COLLEGE SUMMER

You’ll heal, she says, if I can get

the poison out. I take off

my shirt to let my mother

squeeze pimples on my

back. I imagine she

imagines me naked, different

from the child I was

before I never let her

see me undressed, not once

in a towel, never

swimming in front of her

again. She doesn’t know

last week I had sex

with a stranger and cringed

each time he put his

hands on my back,

the broken-out skin

Braille across my shoulders—

a scrape of fingernail, pinch,

warm spill, the careful wiping

and our careful quiet.