STILL LIFE WITH A HUNDRED CRUCIFIXIONS

I never talked to men

after sex, just got dressed

and left, but he asked me to stay,

naked like that on the bed—

even after we’d gotten off,

toweled off—so I stayed,

though I was afraid to see him

as a person: his face tired

in the lamplight, suddenly older

than his online pic. He pulled

a book from the shelf: Jesus

on every page, rendered in oil

from other centuries, hungry

and sad, scrawny and hammered

to different-sized crosses, or thrown—

full color—in a tomb.

What is that shade of blue? Look

at the detail in the hands.

He took my hand, placed it

on each slick image:

How did the painter make his eyes look like that?

What makes someone’s eyes look like that?