...[CHAPTER 3].................
Idon’t know why I couldn’t sleep in late this morning, especially after not sleeping too well last night. Maybe it was the sunlight pouring through my east-facing window. Or maybe it was the call of the swimming pool down below. But at a little past nine, I’m in my swimsuit, wrapped in a beach towel, and, with my key in hand, heading downstairs for a morning swim.
It’s weird, because I definitely have a spring in my step. It’s like I’m in a different world today. I’m here in sunny California and it feels like I just came back to summer. Oregon in mid-October can be beautiful … or it can be gloomy and gray. When I left, it was damp and dreary … and a little depressing.
I test the temperature of the water, and seeing that it’s comfortable, I drop my towel on a chair and dive in. Naturally, the water feels colder on my body than it did on my foot, but after a few strokes, I’m acclimated — and it feels good, refreshing, invigorating. I feel more alive right now than I’ve felt in a long time.
I used to be on swim team. Until I developed curves. That’s when Mom decided it was “indecent to go around in a skimpy team suit for all those teenage boys to gawk at,” but I still love to swim. Who knows, maybe I’ll look into it again at my new school. Although I’m afraid I’d be too out of shape to really compete without too much humiliation.
Despite being out of shape, I easily swim for about an hour. Then I find a nice sunny spot where I park myself on a chaise lounge and soak up some sun, even falling asleep for a while.
When I wake up, I’m toasty warm and very thirsty. The clock on the fence says it’s getting close to eleven and I’m guessing Dad might be up by now. I head back upstairs, unlock the door, and come into the condo in time to see a tangle of arms and legs on the black leather sofa. It takes me a couple of seconds before I realize it’s my dad — and a blonde!
I turn my head away and, without saying a word, hurry past them. I’m not sure if they even saw me or not. With a pounding heart, I remind myself of my new laissez-faire attitude. Let it go, I tell myself as I turn on the shower. Live and let live. But, cheese whiz, I think as I vigorously shampoo my hair, why couldn’t they take their little act behind closed doors? As I apply conditioner, I wonder about Stella or whatever her name is — how old is she? I swear she looked about my age, but then I couldn’t really see her face — as it appeared superglued to my dad’s face.
“Live and let live,” I say out loud. “Just chill and let it go.”
By the time I’m drying my hair, I feel a little calmer. And by the time I put a little curl into the ends — I’m not sure why even, but I suspect I’m just trying to delay the inevitable — I think I can handle this.
Finally, dressed and ready to face whatever it is that’s waiting for me, I emerge from my room to the smell of something good cooking, which reminds me that I really am hungry.
“Hey, Hay,” my dad hails. “Come and meet Estelle.”
So it’s Estelle, not Stella. I paste on a smile and go into the kitchen to see a very young-looking blonde woman stirring what looks like eggs. Dad does an introduction and, feeling conspicuous, I reach out and shake her hand. She looks a little surprised but shakes mine, too.
“Do you like omelets, Haley?” she asks brightly.
“Sure, but you don’t have to cook for me.”
“Estelle brought breakfast things over,” Dad says. “She’s a really good cook.”
“You just pick out what you want in it,” Estelle tells me. “There are mushrooms, green onions, and a bunch of other things by the sink. Just throw what you want in a bowl and bring it to me. I used to work in a resort restaurant where I had to pump these out for a waiting customer every couple of minutes.”
I gather some things and take them to Estelle as she’s sliding an omelet onto a plate for Dad. He leans over and plunks a kiss on the top of her head. “Thanks, babe.”
Thanks, babe? I try not to wrinkle my nose in disgust, but I can’t help but think I never saw him treating my mom like that. Still, I’m not going there.
I wait and watch as Estelle cracks and whips up the eggs, then pours them into the sizzling pan. She adds my ingredients, using a spatula to gently turn the edges of the omelet, lets it cook a bit longer, and finally slides it onto a plate. “Here you go, Haley. And there are blueberry muffins by the fridge.”
“Thanks.” I don’t kiss her on top of her head. I grab a muffin and go over to sit by Dad at the breakfast bar.
“Isn’t she something?” he says to me.
I just nod and say, “Uh-huh.” I’m watching her as I eat. Barefoot and dressed in yellow shorts and a white tank top, she looks shorter than me, about five foot six I’d guess, but her tanned legs look long and slender for her height, and her figure is good. Really good. Plus she’s got that kind of long blonde hair most girls seem willing to spend hours of breathing fumes at a salon to achieve. And she’s pretty. Not drop-dead gorgeous, but definitely pretty. I glance over at Dad and I swear he’s drooling as he watches her. Or maybe it’s the eggs.
“This is yummy, Estelle.”
She’s coming over to join us now, setting her plate opposite Dad and me. “Well, I thought with Haley here, you might want to have a real breakfast.” She sits down and gives him a coy grin. “Just don’t expect this kind of treatment every Sunday.”
My dad feigns disappointment. “Oh, just when I’d gotten my hopes up.”
“Well, I suppose we could arrange something.”
I can tell their banter is full of sexual innuendo — things no daughter should have to hear coming from her father and his girlfriend. So I decide to change the subject. “Are you from around here, Estelle, or a transplant like Dad?”
“I grew up just a few miles from here.” She rolls her eyes. “I keep telling Gordon I don’t understand why he wanted to live here in Mayberry.”
“Because it’s cheaper than Fresno,” he offers.
“But is it worth it?” She holds her fork in the air. “I mean, like the restaurants.” She looks at me. “There are two.”
“Two?” I blink.
Dad laughs. “That’s not true.” He starts naming them off, including ones like McDonald’s and Burger King.
“Those aren’t restaurants,” she says. “I’m talking about places you’d take your girl for dinner.”
He nods. “Well, I suppose you’re right. But there’s more than two, Estelle.”
“But they roll up the sidewalks by eight. And there’s only one movie theater and — ”
“At least it’s a quad,” he shoots back.
“With pathetic movies.”
“Well, I’ve heard good things about the schools in this one-horse town. Haley should appreciate that.” Dad glances at me.
Estelle gets a slightly wistful look now. “Yeah, Mitchell High is pretty good for a high school.” She sighs as she forks into her eggs. “I had some good times there.”
“When did you graduate?” I ask, hoping I’m not too obvious. But, seriously, I want to know — how old is she? In some ways, she doesn’t seem much older than me.
She narrows her eyes slightly, like she’s summing me up or perhaps offended by my question. “About ten years ago,” she tells me evenly, almost with a challenge in her tone.
“Oh. Do you think it’s changed much since then?” Hopefully this will smooth over my slightly impertinent question.
She shrugs. “I doubt it. My little brother goes there, and whenever I attend an event, it seems pretty much the same.”
“So did you get all your classes online like I told you to do?” Dad asks me.
“I think so.”
“I took care of all your fees and things,” he says. “So you should be all set for Monday.”
“Are you nervous about a new school?” Estelle asks.
Now I shrug. “I guess so.”
“Hey, I should introduce you to Buck.”
I frown. “Buck?”
“My baby brother.”
Dad laughs. “Baby brother just doesn’t sound right when you’re describing Buck Anderson.” He looks at me. “Buck is six foot four and outweighs me by a long shot.”
“He’s a defensive linebacker,” Estelle explains. “And Mitchell has a really good football team this year.”
“This town is big into football,” Dad tells me.
I let out a groan.
“Hey, you were acting like you liked it last night when we watched the Raiders game from last week.”
“Wasn’t that a great game?” Estelle says.
With them discussing the Raiders game, I take my empty plate to the sink, rinse it, and place it in the dishwasher. I consider offering to clean up, but they seem to be lingering, and suddenly I feel even more out of place. “Thanks for breakfast, Estelle. It was nice to meet you, but I want to go catch up on some e-mails. Excuse me.”
She smiles. “Someone raised you right, Haley.” She elbows Dad. “I guess it wasn’t you.”
Dad lets out a moan.
“Actually, Dad was around for most of my life,” I tell her. “It’s only been three years since the divorce.”
Estelle looks surprised. “Just three years?” she questions Dad.
“Well, the marriage was over long before that. But, yes, the divorce was about three years ago.”
Now I excuse myself again and this time I leave. As I walk to my room, I realize that Estelle is probably closer to my age than to Dad’s. And math isn’t even my strong subject. I close the door to my room and sit at my computer, but the truth is I don’t have e-mail to check. Most kids my age don’t use e-mail. They text. But then they have cell phones. And that reminds me of something. So after about thirty minutes, I go back out and find them cleaning up. I offer to help, but they’re nearly done.
“Dad?” I begin carefully.
“Yeah?” He’s pouring himself a last cup of coffee.
“I don’t have a cell phone and I’m wonder—”
“You don’t have a cell phone?” Estelle looks shocked. “Seriously?”
I shake my head no.
“Haley’s mom is, well, shall I say a bit conservative.” “
You’re sixteen, right?” Estelle is looking at me like I’m an alien.
“Yes.”
“Have you ever had a cell phone?”
Again with the shake of the head.
“Do you know how to drive?” she asks.
“My mom wasn’t comfortable with that either.”
Estelle gives my dad an incredulous look. “What is wrong with your ex-wife, Gordon?”
“It’s a long story.”
“Well, someday I’d like to hear it.” She tosses the wadded dish towel on the counter. “But I think it’s high time you got this little girl a cell phone, Daddy.”
Now my preference would’ve been for just Dad and me to go cell phone shopping, but instead I find myself in the backseat of Dad’s SUV, listening as Estelle goes on about some scandal going on in their workplace. I’m really trying to like this woman, but something about her sets my teeth on edge. Still, I’m determined to act civilized and hide my true emotions.
Estelle takes over at the cell phone shop, telling me what I want and why I want it. She even pushes me to get a hot pink phone — and I hate hot pink. But when we leave, there is a hot pink phone in my bag. I wonder if I can paint it. Maybe if I sanded it a little, my acrylic paints would stick. I study the phone and imagine how I can make it look really cool. Estelle continues to chatter away at my dad. As she goes on about a fashion-challenged coworker, I make a mental list of all the things I hate about this chick:
I’m just finishing my list when I see that we’re on the freeway. “Where are we going?”
“Didn’t you hear Estelle saying she wanted to do some shopping?”
“Uh, no …”
“You don’t mind, do you?” Dad glances at Estelle uneasily.
“You might want to do some shopping too.” Estelle turns around in the seat and peers at me. “I mean, you are starting at a new school tomorrow, and from what I’ve heard, your mom isn’t big into fashion, right?”
“Not much.”
“I thought Estelle might be able to help you out, baby doll.” Dad sounds hesitant. “She’s pretty fashion conscious and tuned in to younger styles.”
I look at her tank top and wonder.
She laughs. “Oh, I don’t always dress like this, but it was hot today. And to be honest, I only thought I was coming over to make breakfast.”
“Uh-huh.” I just nod. I’m fully aware that I’m acting like a brat — totally unlike what I’d planned to be like.
“But if you’re not interested” — Dad is moving into the right lane — “there’s an exit ahead. I can turn around and take you home.”
“Oh, come on, Haley. Admit you need some clothes and maybe even a little fashion advice.” Estelle laughs. “For Pete’s sake, your dad is offering you clothes — what girl passes up an opportunity like that?”
Her reasoning registers with me. “Yeah, you’re right. I could use some things. Sure, let’s go shopping.”
We end up at this chic little outlet mall where Dad immediately bows out. He hands me a gold credit card and grabs his iPad. “I’m off to Starbucks for a mocha and to check the stock market. See you later.”
Estelle acts like this is perfectly acceptable. Then, practically taking me by the hand and acting like she knows this mall like the back of her own hand, she drags me to her favorite shops, and something tells me this whole “spur-of-the-moment” shopping trip was totally premeditated.
However, when I see my image in a full-length mirror at the Gap, I realize that perhaps I really did need a style intervention. There’s no denying that Mom was not only “not into fashion” but vehemently opposed to most trends, especially if she deemed them provocative. If she could’ve dressed me like a nun or Laura Ingalls, she wouldn’t have hesitated.
I stand here taking inventory of my baggy Lee jeans and sports T-shirt. If I stuffed my long dark hair under a ball cap, I might be able to pass for a guy. To be fair, I don’t always dress like this. I used to try to compensate for Mom’s fashion phobia by adapting clothes into funkier designs and/or shopping at secondhand shops with my babysitting money.
Occasionally I’d come up with something good and sneak out of the house wearing it, but if I got caught, my remodeled clothes were confiscated and a huge fight would ensue. So most of the time I just told myself that clothes didn’t really matter and that things like art and music and getting good grades were more important. Now I wonder.
“These jeans would look great on your long legs.” She holds up the latest style in jeans — the kind my mom would have a cow over. Maybe I’m just weak or maybe I want to thumb my nose in Mom’s face, but I take the jeans from Estelle, and after several tries and size changes, I decide on a pair. And I have to admit, they look awesome.
I’m not sure if it’s the jeans or Estelle’s influence, but it feels like something in me was triggered when I put them on, and so, like a fashion junkie, I let Estelle take me to more stores — picking up more clothes and shoes and even makeup. After a couple of hours and burdened down with bags and a credit card that should’ve melted by now, we go to find Dad.
“How’d it go?” he asks with a slightly worried expression.
“I think you’ve created a monster.” I hold up fistfuls of shiny shopping bags and grin. “Hope you’re good with that.”
He looks doubtful. “This won’t be a regular thing, will it?”
“I hope not,” I admit. “But you guys were probably right; my wardrobe was pretty pathetic. Thanks!”