Chapter 53

Much later. In the wee hours.

Grace

The Book of Grace, Chapter 53: It’s Bigger Than I Thought.

Grace retires to the bedroom.

The guys come home.

Snake, with his fresh haircut, watching new video-playback on his phone.

Vet following behind.

Vet

You’re quiet.

Snake

I’m thinking about it.

Vet

Thumbs up or thumbs down. Does my speech work? Say something.

Snake

Gimmie a minute.

Vet

I showed you the Fence. I extended you a privilege. I’m not some goddamn tour guide, but there I was, acting like some goddamn tour guide, telling you the history of it.

Snake

I’m taking it all in.

Vet

You were taking pictures.

Snake

Video. Like you got. I liked it.

Vet

You liked it?

Snake

The Fence. Yeah.

Vet

Anything else?

Snake

It’s bigger than I thought.

Vet

Anything else?

Snake

You’ve got the one in China beat.

Vet

We beat China? How so.

Snake

Yours is active.

Vet

Damn right.

Snake

You beat Berlin cause yours is still standing. And you got the one in the Middle East beat cause yours is longer.

Vet

Pretty much.

Snake

See, I’m thinking about the Fence.

Vet

You—you thinking about anything else?

Snake

The Fence, it’s kind of filling up my whole mind, you know?

Vet

It grows on you.

Snake

Maybe I could work there.

Vet

Let’s wait on that.

Snake

Hurry up and wait.

Vet

Don’t get ahead of yourself, that’s all.

Snake

But, it could happen. The guys seemed to like me. I fit socially. That’s no small thing. Not everybody does, right?

Vet

Right.

Snake fiddles with his phone, looking at his footage.

Snake

Mind if I share this footage with my friends?

Vet

You’ve got friends?

Snake

I’m part of an online community.

Vet

You didn’t video anything that’s classified, so go ahead. Sure.

Snake

Gr8.

Vet

Goddamnit to hell, aren’t you going to say anything about my speech?!

Snake

Like what?

Vet

Like anything.

Snake

It’s real interesting.

Vet

“Real interesting”? You’re smug cause you took some college classes.

Snake

I’m not smug.

Vet

You’ve got the Constitution and the Declaration all memorized and you stood there spouting it off for the guys and what did I do? Did I tell you to shut up?

Snake

You let me talk.

Vet

Damn right I let you talk. On and on and on. And I even led in the goddamned applause.

Snake

Ramirez clapped first.

Vet

But I joined in, didn’t I? And I whistled hooray. I even complimented your haircut. You’re a show-off. You’re a goddamned show-off!

Snake

I’m out of here.

Snake gets his footlocker. Starts to go.

Vet

You’re staying. What’s it going to look like with you showing up and then leaving? They’d have a good time with that, I’m telling you. You’re staying. You’re staying.

Grace comes out of the bedroom, wearing her bathrobe and slip.

Grace

How’d it go?

Vet

Complete waste of time.

Snake

I liked the Fence.

Vet

I need some sleep.

Snake

And I liked your speech too, ok?

Vet

You liked my speech?

Grace

You did your speech for him?

Vet

In the truck. On the way home.

Grace

You haven’t done it for me. Say it again.

Vet

It’s still pretty rough.

Snake

I liked it.

(Rest)

I got some pointers, though. If you’re interested.

Grace

Vet

Snake

Grace

Grace

I’ll go back to bed.

She gives Vet a kiss and goes back into the bedroom.

Snake

You should say it out loud for Grace. See what she thinks.

Vet

Thinks? Jesus. She thinks I should open up. She wants me to go bleeding all over them.

Snake

I’m thinking a 180 on that.

Vet

Me too.

Snake

You need to give them something they can fix their minds to. Everything in your speech should be substantial. Like the meat and potatoes that they’ll be chewing on, something that they’ll be talking about long after you’re done talking. Not rambling. Not vague. Not poetic. Not personal. Not revealing. Something solid and commanding.

Vet

Something that’ll stick in their minds long after I’m done running my mouth.

Snake

Exactly. So that, when they look at you from here on out, they’ll be thinking of the words you said to them. You’ll be just doing your day-to-day and they’ll be running your words in their heads. And they’ll stand a little straighter in your presence. Your words’ll be like the Fence itself.

Vet

Right.

Snake

And don’t start off with “Aliens.”

Vet

It was just an idea.

Snake

Don’t have “Aliens” anywhere in it.

Vet

Right.

Snake

Makes you sound like a—a nut job.

(Rest)

Run it one more time and let’s see.

Vet

Not right now. I need to keep my own counsel with it. Maybe later.

Snake

You’ll be up there talking before you know it.

Vet

Maybe later I said.

Snake

Suit yourself.

Vet

You think you’re Border Patrol material?

Snake

Sure.

Vet

But it’s not about what you think, is it?

Snake

I guess not.

Vet

Let’s see what you’ve got.

Vet drops to the floor and starts doing push-ups.

When Snake joins him, Vet stands and talks.

Vet

Three Tonks armed to the teeth. You’ve been tracking them for days. Suddenly you find them. What do you do?

Grace

Footnote #5:

Grace, from the bedroom, eavesdropping, answering for herself.

Vet

What would you do?

Grace

((I would call for back up.))

Snake

Call for back up, right?

Vet

Back up is a long time coming.

Now, jumping jacks.

Snake

I would go in with guns blazing. Figuring my firepower will beat theirs.

Vet

Or theirs would beat yours.

Snake

So I’d—die in the line of duty. Defending our Border. That’d be good, right? Right?

Vet

That’s “brave.”

Snake

Brave is good, right?

Now, running in place.

Vet

You’re on Patrol and you catch up with another one. This time, this one’s really nice. Sneaked in all alone. Speaks good English. A sort of poetic soul. Read the stars to find his way north. All he wants is a better life for himself. He’ll get an honest job and send his earnings back home. He’s a good guy. But a Tonk. He’s got a bag of money for you if you’d look the other way. What do you do?

Grace

Footnote #6: ((I would take the money and let him slip in.))

Snake

I wouldn’t take the money.

Vet

Pesos or greenbacks?

Now, full up-down squats.

Grace

((Pesos or greenbacks?))

Snake

Money is money is money. What difference does it make?

Vet

Does he have pesos or greenbacks? Ask.

Grace

((Does he have pesos or greenbacks?))

Snake

Does he have pesos or greenbacks? Cause greenbacks’d be worth more.

Vet

Bingo. Let’s say he’s got a big bag of greenbacks.

Snake

So I would want to take the money, but I don’t take the money. Right?

Grace

((Right.))

Vet switches to sit-ups. Snake follows suit.

This time Vet keeps talking as he drills.

Vet

Say he tries to strike a bargain. The greenbacks in exchange for him to be allowed to just sneak back home.

Snake

No way, José. I’d turn him in.

Vet

And all those greenbacks he had would probably “disappear.”

Snake

Sometimes that happens.

Vet finishes his sit-ups.

Snake continues with his.

Vet

Oh, does it?

Snake

Yeah. But it wouldn’t happen with me. Not on my watch!

Grace

((Gold Star, Buddy.))

The pop quiz has concluded. Grace goes back to bed.

Snake

(Rest)

How am I doing? Did I pass?

Vet walks to the refrigerator. Snake finishes his sit-ups and stands.

Snake

Did I pass?

Vet, holding a beer, walks over to the rug.

Pretending it’s just an accident, he toes back the rug.

Snake replaces the rug. Vet notices that.

Snake

Did I pass, yes or no?

Vet

I’ll let you know, Buddy.

Snake

Snake.

Vet

Right. Snake. Have a seat.

Vet sits on the couch. Snake tentatively joins him.

Vet

Unwind. We’re just home from work. We’ve got a big day tomorrow. Now we unwind.

Snake

Right.

Vet’s relaxed. Drinking. Snake is tense.

Vet

You nervous?

Snake

Not at all.

Vet

I like to unwind with entertainment.

Snake

Watching the Fence?

Vet

Better.

Snake

Like what.

Vet goes to his footlocker.

Vet

I got hot stuff in here.

Vet unlocks his locker, showing piles of videotapes.

Vet

Your pick.

Snake

What’s on them?

Vet

Girls.

Snake

Girls?

Vet

Girls. Your pick.

Snake

The cases all look the same, no pictures or nothing. No names.

Vet

More exciting that way. Like a game of chance. Pick.

Snake chooses a tape. Vet puts it in the player, retakes his seat.

Snake

You should upgrade your technology.

Vet

The picture’s fine. Pretty girls, right?

Snake

Yeah.

The girlie-porn video plays on the tv and the light plays on their faces. The sound is barely audible.

Parts of the video are reflected on a window or a wall.

Vet

I like to just kinda sit here and let them do their thing. Kinda like background music. Kinda like ambiance. It unwinds my mind.

Snake

Right.

The 2 men sit there watching porn. They look like they’re watching paint dry.

Vet

The Ceremony’s going to be something. I’ll stand at the Fence and give my speech. Standing there getting my medal. Icing on the gravy.

(Rest)

You telling them how you’re “Snake” and how I used to be “Snake.” That went over all right.

Snake

Yeah, it did. They looked at you with respect.

Vet

Yeah. They did.

(Rest)

Your mother didn’t want to have anything to do with you. Came here trying to dump you on me. But I couldn’t take you in. You were—troubled. And I was starting fresh. It wouldn’t of been fair to Grace. You were like a whole can of worms and I was making a fresh start.

Snake

Is that an apology?

Vet

No. I’m just telling you what was going on.

(Rest)

Maybe I could get you some help. Somebody to go talk to, you know, once a week like they do.

Snake

No thanks.

(Rest)

Let’s hear it again. Your speech.

Vet

I’m working it out in my head. When I stand up there saying it, you’ll hear it fresh.

Snake

Have you written it out?

Vet

I’ve composed it. But I wouldn’t write it down.

Snake

You should totally write a book. Veteran of the Border Patrol. That would really put you out in front.

Vet

Only I don’t think much of books. Books cause a weakening of the mind. You write something down you don’t use your brain muscles to remember it. Take, for example, your Cro-Magnon man. Or your Neanderthal. Or your Australopithecus. He may have had a smaller brain than we do today, but he used it to the fullest. He had to remember where the game was and how to get home after he’d bagged it. And he didn’t have a GPS. He didn’t have advanced technology. Plus, when things are in your head, they’re safe. Less chance of theft.

He looks at Snake’s footlocker.

Vet

For the job, there’ll be a thorough background check. They’ll look through all your personals.

He examines his ring of keys, selecting one. Trying it. No luck.

He tries another. He unlocks Snake’s footlocker and is about to raise the lid before Snake stops him.

Snake

You already searched it once. What are you scared of?

Vet

Snake

(Rest)

Vet backs off.

Vet

I’ll be up there with the governor. I’ll be getting my medal.

Snake

And I’ll be wearing mine.

Vet

You’ll wear yours.

Snake

Sure.

Vet

You should just wear the bar pin. You don’t want to be too loud with it.

Snake

I lost that part so I’ll have to wear the whole medal. Right on my lapel. It’s not regulation but it’ll be all right.

Vet

You’ll want everybody to see it.

Snake

Sure. Why not.

Vet

You’ll want to show it off.

Snake

I earned it. It’s mine.

Vet

You wanna steal my thunder.

Snake

Oh, come on, Pop.

Vet

Too bad you can’t get on the job in time for the governor’s visit, right? Is that what you’re thinking?

Snake

I’m ok to meet him as just a civilian.

Vet

And flash your medal.

Snake

Sure. Plus, being your son.

Vet

Following in my footsteps.

Snake

That’s right.

Vet

Legacy.

Snake

Yeah. That’ll be something, right? Us both working Border Patrol. Side by side. I got the job, don’t I? It’s a go, right?

Vet

It’s a no. It wouldn’t work. You wouldn’t work. Not around me.

Snake

You gotta give me a hand. I’m good enough, right? I’m good enough. It’s normal to give your kid a hand, Pop.

Vet

You’ll find your feet. Just not here. Somewhere else.

Snake

Come on, Pop.

Vet

You’ll find your feet. Just not with me, just not in my footsteps. It’ll be better that way. For both of us.

Snake

Vet

Snake

It’s Strike Three. Snake flashes three fingers. Gently, defeated.

Snake

Three.

Vet

Three what?

Snake

The three of us here. You, me and Grace. That’s three.

Vet

You understand about the job, right? There’s plenty of jobs in the universe. You’ll find one somewhere out there just not here, ok?

Snake

Sure. Ok.

Vet glances at the clock. Drinks. Snake watches the tv.

Time passes. Vet eventually falls asleep on the couch.

Snake gets up, puts away the porn video, turns on the live feed and, alone, watches the Fence. After a beat, he fiddles with his phone.

Grace comes out of the bedroom.

Men on couch. Vet sleeping. Snake texting. Fence video going.

Grace

Hey.

Snake

Hey.

She lovingly helps Vet up, helping him to bed.

Then, coming out of the bedroom, she gets her Book from its hiding place under the floor.

Grace

Talking with your friends?

Snake

Texting.

Grace

In a chatroom?

Snake

Yeah.

Grace

Nice haircut.

Snake

Thanks.

She goes outside, sits on the porch, reading from her Book.

Snake comes outside to watch her.

Snake

It’s not working out.

Grace

I heard. When things are bad I read this and it helps me feel better.

Snake

It’s not getting any better with him.

Grace

Not right now, but it will. Plenty of bad things turn good in the fullness of time.

Snake

Sometimes bad things go from bad to worse.

Grace

Not always.

(Rest)

It’s bigger than I thought, the stuff between you two, right?

Snake

Yeah.

(Rest)

The things he did to me. When we were all living together. Me and him and Mom.

Grace

Like what?

Vet, in the bedroom, sits on the bed. Awake but not listening.

Snake

Unspeakable. Saying it was my fault, saying I was the bad one. And that he was just trying to keep me in line. That’s what he had to do, you know? Keep the bad one in line.

(Rest)

I just went from bad to worse.

Grace

But you were never bad.

Snake

I’m going to blow something up.

(Rest)

I’m going to blow something up. You heard me.

Grace

That’s just your mad-self talking.

(Rest)

Buddy?

Snake

Snake.

(Rest)

Can I read it?

Grace

Ok.

Snake takes her Book, choosing pages at random, reading to himself. Then aloud.

Snake

Disneyland.

(Rest)

The dog named Trouble.

(Rest)

The House of Wisdom.

Grace

No one’s ever read it but you.

(Rest)

What?

Snake

Nothing.

More pages read silently to himself. Then aloud.

Snake

“Red dress.”

Grace

Yeah. What?

Snake

Nothing.

(Rest)

He closes the Book. Hands it back to her.

Grace

Did it help?

Snake

Nope.

Grace

You can read more—

Snake

No thanks.

Grace

Maybe it takes time. To sink in. Here I am, little Miss-Wanna-Fix-It-All. Well, more like Mrs.-Wanna-Fix-It-All now.

Snake

Leave me alone, all right?

Grace

All right. Sure.

She scoots a distance away from him, then gets up, about to go.

Snake

You ever thought of leaving him?

Grace

Yeah. But your troubles follow you.

Snake

Not if you do something about it.

Grace

Maybe I should change my name.

Snake

Don’t. Grace suits you.

Grace

Snake

(Rest)

With Book in hand she goes inside, putting it away, then heading to bed.

Snake on the porch alone.

He takes out his phone. Starts making a selfie-video.

Snake

The Book of Snake, Chapter One: “We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men—” No—

(Rest)

The Book of Snake, Chapter One.

(Rest)

“When in the course of human events it becomes necessary for a people—”

(Rest)

For a people to what?

(Rest)

Hhhhhhh.

He quits his selfie. Just sitting on the porch as the wee hours change to dawn.

Then he exits.