Five years later
Surf slammed against the jutting rocks just off the shore. Birds squawked in the distance and the tide ebbed and flowed.
“Boys are stupid.” Cara threw a rock into the gurgling water below her stone perch. It was her favorite spot on the island. Not as high as the place where she dove in to do her banshee thing, but high enough that only the slightest mist of water sprayed her as she watched the incoming tide.
Most of the time, the tide soothed her.
She blamed that tiny bit of merrow in her lineage for that.
Though today, it wasn’t helping. She still wanted to strangle someone. Preferably a particular boy who was a total butthead.
Because all boys are buttheads…
“Yes. Yes, we are.”
Cara spun around. “Duncan!” She jumped up and crossed the flat boulder in two steps. She practically stumbled into a hug with her favorite fairy, and Duncan laughed as he caught her before doing the friend-pat on her shoulders.
Ever since he’d saved her from the net, Duncan would pop in and see her. Sometimes it was just for a few minutes; sometimes they’d spend most of the day together—if she could sneak away from her mother, anyway.
It wasn’t that her mom didn’t like Duncan—she thought Duncan was great. He even helped her practice her telepathy. Since she didn’t use the ability outside the water, she got rusty. Her mother always wanted her to practice it, because “you just never know when you’ll need it.” Her mother’s favorite saying.
Yet really, who wanted to practice telepathy with their mother? She sure didn’t want her mother poking around in her head.
Duncan was much better about respecting her privacy.
Or maybe it was because Duncan wasn’t her mother…
Regardless, he was always good about making her practice for a few minutes whenever they got to spend time together. Her mom only worried that Cara was getting too attached to the guy. Which was so not true. Okay, it wasn’t like Cara seriously crushed on Duncan.
Okay, not anymore, anyway.
She might have when she was a young teenager, but who wouldn’t? He was cute, and he saved her.
But he’d become this friend that she trusted as much as she trusted her family. Well, her immediate family, anyway. There were those other members that she was quite fine without.
“Hey there, Cara. How are you doing?” He met her gaze with those pretty eyes of his.
She shrugged and looked away. And partly wondered if her mother had put Duncan up to talking to her. She hadn’t been her usual self since the breakup.
“I’m doing, I guess.” And who wanted to talk to their mother about their boyfriend issues?
Not her, anyway. Mothers never understood.
Duncan put his hand on her shoulder. “The breakup still troubling you?”
“Did Mom put you up to this?”
He smirked. “No.” He followed her to the edge of the rock and took a seat. “You sure you’re okay?”
She sighed. “Yes and no. I mean, I’m better off without Luke, I know that. And don’t bother telling me how you knew he was trouble.”
“Werewolves usually are.”
“Like I haven’t heard that a million times.” She kicked her legs as they dangled over the edge.
Duncan stretched his wings. “And you kept track. Good for you.”
She smirked. “Bite me.”
“That’s what he liked, being a werewolf. Real men don’t bite.”
Cara snorted. “If you know any, keep me in the loop, fairy.”
“You wound me…”
She shook her head and neither said anything for a moment. Just long enough for her to sink back into her grumpy feelings. After all, she was twenty years old. Dating wasn’t supposed to be this hard.
“You know, I should have realized. And I think that’s the thing that makes me the maddest about him. I should have realized he wasn’t all that.”
Duncan nodded. “Rose-colored glasses.”
“I mean, every time I thought we were really moving forward, that we were totally moving into that whole ‘you’re my number one, I can tell you everything’ direction, I would try to talk to him about the family, you know? Explain about the banshee thing, and how I can’t leave the island.”
“You didn’t, did you?” Duncan asked.
“No! Every time—and I mean every time—he would change the subject before I could get anything out. It was like he knew I was stuck here or something, and didn’t want to hear about it. All he wanted to talk about was how he was going to get off this island, go to America or England, and get with a stronger pack, and all that.” While Avalon was home to many mythical beings, many dreamed of getting off the island.
Cara was no different.
“I doubt he was psychic,” Duncan said. “If he was, he’d know how awesome of a gal you are.”
She snorted. “I’m so awesome I’m sitting on a rock, at the beach, talking to a fairy.”
He laughed. “And you’re probably in the only place in the world, except the Fairy Realm, where you can say that and it’s believable.”
She looked at the sky, trying to make out the shielding around the island. Sometimes, if she looked really hard, she could see a glint of the magic. It reminded her that she really did live in a special place.
Not that she had anything to compare it to, though.
She’d never been anywhere else.
“Do they really not believe in magic out there? Are the humans that dense?”
He sighed. “Whatever part of them that believed in magic has all but gone. Children, of course, still believe, but overall? Humans don’t have any idea who walks the world with them.”
“Makes your job harder, I bet,” she said.
“Yes and no.” Duncan stretched. “Sometimes, when I have to change something to protect a fairy, it’s easier to make humans believe in something”—he made air quotes—“‘plausible’ rather than in magic.”
“You’d think, after all this time, that humans would get a clue.”
“What are you going to do? Reveal the mythical world?”
“I don’t know. Maybe if they knew—”
“Humans will lose their minds. They’ll want to test and poke and prod and there’d be all these mobs and hangings. Trust me, kiddo, there’s plenty of reasons to keep this side of existence secret.”
“Well, aren’t you just a bundle of optimism today?”
“Just stating the facts. Humans are better off not knowing. Those of us who protect you work very hard at it.” He shifted and sighed. “Didn’t I read that the Magistrates are talking to the Templar Knights again?”
“I heard something about that,” Cara replied. “But according to Mom, it comes up every fifty or sixty years anyway, and nothing ever happens. The Templars want to move their base here, and it gets debated, then the Magistrates shoot them down.” She tossed a pebble into the water. “I don’t want them here.”
The Templar Knights, immortal humans, policed mythical activity on Earth. They had bases all over the world to keep an eye on misbehaving mythical creatures—read, corporeal. However, anything that fell under the “fairy” or the “magic” heading was out of their jurisdiction. The Fairy Realm controlled that.
At least in theory.
“They’re not that bad,” Duncan said. “The Templars.”
“You’ve had to work with them?”
“Once. They’re all right.”
“When did you work with them?” Cara asked.
“Remember when all those fairies were dying seven or eight years ago?” He looked down. “Probably not, you were pretty young then.”
“I sort of remember. Wasn’t there a vampire who’d gone nutty over them or something?”
“Yeah. Watching too much TV, thought fairies were extra special. It was a mess.”
“Fun life you got.” She crossed her arms. “What are you doing here, anyway? Shouldn’t you be saving some fairy in distress somewhere? I’m sure someone needs your help.”
“Got a day off,” he said, shrugging.
She glanced at him out of the corner of her eye. “You’re skipping out on a date, aren’t you?” She knew this guy—he didn’t care for blind dates. Yet he seemed to go on more than Cara could count.
“Maybe.”
She laughed. “What’s wrong with this one?”
“It has more to do with my sister-in-law Christy than anything.”
“Why?”
“She always tries to set me up with someone. She says she can’t have me being the ‘single, roaming bachelor’ in the family.” He tossed his dark hair as he spoke, fluffing the longer pieces around his face, and he flapped his green-tinted wings. He was going for dashing, but wound up failing miserably.
“You’re a goob,” Cara said with a laugh and punched him in the shoulder. “And you need a haircut.”
“What? You don’t like this long, roguish look?” He fluttered again, tossing his head as he did. This time, he waved his wings harder and the current of air gave her a shiver.
“Stop that.”
“Make me.” Duncan grinned and flapped his wings harder.
She reached for the wings, trying to stop them from moving. However, the huge wings, at least as wide as he was tall, were far too strong for her to control.
And he wasn’t going to let her, either. He grabbed her waist as she tried to hold on and pulled her toward him.
“No no,” he said. “Don’t mess with the wings.”
“Stop fluttering them at me,” she said, staring into his eyes. She put her hands on his chest to push away, but he kept her right there and leaned back. She fell forward and realized she was lying on him.
Literally.
With all their parts pressed together. In all the ways that made all her girly ones very happy.
His wings wrapped around them both like a little cocoon, shielding her from the world. She met his gaze and for a second, she had a thought.
Or was it his? She couldn’t be sure, but it was one of those thoughts that friends weren’t supposed to have about their friends. The ones that talked about boy parts meeting girl parts and all the moaning that went along with it.
“Um…”
He stared at her, his lips parting, and she froze.
He was going to kiss her.
Like really kiss her…
OMG.
What in the world was she thinking? This was Duncan. Her friend.
His hand roamed over her side and slid along her back. The stroke was gentle yet sensual, and it felt, well…
Good.
He moved his head toward her.
Did she get closer to him, or did he close in on her? She wasn’t sure. It didn’t matter, inside this little cocoon of Duncan’s wings, nothing in the world could hurt her. Or touch her that she didn’t want to.
Their lips brushed together.
It was soft at first. Delicate. Until more desire burned inside her, and she slid her hands into his terribly overgrown hair. He caressed her neck while deepening the kiss, and she fell into it.
Washed away in the sensation of Duncan, she burned in a way she’d never felt before. Sure, she’d had boyfriends. And she’d kissed plenty of them. But not a single one made her feel like this.
What this was, she wasn’t sure, but it was something she’d never had before. Maybe it was because he was a fairy and she was a kind of fairy herself, and they had a special energy together. Maybe it was because she had always dreamed of kissing him, ever since he’d rescued her five years ago.
The more they kissed, the more doubts swirled in her head. Was he doing this because he felt sorry for her? Wanted to make her feel better?
Did she make him feel like he had to kiss her, somehow?
No. She shouldn’t be kissing him. This wasn’t right.
She broke the kiss and rose up, but the wings didn’t budge. “What are you doing?”
“I—” His wings opened and released her, his cheeks turning just a tiny bit pink, and he couldn’t meet her gaze.
She crawled off him and he sat up.
“I’m sorry,” he said. “I don’t know what came over me.”
“It’s okay.” She put her hand on his arm, trying to soothe him. “I’ve never kissed anyone inside wings like that. It was kinda cool.”
He smiled. “No place safer.”
She shifted on the rocks and slid away from him. Not a lot, but just a little bit, and calmed the weird desires inside down. After all, this was Duncan. She wasn’t supposed to be attracted to him. Not for her friend. It was too strange.
“Cara—”
“Don’t. Look. We kissed. Let’s not make a big deal about it, okay?” She tried to sound calm, like it didn’t affect her at all—which it totally did—but she didn’t want him to get the wrong idea.
For one, this was not the time for her to be bouncing into someone’s arms, especially someone she cared so much about, like Duncan.
After all, she was still getting over Luke. She was vulnerable. Not quite together enough to decide to have a fling with anyone.
And what about that? What if they had a fling, and then Duncan was gone? That was a far greater loss than losing Luke.
She’d rather have this be kinda awkward than lose him all together.
Duncan cleared his throat. “Should we practice, since I’m here?”
“I guess. I can at least tell Mom I did something useful while at the beach.” Because she sure as hell wasn’t telling her about Duncan and his wing-cocoon kissing.
Holy moly.
She still wasn’t sure how she felt about it.
She closed her eyes and felt the initial nudge of Duncan’s telepathic thoughts.
“I’m sorry.”
“It’s okay,” she answered. “Lost in moments and all that,” she said aloud. “Let’s do this so Mom will be happy.”
He nodded. “She still giving you grief about me?”
“She just—”
Duncan shushed her.
Cara sighed.
“She’s menopausal.” That was Cara’s explanation for it, anyway. While not the biggest fan of the time Cara spent with Duncan, her mother couldn’t complain about how much better Cara’s telepathy was improving.
Besides, Cara loved hanging around Duncan. He told her stuff about the Fairy Realm, how that all worked—something her mother would never talk about. Practicing telepathy with Duncan was probably the only good excuse she had to spend time with him.
“No, she is not,” Duncan said. “Your mother is a very kind lady.”
Cara snorted. “I don’t think she likes you telling me about the Fairy Realm.”
“Why?” Duncan answered her back.
“Because…because you’re…” The thoughts got jumbled in her head, and she couldn’t figure out how to articulate them. Probably because she was still feeling the after-effects of kissing him.
Really, should she still have the tinglies over it? It was like the drug that didn’t wear off.
“Because I’ll never be a part of any of that, and telling me all about it will just make me want it more,” Cara blurted.
“You want to be a fairy?” he asked.
Cara shrugged. “I don’t know. Maybe. I don’t want to be chained here. I mean, I can’t ever leave the island. I’m stuck here.”
“This is not a bad place to be.”
“Says the two-hundred-fifty-year-old guy.”
He laughed. “I’m only thirty-five. Just in stasis.”
They both laughed. He’d explained to her once about fairy aging. Basically, they aged until thirty-five, then, after they’d trained, they signed on for three hundred fifty years of service. Their aging stopped until they retired, and after that, they started aging normally again.
So Duncan liked to call it “being in stasis”.
“You’re still an old guy who’s seen everything. And everything change.”
“Except here.” He brushed his hair out of his face. “This is the only place that hasn’t changed.”
“Exactly!” She huffed. “Exactly why I want to leave. I want to see something. Something more than just this island.”
“There is not that much to see.”
She shook her head. “Maybe not to you. My sister moved off the island. Did you know that?”
“No. I was not aware.”
“She, uh, fell in love with a human near where she releases her cries. Went to be with him.”
“Is the love returned?” Duncan asked.
“I guess. They’re getting married. I think Mom would rather her marry a fairy, but Dad’s all happy about it. Can’t wait for grandkids. He keeps glancing at me, like he’s waiting for me to come in and declare my love for some guy as well.” Though she had to admit, she wasn’t completely against the idea of marrying. Her ex turned her off to doing it anytime soon, but she wouldn’t mind, you know, eventually.
But there’d be some caveats.
He’d have to be really good to her.
Yeah. Awesome, like Duncan. That’s the kind of guy I need.
He shifted next to her and didn’t look at her as he spoke. “You are far too young to consider marrying. Fairy or human.”
“Says the two hundred plus year old guy. Unlike you, I don’t get to live that long.” She bumped into him, and they both sort of swayed for a second before he straightened himself out.
“You just need to be a grown-up for a while. Be you for a while. Then worry about marriage.”
“I don’t have any plans to be married. If the right guy came along, of course, I would.” She glanced at him. “If a Fairy Godfather came and helped me out a bit…”
Good, Cara, keep playing it off like they hadn’t kissed, she told herself. Don’t act like you still want to kiss him again.
Because you don’t.
Really.
He rolled his eyes. “I got out of the Fairy Godfather business long before you came along.”
He didn’t seem the find your true love type anyway. He was more a Git-Er-Done guy. Evidenced by his numerous blind dates and lack of serious girlfriend for as long as Cara had known him.
Cara bumped his arm with her elbow. “You know I’m just playing.”
He smiled and wrapped his arm around her.
He really had a great smile. Nice shiny, straight teeth, but not that neon I-over-whiten white. Naturally pretty.
It didn’t make her feel weird things in her toes. Nope, not her. No more weird feelings like when he had her all wrapped up in his arms. And his wings.
Even like now…
Her cheeks felt warm, and she was sure she’d probably turned bright pink.
Duncan didn’t seem to notice; instead he stared out at the water. “Should we practice some more? You’re still really cluttered when you try to use your telepathy.”
Goddess, she hoped he hadn’t heard that…
“Fine.”
“So, why are you hiding from your date?” she sent him.
He raised his eyebrow and smirked. “Girls are stupid.” He poked her.
She elbowed him back in the ribs. “We are not!”
“You’re all smelly like flowers or citrus or something. And the lipstick. You all have to wear that stuff…” He stuck out his tongue as he sent the thoughts.
“What, you don’t like pretty girls?” She slipped out of his touch and put her hands on her hips.
“Just don’t like lipstick smeared on my lips when I kiss a girl.”
Cara’s turned away from him. OMG. He brought up kissing…
Did he still want to kiss her? Of course not. He wouldn’t do that. He was a nice guy. He’d have to look at her a certain way…
Just like he was looking at her right now.
It sent shivers down all the way to her toes. And other places.
“Um.” She picked up a pebble, not able to look at him anymore, and threw it out into the water. She couldn’t kiss him again. Didn’t matter if she wanted to. He was her friend.
They weren’t going to be that friends-with-benefits things.
No.
No more kissing Duncan.
“I’m sorry. I made you uncomfortable,” Duncan said and scooted away from her.
When had they gotten that close? Cara realized there was barely a finger’s distance between them. At least, there had been until he moved.
“It’s okay. I…”
“I should be going,” Duncan said. “I really should go meet my date. Maybe she’s not interested either, and we can hatch a plan to both bow out gracefully without hurting Christy’s feelings.” He stood and dusted his pants off.
She stood as well. “I should go back home anyway. It’s my turn to do dishes.” She faced him, noticing how he stood over a head taller than her, and she didn’t move for a second.
Like neither of them knew if they wanted to hug or not.
She made a snap decision. “Hug,” she said and held out her arms.
Relief washed over his face. “Yeah.” And he stepped toward her.
As they pulled together, Cara looked away, her gaze passing over the cove just below her sitting spot.
The sound of a boat motor jarred her attention. Not a big deal—lots of people on the island had boats and would cruise around the inside of the shield.
Then, as the boat’s motor shifted, the whine in the engine pinged recognition in her.
Her stomach dropped.
“Dammit.”
“What?” Duncan asked as he pulled away from her. He put his hands on her shoulders. “What is it?”
“It’s Luke,” she whispered and faced the coming boat.
Sure enough, her ex-boyfriend Luke, along with a gaggle of his friends, rode in the boat that had just come around the bend into the island’s cove.
Including his new girlfriend, Izzy.
Cara inhaled a breath and turned away as she saw Luke pull Izzy into his arms. “Of course they come over here. This is my spot. I should have never told him about this little cove.”
Luke maneuvered the boat up to the rocky shoreline as close as he could get, and everyone on board proceeded to disembark.
Right below them.
Duncan rubbed her shoulders. “Let’s go.”
She nodded. “Yeah. They’ll see me soon enough—”
The words were barely out of her mouth when Luke looked right at her.
Not just in her general direction, but right at her.
For a second, she considered raising her hand in a friendly wave, a “no hard feelings” gesture before she walked away. Not that she meant it, but it was polite, right?
Luke turned to Izzy, pulled her into an embrace, and kissed her. Hard.
Cara’s stomach crawled.
Duncan pulled Cara into his embrace. “Come on, let’s go.”
It was hard to take her eyes off her ex, who stood there doing a tonsil check on another girl, especially since Cara knew the kiss was more to hurt her than out of any real affection.
“He is an ass,” Duncan muttered as he guided Cara off the rocks and back toward the grass, out of sight of Luke and his friends. Cara curled into his arm, not really caring where Duncan took her, just that he got her away.
“He was showing off,” she muttered.
“Ergo, an ass,” Duncan replied. When they’d walked out of line of sight of the beach, he paused and turned her to look at him.
“You don’t need that kind of ego in your life.”
She snorted. “I’d rather have an ego than have nothing,” she whispered. All the pain she’d been trying to get passed—hell, that she thought she was passed—bubbled to the surface.
Dammit.
She hated being like this. She hated being so wishy-washy and whiny. She wanted to kick her own ass.
“No. No, you’re not allowed to think that way.” He tipped her chin up, his finger warm against her skin. “You will find that person who’s destined to be with you. He’s out there. I promise.”
“Oh yeah? When? When I’m old and crotchety?” Cara pulled away.
Duncan sighed. “You’ll find him when you’re supposed to.”
“Again—when?” Cara put her hands on her hips. “I swear, every damn person around me is happy and in love and getting married and all that crap. And here I am, stuck. I can’t find anyone who wants to be with me, I can’t even leave this damn island! I’m stuck here!” She dropped to the ground and started to cry, the emotions such a jumble.
It wasn’t even that much over Luke. It was over, well, everything. The tears fell and she didn’t bother wiping them away. She fisted the grass and pulled it up by the roots, making a dark patch on the ground.
At least for a few seconds.
Then Avalon’s magic started and the grass grew back in just a moment.
If only it was that simple…
“See, everything comes back,” Duncan said as he sat next to her.
“I don’t know that I want him to come back,” Cara muttered, not looking at Duncan. She couldn’t help but feel the warmth of his close proximity, and she liked it. Made her feel at least a little bit better.
“He’s not,” Duncan said.
“And how do you know?”
“He would have come back by now.” He leaned into her a little, his shoulder brushing hers.
She snorted. “I appreciate you trying to make me feel better. It’s just frustrating. Especially when I thought I was fine, that I’d gotten past this. And now it’s just bringing up more and more emotions, more and more reasons to just want to run away and leave the island, but I can’t. I’m stuck here. And I know everyone here and I can’t leave, so I’ll never find anyone to be with. Ever. Because I’m stuck here.” She groaned and pounded her fists on the grass again.
“You will too, I promise.”
“You sound like my mother. Shut up.”
He sighed as he pulled out his wand. “Here.” He took her hand.
“What are you doing?”
“I’m reading your palm,” he said, as though it was the most obvious thing in the world.
Not obvious to her, but anyway…
He tapped the tip of his wand against her palm. Shivers ran through Cara as the green magic glistened on her skin, making her flesh look incredibly white.
“Oh wow, it tickles,” Cara said as Duncan put away his wand.
He took her hand in both of his, and Cara marveled for a moment how much larger his were than hers. His thumbs ran over her skin. The delicate caress gave Cara a shiver, and not the tickly kind.
Her cheeks warmed, and while she wanted to look away, she remained mesmerized by his hand stroking hers.
“There, it’s coming through now.” Duncan’s voice was soft. Maybe even a little hoarse.
“What is?” Cara shifted her bottom, hoping to see more of what he looked at. All she saw was the green lights from the fading magic.
“Your life line.” He ran his finger over one of the deep lines. “And this one, it’s your love line. See, they’re touching here.” His voice was still deep and gravelly.
Why was he talking so weird? Was he trying to create atmosphere?
Cara shifted again, this time moving to her knees. Their heads were barely a breath apart.
“So, what does that mean?” she asked. It just looked like a road map to her. The intimate shivers running over her as Duncan’s fingers grazed her skin, however, were something else…
“That means”—he raised his head and met her gaze—“that you will be with your true love in eight years.”
His words hit her like a brick.
“What? Eight years?” Cara said. Gah, what a let-down! She slumped and pulled away from Duncan.
“Yes. A flash in the pan,” Duncan replied, snapping his fingers.
“For you, maybe. I’m twenty. That means I won’t meet my love until I’m twenty-eight? That’s forever from now.”
He held up her hand so she could see her palm. “Your palm doesn’t lie. In eight years, you’ll be with the man you’re supposed to be with.” His finger ran over the rest of the line.
Cara held another shiver at bay and made herself focus on what Duncan was saying rather than the feel of his hands on hers.
And gah, please may that not be my palm sweating!
“Well, will we get an HEA?” Cara asked, not sure she believed him, but she couldn’t help being curious.
He ran his thumb over her palm again. “I can’t tell. The lines get muddled. But I just know, in eight years, he’ll be with you. It’s a really significant moment in your life too.”
“How can you tell?”
“Because all the lines come together at this one point.” He stroked her hand. “Everything will come together then.” He stared at her with that really intense look in his eyes again.
Cara didn’t know whether to be happy about this or depressed. “Eight years. That’s a long time, Duncan.”
He flashed a smile over his face, but she knew him well enough that he had to be trying to make her feel better, because it didn’t reach his eyes.
“Maybe you need that long to become who you’re supposed to be. Who knows? He could be a fairy that hasn’t retired yet, and that’s why. Or an unturned vampire. Or a merrow that you haven’t met. There are an infinite number of reasons why you don’t get together for eight more years.”
“You mean I could already know him? Like I went to school with him or something?”
He shrugged. “Sure. He could be that classmate you never talked to, and seven years from now, you all meet at a pub and wind up hitting it off. The possibilities are endless.” Duncan let go of her hand.
Cara nodded. “Still not sure I believe you.”
“You don’t have to,” he said as he put his arm around her. “Just live your life. Don’t worry about meeting the one. He’ll be around soon enough.”
As she curled into him, all she could think was how she hoped, whoever he was, he could make her feel as good as Duncan did.