Archer had been stunned by old Catherine’s news. It was only natural that Madame Olenska should have hastened from Washington in response to her grandmother’s summons; but that she should have decided to remain under her roof—especially now that Mrs. Mingott had almost regained her health—was less easy to explain.
Archer was sure that Madame Olenska’s decision had not been influenced by the change in her financial situation. He knew the exact figure of the small income which her husband had allowed her at their separation. Without the addition of her grandmother’s allowance it was hardly enough to live on, in any sense known to the Mingott vocabulary; and now that Medora Manson, who shared her life, had been ruined, such a pittance would barely keep the two women clothed and fed. Yet Archer was convinced that Madame Olenska had not accepted her grandmother’s offer from interested motives.
She had the heedless generosity and the spasmodic extravagance of persons used to large fortunes, and indifferent to money; but she could go without many things which her relations considered indispensable, and Mrs. Lovell Mingott and Mrs. Welland had often been heard to deplore that any one who had enjoyed the cosmopolitan luxuries of Count Olenska’s establishments should care so little about “how things were done.” Moreover, as Archer knew, several months had passed since her allowance had been cut off; yet in the interval she had made no effort to regain her grand- mother’s favour. Therefore if she had changed her course it must be for a different reason.
He did not have far to seek for that reason. On the way from the ferry she had told him that he and she must remain apart; but she had said it with her head on his breast. He knew that there was no calculated coquetry in her words; she was fighting her fate as he had fought his, and clinging desperately to her resolve that they should not break faith with the people who trusted them. But during the ten days which had elapsed since her return to New York she had perhaps guessed from his silence, and from the fact of his making no attempt to see her, that he was meditating a decisive step, a step from which there was no turning back. At the thought, a sudden fear of her own weakness might have seized her, and she might have felt that, after all, it was better to accept the compromise usual in such cases, and follow the line of least resistance.
An hour earlier, when he had rung Mrs. Mingott’s bell, Archer had fancied that his path was clear before him. He had meant to have a word alone with Madame Olenska, and failing that, to learn from her grandmother on what day, and by which train, she was returning to Washington. In that train he intended to join her, and travel with her to Washington, or as much farther as she was willing to go. His own fancy inclined to Japan. At any rate she would understand at once that, wherever she went, he was going. He meant to leave a note for May that should cut off any other alternative.
He had fancied himself not only nerved for this plunge but eager to take it; yet his first feeling on hearing that the course of events was changed had been one of relief. Now, however, as he walked home from Mrs. Mingott’s, he was conscious of a growing distaste for what lay before him. There was nothing unknown or unfamiliar in the path he was presumably to tread; but when he had trodden it before it was as a free man, who was accountable to no one for his actions, and could lend himself with an amused detachment to the game of precautions and prevarications, concealments and compliances, that the part required. This procedure was called “protecting a woman’s honour”; and the best fiction, combined with the after-dinner talk of his elders, had long since initiated him into every detail of its code.
Now he saw the matter in a new light, and his part in it seemed singularly diminished. It was, in fact, that which, with a secret fatuity, he had watched Mrs. Thorley Rushworth play toward a fond and unperceiving husband: a smiling, bantering, humouring, watchful and incessant lie. A lie by day, a lie by night, a lie in every touch and every look; a lie in every caress and every quarrel; a lie in every word and in every silence.
It was easier, and less dastardly on the whole, for a wife to play such a part toward her husband. A woman’s standard of truthfulness was tacitly held to be lower: she was the subject creature, and versed in the arts of the enslaved. Then she could always plead moods and nerves, and the right not to be held too strictly to account; and even in the most strait-laced societies the laugh was always against the husband.
But in Archer’s little world no one laughed at a wife deceived, and a certain measure of contempt was attached to men who continued their philandering after marriage. In the rotation of crops there was a recognised season for wild oats; but they were not to be sown more than once.
Archer had always shared this view: in his heart he thought Lefferts despicable. But to love Ellen Olenska was not to become a man like Lefferts: for the first time Archer found himself face to face with the dread argument of the individual case. Ellen Olenska was like no other woman, he was like no other man: their situation, therefore, resembled no one else’s, and they were answerable to no tribunal but that of their own judgment.
Yes, but in ten minutes more he would be mounting his own doorstep; and there were May, and habit, and honour, and all the old decencies that he and his people had always believed in …
At his corner he hesitated, and then walked on down Fifth Avenue.
Ahead of him, in the winter night, loomed a big unlit house. As he drew near he thought how often he had seen it blazing with lights, its steps awninged and carpeted, and carriages waiting in double line to draw up at the curbstone. It was in the conservatory that stretched its dead-black bulk down the side street that he had taken his first kiss from May; it was under the myriad candles of the ball-room that he had seen her appear, tall and silver-shining as a young Diana.
Now the house was as dark as the grave, except for a faint flare of gas in the basement, and a light in one upstairs room where the blind had not been lowered. As Archer reached the corner he saw that the carriage standing at the door was Mrs. Manson Mingott’s. What an opportunity for Sillerton Jackson, if he should chance to pass! Archer had been greatly moved by old Catherine’s account of Madame Olenska’s attitude toward Mrs. Beaufort; it made the righteous reprobation of New York seem like a passing by on the other side. But he knew well enough what construction the clubs and drawing-rooms would put on Ellen Olenska’s visits to her cousin.
He paused and looked up at the lighted window. No doubt the two women were sitting together in that room: Beaufort had probably sought consolation elsewhere. There were even rumours that he had left New York with Fanny Ring; but Mrs. Beaufort’s attitude made the report seem improbable.
Archer had the nocturnal perspective of Fifth Avenue almost to himself. At that hour most people were indoors, dressing for dinner; and he was secretly glad that Ellen’s exit was likely to be unobserved. As the thought passed through his mind the door opened, and she came out. Behind her was a faint light, such as might have been carried down the stairs to show her the way. She turned to say a word to some one; then the door closed, and she came down the steps.
“Ellen,” he said in a low voice, as she reached the pavement.
She stopped with a slight start, and just then he saw two young men of fashionable cut approaching. There was a familiar air about their overcoats and the way their smart silk mufflers were folded over their white ties; and he wondered how youths of their quality happened to be dining out so early. Then he remembered that the Reggie Chiverses, whose house was a few doors above, were taking a large party that evening to see Adelaide Neilson in Romeo and Juliet, and guessed that the two were of the number. They passed under a lamp, and he recognised Lawrence Lefferts and a young Chivers.
A mean desire not to have Madame Olenska seen at the Beauforts’ door vanished as he felt the penetrating warmth of her hand.
“I shall see you now—we shall be together,” he broke out, hardly knowing what he said.
“Ah,” she answered, “Granny has told you?”
While he watched her he was aware that Lefferts and Chivers, on reaching the farther side of the street corner, had discreetly struck away across Fifth Avenue. It was the kind of masculine solidarity that he himself often practised; now he sickened at their connivance. Did she really imagine that he and she could live like this? And if not, what else did she imagine?
“Tomorrow I must see you—somewhere where we can be alone,” he said, in a voice that sounded almost angry to his own ears.
She wavered, and moved toward the carriage.
“But I shall be at Granny’s—for the present that is,” she added, as if conscious that her change of plans required some explanation.
“Somewhere where we can be alone,” he insisted.
She gave a faint laugh that grated on him.
Incensed, Newland grasped her arm and drew her near. “I need you.”
“Let go of me.”
He stared deeply into her eyes. “And you need me.”
She feigned struggle, but her eyes told him she wanted exactly the same, to be in his arms. Their bodies to be joined. To make love, to kiss, to breathe the same air. It was what their hearts, minds, and flesh craved when they were near one another. Because only then could they truly exist as one.
Desire took over reason. Talk could wait. Newland would express in passion the words that he felt. She would understand. It was nothing new, no revelation. They would make their plan tomorrow and finally be free to love each other.
Her shoulders relaxed and he felt her go limp in his arms. Her head fell back, waiting for his kiss. He drew her near, held her tightly, and began kissing her. The kiss was not delicate, but hungry. Their tongues swirled deeply and with insistence. And he soon found that his hands wandered to her bosom. He needed to feel her flesh, to undress her, and hold her in his arms.
“Come,” he said, breaking suddenly from the kiss. “We must away from here before we are discovered.”
She glanced to and fro as did he.
“Where?” he said, glancing between the houses. They had stolen away to a private terrace before, but now, there was no place to hide. The plants had succumbed to the winter trials.
“No, it’s too cold,” she said, as if reading his mind.
“A room above the tavern,” he said breathless, desperate.
“Never.”
“The Inn.”
“No.”
“I must have you.”
Because his grasp around her had lightened as he searched diligently for a place to go, he was shocked when she suddenly broke away from him. She ran swiftly toward her waiting carriage, calling out to the driver.
“Ellen,” he cried stunned at her parting from him. “Wait.” He reached for her, but she was no longer near.
He hurried to the side of her carriage. “Forgive me, my darling. Forgive my impatience. You know how I feel about you ... ”
She spoke quietly to him so that the driver would not hear. “Go home to your wife, Newland.”
Her words stung his heart. “Meet me tomorrow. I must speak to you in private,” he said.
“In New York? But there are no churches … no monuments.”
“There’s the Art Museum—in the Park,” he explained, as she looked puzzled. “At half-past two. I shall be at the door … “
She turned away without answering and got quickly into the carriage. As it drove off she leaned forward, and he thought she waved her hand in the obscurity. He stared after her in a turmoil of contradictory feelings. It seemed to him that he had been speaking not to the woman he loved but to another, a woman he was indebted to for pleasures already wearied of: it was hateful to find himself the prisoner of this hackneyed vocabulary.
“She’ll come!” he said to himself, almost contemptuously.
Avoiding the popular “Wolfe collection,” whose anecdotic canvases filled one of the main galleries of the queer wilderness of cast-iron and encaustic tiles known as the Metropolitan Museum, they had wandered down a passage to the room where the “Cesnola antiquities” mouldered in unvisited loneliness.
They had this melancholy retreat to themselves, and seated on the divan enclosing the central steam-radiator, they were staring silently at the glass cabinets mounted in ebonised wood which contained the recovered fragments of Ilium.
“It’s odd,” Madame Olenska said, “I never came here before.”
“Ah, well—. Some day, I suppose, it will be a great Museum.”
“Yes,” she assented absently.
She stood up and wandered across the room. Archer, remaining seated, watched the light movements of her figure, so girlish even under its heavy furs, the cleverly planted heron wing in her fur cap, and the way a dark curl lay like a flattened vine spiral on each cheek above the ear. His mind, as always when they first met, was wholly absorbed in the delicious details that made her herself and no other. Presently he rose and approached the case before which she stood. Its glass shelves were crowded with small broken objects—hardly recognisable domestic utensils, ornaments and personal trifles—made of glass, of clay, of discoloured bronze and other time- blurred substances.
“It seems cruel,” she said, “that after a while nothing matters … any more than these little things, that used to be necessary and important to forgotten people, and now have to be guessed at under a magnifying glass and labelled: `Use unknown.’”
“Yes; but meanwhile—”
“Ah, meanwhile—”
As she stood there, in her long sealskin coat, her hands thrust in a small round muff, her veil drawn down like a transparent mask to the tip of her nose, and the bunch of violets he had brought her stirring with her quickly-taken breath, it seemed incredible that this pure harmony of line and colour should ever suffer the stupid law of change.
“Meanwhile everything matters—that concerns you,” he said. “Forgive my impertinence last evening.”
She looked at him thoughtfully, and turned back to the divan. He sat down beside her and waited; but suddenly he heard a step echoing far off down the empty rooms, and felt the pressure of the minutes.
“What is it you wanted to tell me?” she asked, as if she had received the same warning.
“What I wanted to tell you?” he rejoined. “Why, that I believe you came to New York because you were afraid.”
“Afraid?”
“Of my coming to Washington.”
She looked down at her muff, and he saw her hands stir in it uneasily.
“Well—?”
“Well—yes,” she said.
“You WERE afraid? You knew—?”
“Yes: I knew … “
“Well, then?” he insisted.
“Well, then: this is better, isn’t it?” she returned with a long questioning sigh.
“Better—?”
“We shall hurt others less. Isn’t it, after all, what you always wanted?”
“To have you here, you mean—in reach and yet out of reach? To meet you in this way, on the sly? It’s the very reverse of what I want. I told you the other day what I wanted.”
She hesitated. “And you still think this—worse?”
“A thousand times!” He paused. “It would be easy to lie to you; but the truth is I think it detestable.”
“Oh, so do I!” she cried with a deep breath of relief.
He sprang up impatiently. “Well, then—it’s my turn to ask: what is it, in God’s name, that you think better?”
She hung her head and continued to clasp and unclasp her hands in her muff. The step drew nearer, and a guardian in a braided cap walked listlessly through the room like a ghost stalking through a necropolis. They fixed their eyes simultaneously on the case opposite them, and when the official figure had vanished down a vista of mummies and sarcophagi Archer spoke again.
“What do you think better?”
Instead of answering she murmured: “I promised Granny to stay with her because it seemed to me that here I should be safer.”
“From me?”
She bent her head slightly, without looking at him.
“Safer from loving me?”
Her profile did not stir, but he saw a tear overflow on her lashes and hang in a mesh of her veil.
“Safer from doing irreparable harm. Don’t let us be like all the others!” she protested.
“What others? I don’t profess to be different from my kind. I’m consumed by the same wants and the same longings.”
She glanced at him with a kind of terror, and he saw a faint colour steal into her cheeks.
“Shall I—once again come to you; and then go home?” she suddenly hazarded in a low clear voice.
The blood rushed to the young man’s forehead. “Dearest!” he said, without moving. It seemed as if he held his heart in his hands, like a full cup that the least motion might overbrim.
Then her last phrase struck his ear and his face clouded. “Go home? What do you mean by going home?”
“Home to my husband.”
“And you expect me to say yes to that?”
She raised her troubled eyes to his. “What else is there? I can’t stay here and lie to the people who’ve been good to me.”
“But that’s the very reason why I ask you to come away!”
“And destroy their lives, when they’ve helped me to remake mine?”
Archer sprang to his feet and stood looking down on her in inarticulate despair. It would have been easy to say: “Yes, come; come once more.” He knew the power she would put in his hands if she consented; there would be no difficulty then in persuading her not to go back to her husband.
But something silenced the word on his lips. A sort of passionate honesty in her made it inconceivable that he should try to draw her into that familiar trap. “If I were to let her come,” he said to himself, “I should finally have to let her go again.” And that was not to be imagined.
But he saw the shadow of the lashes on her wet cheek, and wavered.
“After all,” he began again, “we have lives of our own… . There’s no use attempting the impossible. You’re so unprejudiced about some things, so used, as you say, to looking at the Gorgon, that I don’t know why you’re afraid to face our case, and see it as it really is—unless you think the sacrifice is not worth making.”
She stood up also, her lips tightening under a rapid frown.
“Call it that, then—I must go,” she said, drawing her little watch from her bosom.
She turned away, and he followed and caught her by the wrist. “Well, then: come to me once more,” he said, his head turning suddenly at the thought of losing her; and for a second or two they looked at each other almost like enemies.
“When?” he insisted. “Tomorrow?”
She hesitated. “The day after.”
“Dearest—!” he said again.
She had disengaged her wrist; but for a moment they continued to hold each other’s eyes, and he saw that her face, which had grown very pale, was flooded with a deep inner radiance. His heart beat with awe: he felt that he had never before beheld love visible.
“Oh, I shall be late—good-bye. No, don’t come any farther than this,” she cried, walking hurriedly away down the long room, as if the reflected radiance in his eyes had frightened her. When she reached the door she turned for a moment to wave a quick farewell.
Archer walked home alone. Darkness was falling when he let himself into his house, and he looked about at the familiar objects in the hall as if he viewed them from the other side of the grave.
The parlour-maid, Miranda, hearing his step, ran up the stairs to light the gas on the upper landing.
“Is Mrs. Archer in?” he asked.
“No, sir; Mrs. Archer went out in the carriage after luncheon, and hasn’t come back.”
With a sense of relief he entered the library and flung himself down in his armchair. The parlour-maid followed, bringing the student lamp and shaking some coals onto the dying fire.
“You are worried,” Miranda said.
“No.” He looked away from her, not wanting to invite her affection.
She neared him, walked behind his chair, and began massaging his shoulders.
“No, Miranda. Not tonight,” he said, sounding irascible.
She didn’t stop, but smoothed her hands down his chest. “Let me—”
He caught her hands, and then stood. “Thank you, but no.”
“Then at least let me massage your feet.” Her tone was almost pleading, and it softened his resolve.
“Very well, perhaps for a bit.”
Miranda went to fetch a basin of heated water, and returned to his study. She lowered herself to the floor and removed his shoes and socks, and then placed his feet in the hot water scented with eucalyptus.
“Ah, that’s is much better,” he said, although his mind was still plagued with what he would say to Ellen tomorrow. She would come, she would, he thought.
Miranda massaged one of his feet, and then the other, and before long Newland was dozing lightly. He awoke to the glorious tickling sensation of Miranda’s long tongue sliding among his toes. He immediately felt the sensation shoot to his loins, arousing him with manly desires. His breathing suddenly increased and unable to control the urge, his staff began to harden. He opened his eyes and looked down at his favorite, nurturing chambermaid. She was gazing up at him with hooded eyes and a wicked smile. She had removed her dress, and her breasts were exposed outside of her brassiere, pushed up so that her erect nipples pointed at him invitingly. She wore no undergarment to conceal her womanly flesh, and her legs were spread wide open so that her dewy orchid was fully revealed to him.
“Ah, you tease me, Miranda,” he said to her.
She did not respond, but only licked her tongue between his toes. She smiled, and then brought one of her erect nipples to his foot and began rubbing the tip of it against the length of his toes.
Newland thought about how Miranda had served him all these years, pleasured him, and had never let him down. “Miranda, why do you have no husband?” he asked.
She looked at him sadly. “Because the man I love will never have me as a wife. I am not good enough for him.”
He thought for a moment. “Let me pleasure you, Miranda. What pleases you?”
She looked at him in surprise. He had never asked her that question.
“Your touch pleases me, sir,” she said. Then she rose, took his wrist, and guided his hand down to her orchid.
He slid his fingers through her creamy and readied passion. She writhed with excitement.
“And also, sir. . .”
“Yes? Whatever you want, Miranda.”
She smiled, turned her back on him, bent over, and exposed herself from behind. “Like this, sir. It’s my favorite,” she said.
“Ah, yes. Delightful.”
While he unfastened his trousers, she massaged her pearl, heightening her excitement, which Newland enjoyed with lustful eyes.
He brought his staff to her folds, ran it through her slick cream, hurriedly grasped the tips of her nipples, and squeezed. She moaned in more pleasure than he had ever heard from her, which had the effect of arousing him all the more. Her cream overflowed her banks not unlike a raging river, and it was all too clear that she was ready. She raised her hips and invited him to enter. So Newland clasped her cheeks, held them open, and then pushed inside the full length of her nether cavity. Immediately, he began to thrust. He pumped and thrust, letting his carnal desires set the pace. Then he grasped one of her breasts with a hand, and moved the other to her sheath, where he began thrusting a set of fingers inside of her velvety case at the same beat he worked his staff.
“Yes, how perfect, sir.” Her words came out as a sensual hiss.
Newland knew that in Miranda’s mind, they were making passionate love, but the most he could ever admit was that he had given her the gift of his attention.
“I . . . I . . .” Miranda said as she released, her vessel contracting fully around his member. And then suddenly, she raised her head to listen. “I hear the front door,” she said anxiously.
“Don’t move,” he said, and continued to thrust harder and faster, until a moment later, he released with a massive explosion. He continued to thrust in and out of her vessel, Miranda circling her hips, until his seed was fully spilled.
Then he withdrew his staff, kissed the back of her head, and said, “You must leave at once before we are discovered.”
She picked up her clothing and started for the door, but before she left, she ran up to him and kissed him on the lips. “That was wonderful, sir. Lovely.”
When she left he flung himself back to the dull comfort of the chair and continued to sit motionless, his elbows on his knees, his chin on his clasped hands, his eyes fixed on the red grate.
He sat there without conscious thoughts, without sense of the lapse of time, in a deep and grave amazement that seemed to suspend life rather than quicken it. His thoughts soon returned to Ellen and what he would say to her tomorrow. She would come, he thought repeatedly to himself. “This was what had to be, then … this was what had to be,” he kept repeating to himself, as if he hung in the clutch of doom. What he had dreamed of had been so different that there was a mortal chill in his rapture.
The door opened and May came in.
“I’m dreadfully late—you weren’t worried, were you?” she asked, laying her hand on his shoulder with one of her rare caresses.
He looked up astonished. “Is it late?”
“After seven. I believe you’ve been asleep!” She laughed, and drawing out her hat pins tossed her velvet hat on the sofa. She looked paler than usual, but sparkling with an unwonted animation.
“I went to see Granny, and just as I was going away Ellen came in from a walk; so I stayed and had a long talk with her. It was ages since we’d had a real talk… .” She had dropped into her usual armchair, facing his, and was running her fingers through her rumpled hair. He fancied she expected him to speak.
“A really good talk,” she went on, smiling with what seemed to Archer an unnatural vividness. “She was so dear—just like the old Ellen. I’m afraid I haven’t been fair to her lately. I’ve sometimes thought—”
Archer stood up and leaned against the mantelpiece, out of the radius of the lamp.
“Yes, you’ve thought—?” he echoed as she paused.
“Well, perhaps I haven’t judged her fairly. She’s so different—at least on the surface. She takes up such odd people—she seems to like to make herself conspicuous. I suppose it’s the life she’s led in that fast European society; no doubt we seem dreadfully dull to her. But I don’t want to judge her unfairly.”
She paused again, a little breathless with the unwonted length of her speech, and sat with her lips slightly parted and a deep blush on her cheeks.
Archer, as he looked at her, was reminded of the glow which had suffused her face in the Mission Garden at St. Augustine. He became aware of the same obscure effort in her, the same reaching out toward something beyond the usual range of her vision.
“She hates Ellen,” he thought, “and she’s trying to overcome the feeling, and to get me to help her to overcome it.”
The thought moved him, and for a moment he was on the point of breaking the silence between them, and throwing himself on her mercy.
“You understand, don’t you,” she went on, “why the family have sometimes been annoyed? We all did what we could for her at first; but she never seemed to understand. And now this idea of going to see Mrs. Beaufort, of going there in Granny’s carriage! I’m afraid she’s quite alienated the van der Luydens … “
“Ah,” said Archer with an impatient laugh. The open door had closed between them again.
“It’s time to dress; we’re dining out, aren’t we?” he asked, moving from the fire.
She rose also, but lingered near the hearth. As he walked past her she moved forward impulsively, as though to detain him: their eyes met, and he saw that hers were of the same swimming blue as when he had left her to drive to Jersey City.
She flung her arms about his neck and pressed her cheek to his.
“You haven’t kissed me today,” she said in a whisper; and he felt her tremble in his arms.