are.”
The next afternoon at about four, Mike drove out to the general’s house. He parked in front, but saw that there was someone down by the corral, forearms leaning on the top rail, one booted foot hoisted onto the bottom. That was who Mike was looking for and he walked down the small hill. “Tom,” he said to the boy’s back.
The boy turned, saw it was him and said, “How you doing?”
“Good. How about you?” Mike asked, joining him at the fence, aping his stance, one foot on the bottom rail, forearms on the top.
“Getting by,” Tom said.
“You having any trouble at school?” Mike asked.
“Nah,” he said. “There’s a lot of talk, but I’m not answering any questions.”
“What kind of talk?” Mike asked.
Tom shrugged. “Some people think they know that I got him caught, but no one’s sure. Well, no one but Brenda.”
“You did a good piece of work there, Tom. I know that was tough.”
Tom gave a huff of unamused laughter. “Yeah, but then again, no. I felt like I had two choices—turn him over or just beat the living shit out of him.”
“I would’ve felt exactly that way.”
“Is it coming together? You guys get the little prick?”
“Yeah, he is totally gotten. He started spilling his guts almost immediately. For a while there he thought he could put it on Lancaster—but it turns out that Lancaster liked getting drunk and high, while it was Whitley’s project to get the girls.”
Tom winced. “Beautiful. I should’ve just killed him.”
“It wouldn’t have worn well on you. So, you’re hanging in there?”
He shrugged. “I go to basic training with the Army right after graduation. Then the Point. I’ll manage.”
“There’s lots of stuff going on between now and then. Prom and stuff…”
“Nah. I’m just doing time. I’ll be gone before you know it.”
“What about Brenda?” Mike asked.
“There’s no girl, man. I sold her out. She’s finished with me.”
“You sure about that?”
“Oh, yeah,” he said. “We don’t talk. She won’t even look at me.”
“I saw her over at the sheriff’s department—she wears that bracelet you gave her. The pretty one with her name on it.”
“I know. I think she’s punishing me with it. Gives me false hope.”
“Maybe that wasn’t quite it,” Mike said. “Maybe she was just scared and mad, but not really finished.”
“I wish,” he said, leaning on the rail and looking down. “Nah, she said she hated me, and she’s pretty much acting like it.”
“You regret what you did?”
“No, can’t get there,” he said. “That guy had to be stopped. That stuff can’t happen. It’s wrong.” He coughed. “I knew there was a price.”
Mike clamped a hand on his back. “Tom, a man who will do what he has to do even though there’s a price, that’s a man I want at my back when there’s trouble. You did the right thing.”
“Sure,” he said inconsolably. “Glad you got him,” he added.
“I brought someone to see you,” Mike said.
Tom straightened. “Yeah? Who?”
Mike inclined his head over his shoulder and Tom turned. Behind him about twenty feet stood Brenda, her hands clasped in front of her. Tom looked at Brenda, at Mike, at Brenda again.
“Oh, God,” Tom said. “Brenda?”
He took a couple of steps toward her and she ran to him. Mike stepped back and watched with a melancholy smile on his face. Tom snatched her up into his arms, lifting her clear of the ground. She hugged his neck while he held her tight and he heard what sounded like laughter mixed up with tears. And then of course the sound was muffled because it was buried in kisses that were desperate and heartfelt.
“You can probably give her a ride home later,” Mike said, though no one acknowledged that they’d heard. He shook his head in silent laughter and started back up the hill. As he was nearing the house, he looked up to see the general in one of his big picture windows. Walt slowly lifted a hand toward Mike and saluted him.
Mike returned the salute.
When Mike got back to town, it was already dinnertime. He was ready for a beer, but he went to the RV first to see if Brie was back from helping her brother and sister-in-law at the new house—a work in progress with wallpapering, unpacking, cleaning, settling. And he found she was there, wearing her bathrobe, patting dry her long hair with a towel. Every time his eyes even fell on her, he felt himself swell with pride that she would choose him.
It had been a long six weeks since the trial in Sacramento. The color was back in her cheeks, the sparkle in her eyes. Assisting the ADA in Humboldt County was gratifying for her; she was proud she could contribute. And she was enjoying the help she could give Mel and Jack, having a good time with her little nephew. It was so satisfying to know she felt secure and at peace once again. To have her in his life, to hold her and tell her he adored her, this was enough to make him feel as any king might feel.
“You’re back,” he said, going to her for a kiss.
“They’re very close to being all settled now. I papered the new baby’s bedroom, with no help from Davie, I might add.”
“Are you hungry?”
“Ravenous. You?”
“It’s been a long day,” he admitted.
“And all that date-rape business? It’s still falling into place for the ADA?”
“Better than I could have hoped, acting alone as I was. They’re doing a fantastic job with it, and you were instrumental in that. These people can have it behind them soon.”
“Which means we’ll have it behind us,” she said.
He threaded a hand under her long hair, gently massaging her neck. “There will be more cases for you, mija. Your skills are so valuable here. Thank you for that.”
“We have other things to do, Miguel. For one thing, there’s that baby. We need to get to work on that baby.”
His grin was immediate and huge. “I thought I had been working on the baby,” he said.
“You’ve been doing your best, I’m sure, if a little distracted by work. Now that all this stuff is handled, we can give it serious attention.”
“How do you feel about takeout?”
“Excellent idea,” she said, standing to loosen the belt around her robe.
A year and a half ago Mike Valenzuela lay in a coma in an L.A. hospital, his family wondering if he would live, and Brie Sheridan was trying to survive the reality of her husband abandoning her for another woman, and a few months later trying to recover from a violent crime. Neither had dared hope they would come out of these traumas with their health and sanity, much less a love that felt eternal. A love so fulfilling and endless that anything seemed possible. And yet for both of them, something had been born that exceeded their wildest fantasies.
“Do you have any idea how much I love you?” he asked her.
“That’s the best part,” she answered. “I do.”