I won’t claim Ottawa never warned us. There was no missing the travel advisories. Match a profile, and you had damn well better know Title 19 by heart, especially the search authority part. To US Customs and Border Protection, it is the gift that keeps on giving, ever adaptable to changing times and minds:
We rely upon the judgment of our individual CBP officers to use their discretion as to the extent of examination necessary.
Jordy and I failed to grasp the obvious, of course, how the definition of discretion also fell to the individual officer’s discretion, and American vocabulary skills were shit to begin with.
What did we know? We’d been cocooned by the burbs, Montreal’s West Island, raised vanilla to respect and trust authority. People got what they deserved. It wasn’t in our genes to think twice.
Anyhow, I’ve put it down like you asked, while it’s all still fresh. I am cooperating. You see that. Hiding nothing. God’s honest truth. No matter how it sounds.
Monday morning, Jordy shows up at my door early. “You didn’t answer your phone,” he says, ignores the fact he’s dragged me out of bed, and launches into this big song and dance. Tells me how Min’s morning sickness carries through to the afternoons most days. Wants to know if I’ll drive him to Plattsburgh. “Min’s afraid she’ll puke in the car.”
I’m available. The “tweaking” of NAFTA has not been kind to me. Still, I give him an earful: “For Christ’s sake, you’re almost thirty. Learn to drive, already. You’re going to have a kid. Your wife and me, we’re not your goddamned chauffeurs.”
He laughs me off, as usual, twirls the split ends of that God-awful scraggly ugly beard of his. “You know your problem?”
“Yeah, yeah. The big picture. I never see the big picture.”
“You have any idea the endorsement deals waiting for me when I’m done with this? Min and me, we’ll be rolling in it, man. I’ll make you my manager. We’ll be like the guys on Entourage.”
Jordy is focused, I tell you. He’s training for that World Marathon Challenge thing. Seven marathons on seven continents in seven days. Nuts, I know, but dreams are dreams and if anyone can pull it off, Jordy can. He’s tanned and leathery and in the best shape of his life. Not a smidge of fat. I’ve known the guy since grade school and have yet to meet anyone more driven, his elusive driver’s permit notwithstanding. Once, half-joking, I asked what was chasing him. You’d have thought I’d just pissed on his grandma’s grave. “I’ll let you know when it catches up,” he said. “If it doesn’t kill me first.”
The red steel roof of the new Refugee Processing Centre at Hemmingford cuts above the treetops as we enter the final stretch of Quebec 15 south to US 87. “A shame they had to build it, eh?”
“Yeah,” Jordy says, but I can he see doesn’t know what the hell I’m talking about.
“After the refugees started flooding in? When the Safe Third Party Agreement fell apart?”
God, he’s clueless. Like where’s his brain? I school him best I can. Explain how there’s a bunch across the country, now. How the red roofs are famous world over. A symbol of hope or whatever. How everybody loves Canada. Except Red Roof Inns, who are suing for trademark infringement.
He says, “Min and I stayed at a Red Roof Inn when we went to Niagara Falls.”
“Yeah. Great.” Two exits before customs. We can turn around easy. And I can salvage what’s left of my day. “You ever check out the cost of your shoes online?” I ask.
“What do you think?” he says.
Also, I admit, the closer we get to the border, the edgier I get. Too much Politico, NPR, and Michael Moore will do that to a person. “You’ve done the math, right? I mean, factoring in the gas, the exchange rate—how much are you saving? Really?”
“Like five hundred bucks for three pairs.”
“Damn. That much, eh?”
“And don’t forget the fit, man. Fit is critical.”
The lines at the Champlain border crossing into New York State have been shrinking since 2017. It’s the wait times that have gone up. Way up.
“Murphy’s Law,” Jordy says. “For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction.”
“Newton’s,” I tell him. “It’s Newton’s Third Law.” Half-right is Jordy’s forte.
“Either way, we wait.”
Banks. Supermarkets. Public urinals. Strategic queuing is a skill I have yet to acquire. I gamble on Lane 4. Three cars, a Winnebago, and a pickup ahead of us.
Jordy is impressed. “Good thinking. Probably old farts in the camper. They’ll whisk ’em right through.”
But they do not whisk anybody through, least of all the presumed snowbirds. “I’ve got a bad feeling,” I say, as the Winnebago is directed to the side.
“Talk about red flags,” Jordy says. “You see their bumper sticker? The COEXIST thing. The moon and star and peace and cross crap? C’mon, eh? Use your brain. They were asking for it.”
“This is taking forever. God, I hate lines.”
“Relax, man. I’ll buy you lunch.”
“At the rate we’re moving, you’ll be buying me dinner.”
“We could change lanes, if you want. Could be our guy’s a hardass.”
“Yeah. Brilliant, Jord. Wouldn’t look the least bit suspicious.”
“Jesus, man, get a grip. How many times we gone to Plattsburgh, eh? When have we ever had a problem? Trust me, man, we are not who they are looking for.”
Our CBP officer is pink and pudgy-faced, his chest a platform for his double-wide chin. He reminds me of that recently dead comedian—you know, used to be on SNL, back when they were getting away with the political stuff. He smiles and I relax as we hand over our passports. “How are you boys doing today?” he says, and segues to the next question. “And the purpose of your visit?”
“Shopping,” I say.
“Sneakers,” Jordy clarifies, and lifts a foot for the show and tell—the stylized yellow and black lightning bolts of his Trexis 880s. “Best ones out there. Worth every penny.”
“That’s some beard you got there,” the officer says.
“Thanks,” Jordy laughs.
“What’s the problem—no sneakers in Canada?”
“More bang for your buck in the States. Especially now, the crazy tariffs and all…”
“Crazy? What do you mean by ‘crazy’?”
“Well, you know…”
“No, I don’t. Who are you calling crazy?”
“I didn’t mean—”
“Run a lot, do you?”
“Does he ever!” My enthusiasm is over the top. I’m trying to compensate for something, though unclear on what. “He’s been training for the World Marathon—”
“I’m not talking to you,” the guy barks, “I’m talking to him.” I squeak to silence as my larynx drops to the vicinity of my butt.
Jordy keeps it cool. “Marathons, mostly.”
“Fast, are you?”
“I’m more into the endurance end.”
“Uh-huh. Endurance. Big word. Big word.” He holds our passports aloft, one per hand, compares photos and faces. “Jordan, huh?” he says, with this snotty smirk. “An Arab name, isn’t it?”
Again, Jordy laughs.
“Something funny?”
“No, sir. Sorry. I just—”
“Egypt. Syria. Jordan.” He is daring Jordy to dispute the assertion. “No?”
“I’m Canadian,” Jordy says.
“Muslim Canadian.”
“Canadian Canadian.”
“So what’s with the beard, then?”
“My wife likes men with hairy—”
“Your passport picture. Is this even you? Not a hair on your face here. And how is it you’re white in the photo and brown in the flesh?”
“It was taken before I—”
“Pull over for secondary inspection, please.” He points to where the Winnebago is parked.
“But I can expla—”
“Pull over for secondary inspection, please.” He waves a hand, and two soldiers in camouflage chic materialize in the roadway ahead. They do not raise their guns all the way, only enough of the way.
They confiscate our watches and phones, request our passwords. We do not argue.
They herd us into a room with a horde of others in a similar fix.
The walls are white. The lighting is weird, feels like a strip search, somehow. Rows of attached chairs dominate the space. Blue plastic seats all facing front—toward this broad glass partition with offices behind, uniforms flitting back and forth.
“Product idea!” Jordy quips at my ear. “An antiperspirant for desperation.” I step to distance myself from him. The hopelessness of the place is palpable. And it’s standing room only.
Men. Women. Kids. Babies. Asleep. Awake. Collapsed to the floor, resigned to the corners. Like an airport during an extended weather delay, but without the windows, exits, Starbucks, and chummy chitchat.
Names are called. Detainees escorted out. Detainees escorted in.
A short stocky man in a navy suit struts up to the counter, demands a lawyer. “I have rights,” he bellows. His voice is hoarse, crackly. He’s Indian or maybe Pakistani. But his accent, it’s British. He pivots, climbs onto his soapboax, pleads with us to join him in rising up against our oppressors. “We have our rights.”
A woman CBP officer tells him to shut up and sit down or she’ll be forced to put him in restraints. “It’s your final warning.” She’s loud. Real loud. So the whole room hears.
This is when it hits me. The brown guy, he’s an exception. Pretty much everyone here looks like me, talks like me, dresses like me. God, the arrogance, it kicks me in the head. It’s nothing I expected. Or imagined. We’re coming up on four years of this immigration craziness and we are the only people who have failed to get the message. Like our whiteness is our amulet, our birthright inviolable.
I get it now. I see what’s going on. CBP has run out of brown and black people to harass. Men in pajamas and funny hats. Women patrons of third-world H&M stores.
I feel shame. For myself. For every dumb-ass in this zoo. Winnebago seniors and 4X4 hockey moms. Country clubbers and hayseeds. Barbies and Kens. Hipsters and divas. Frumps and fatties. Geeks and glad-handers. Saints and shits. Bikers and slackers with holes in their ears and tats up the wazoo. Even the cabal of graying hippie chicks, their Pussyhats and sweatshirts and tinplate provocations.
HE’S NOT MY PRESIDENT
WE SHALL OVERCOME
GO INTERCOURSE THYSELF
MAKE AMERICA AMERICA AGAIN
OPRAH 2020
And then I come to Jordy. Jeez, I see what the CBP guy saw. Jordy is as much of an exception as the wannabe rabble-rouser. If not more. That stupid beard of his. That stupid tan. Suddenly I’m worried. Not for me, but for my best friend.
People speak in whispers, if they speak at all. As if anything they say could and would be used against them.
Squinty-eyed portraits of the president pass judgement from three walls. I stop my count at fourteen. Straight ahead, sweeping across the expanse above the glass partition, an inspirational quote in shimmery gold calligraphy:
It is our right as a sovereign nation to choose immigrants we think are the likeliest to thrive and flourish and love us.
We’re five hours in (best guess), when our names come up. They lead us down a narrow hallway and into a maze of lefts and rights, where doors outnumber walls. And portraits everywhere you turn. A freaking presidential art gallery.
They shunt Jordy one way and me the other. He shrugs, rolls his eyes as we part.
My room is a walk-in closet. I sit at a table, a vacant chair opposite. I am given water in a plastic cup. Here, His portrait has a Washington-Crossing-the-Delaware vibe, broad stars and bright stripes in perilous flight.
I doze off. Two minutes. Two hours. Who knows? My interrogator shakes me awake. He’s bald. His face a fist with smoker’s teeth. He’s a dead ringer for my tenth-grade shop teacher, Mr. Mitnick, except he’s got all his fingers.
He spins his chair around, straddles it back to front, arms hugging the seat back. “Tough day, huh? I apologize if any of my associates have behaved inappropriately toward you.”
“It’s been okay, I guess.”
“Taken from our perspective, however, you need to understand: It would appear you have quite the hate for America.”
What the hell do I say to that?
“You don’t hold back on Facebook, do you? All that rage, how our president cost you your job—your future, as you put it.”
“Because of NAFTA…”
“Quite the hate, I’m afraid. Quite the hate, son. All those Facebook likes. Any story to bad-mouth America, and you were there. Our electoral process. Our gun laws. Our healthcare. Our schools. Any idea how many likes in all? Go ahead. Guess. Guess.”
I shake my head.
“Fifteen thousand, one hundred and forty-one in the last three years alone. Fifteen thousand, one hundred and forty-one. If that isn’t hate for America…”
“I’m sorry.”
“Good. Sorry is a start. That’s why I’m going to tell you: Your friend has confessed to everything, so there’s no point in you covering up. All we need is your corroboration.”
“Jordy?”
“Your Muslim pal.”
“He’s not Muslim.”
“Uh-huh. And how long you two been a couple?”
“Like gay?”
“Two grown men? Your age? Traveling together?”
“We’re not gay.”
“Not a pro-LGBQXYZ story you didn’t like on Facebook. Not one.”
“Jordy’s married.”
“Lots of fudge-packers are.”
“Jesus, man.”
“You members of the same mosque? Is that where you met?”
“Beechwood School. First grade.”
“Who recruited him? Why’s he so desperate to get into the States?”
“This is crazy.”
“Crazy. Like how your friend insulted our president earlier? How would you like me to visit your country and call your president crazy?”
“We don’t have a pre—”
“What’s the extent of North Korea’s involvement?”
“Huh?”
“Jordan’s wife. Is she behind this?”
“Min? She’s from Seoul. He met her when he was teaching ESL over there. They’re having a baby.”
“Name me a jihadi who isn’t.”
“Jordy’s no terrorist.”
“Then why the beard? Why so much time spent on Oman and United Arab Emirate websites? Huh? Answer me that, smart guy?”
“You don’t understand. It’s for the race.”
“The Muslim race…”
“No. No. The World Marathon Challenge. Oman and the UAE are two of the countries he’ll be running through.”
“My, my, won’t that be convenient. They must be waiting for him with open arms. A hero’s homecoming.”
“Look, call his parents. Call Min. They’ll tell you everything.”
“Min. His North Korean wife. Miscegenation is a big thing up in Canada, I hear. Anything goes with you people, huh?”
“What? What?”
“You’ve got an answer for everything, don’t you? Explain this, then—explain all the money your friend’s been stashing away.”
“The Kickstarter and GoFundMe things?”
“Keep talking.”
“He needs sponsors. For the Marathon. The entry fee alone is like fifty thousand—”
“State sponsors?”
“Sponsor sponsors.”
“North Korea, Oman, and the United Arab Emirates.”
“Jeez, man, look it up. The World Marathon Challenge. It’s a race. Honest. What do you want from me, anyhow?”
“The truth.”
“That’s what I’ve been telling you.”
“Except for the actual purpose of your visit.”
“Sneakers, damn it, sneakers.”
“So that’s what you and Jordan are—sneaker agents.”
“Uh, you mean, like sleeper agents?”
“If the shoe fits…”
“Look, Jordy needs sneakers. They’re cheaper in the States. His wife is sick, so he asked me to drive him to Plattsburgh. That’s it.”
“Without luggage?”
“It’s only for the day.”
“What did you say the name of your mosque was, again?”
“I’ve never set foot in any mosque.”
“But Jordan has. We have pictures.”
“It’s no secret. For a wedding. A friend’s wedding.”
“And yet you still maintain he’s not Muslim?”
“He doesn’t even believe in God, for Christ’s sake. Neither of us do.”
“That’s okay. No matter, God believes in you and God loves you. And right now, He’s hoping you’ll find it in your heart to do the right thing.”
“Jesus.”
“Yes. Jesus is hoping, too.”
“Aren’t I entitled to a phone call or something? A lawyer? The Canadian embassy?”
“That’s what socialists say.”
“No, it isn’t.”
“When was the last time you and Jordan did the hajj pilgrimage?”
“The what?”
“Do you use drugs?”
“No.”
“Have you ever used or knowingly possessed marijuana?”
“It’s now legal in Canada, you know?”
“Finally, we’re getting somewhere.”
“Can I have another cup of water?”
He stands. “I’ll do my best for you, son. I can’t promise anything, but I’ll do my best.”
Again, he wakes me up. He tells me I’ve been denied entry into the United States. I ask why. He says, “You know why.”
“Aren’t you supposed to give me a document with the reasons in writing?” The CBC had a primer on its website.
“Let’s just say you were never here, and leave it at that.”
“Seriously?” He hands me an envelope containing my phone and watch, leads me down a hallway to a bolted steel door. “But what about Jordy?”
“Oh, yeah. Your friend. Didn’t I tell you? He was cleared to cross hours ago. Champlain Centre Mall, I think he said. Probably home and enjoying his new sneakers by now.”
The fresh air feels good as I step outside, the sun just breaking above the horizon. Holy crap! I can’t believe it’s Tuesday. Mostly, though, I can’t believe the prick went on ahead without me. And then it dawns: Jordy can’t drive. Jesus Christ, the asshole cannot drive. I turn to protest, too late.
I go to use my phone. The battery is dead.
You know the fun I had getting home. I won’t repeat. It’s dark. I’m wiped. I’m angry. And I sure as hell want to hear Jordy’s side of the story before I kill him. Here, at least, I’m glad my phone is dead. Better to cool off before calling him.
I grab a beer, turn on the TV, and I swear, it’s the first I hear of the attacks. Montana. Idaho. Minnesota. Michigan. Pennsylvania. New York. The small communities still reeling. And every target within shouting distance of the border. Including that diner north of Plattsburgh.
They’re interviewing a survivor. A waitress. “He comes running in like he’s hopped up on something. And the whole place goes up. No. No warning. Nothing. Some say he shouted that allu-whatever thing, but I didn’t hear nothing.”
The camera pans to the devastation, closes in on what’s left of the “alleged” attacker. Not much. Except a leg poking out from under a plastic sheet. A leg. The footage is shaky, grainy, but there’s no denying what I see. The stylized lightning bolts. Zigzags of yellow and black. Trexis 880s, for Christ’s sake. You bet I lost it.
Nothing fits. Nothing makes sense. I’m not even aware the president is blathering away on TV until he’s almost done—when he regurgitates the myth about the 9/11 hijackers coming from Canada. I cribbed the part from this morning’s Gazette. You need to look at this in context of what I’ve told you. Follow the evidence. Connect the dots. Or whatever.
“…tragically, once again, because Canada has opened its doors to terrorists, innocent Americans have paid the ultimate sacrifice. Make no mistake, this is a repeat of 9/11. For the second time in a generation, coordinated attacks on the United States were orchestrated on and launched from Canadian soil. Let me not mince words, if Canada insists on maintaining its reckless immigration policies…resists our calls to root out radical Islamic fundamentalists within its borders…the United States of America will do it for them.”
And then this morning, you guys knock on my door, bring me down here. You tell me you’re RCMP, I figure for sure it’s Jordy you’ve come to talk about. But this other business, when you showed me those pictures on my phone. How many times do I need to tell you? THEY ARE NOT MINE. I swear to God. I DID NOT DOWNLOAD THEM. Little kids? Me? Christ, no way. Never. I’ve got nephews. I’m no perv. I don’t care who tipped you off, you’ve got to believe me. They’re lying. Just like there’s no record of me being at the border. Jordy and I were played. Now you’re being played.
You think I don’t know how paranoid I sound? How far-fetched all this is? Yeah, well, you want to know what’s far-fetched? Look who got elected president four years ago. Look who just declared martial law and suspended the next election.