48. Thompson, Motif-Index of Folk-Literature, Type C947, Magic power lost by breaking taboo.
It is hard to describe the space that yawns open in your life after she is gone. You have to make yourself leave your phone at home; you have to practice ignoring it. You keep reminding yourself that you are accountable to no one. You try to imagine sex with other people and struggle to visualize it; masturbation is near impossible.48 You wonder if you will ever be able to let someone touch you; if you will ever be able to reconnect your brain and body or if they will forever sit on opposite sides of this new and terrible ravine.
48. Thompson, Motif-Index of Folk-Literature, Type C947, Magic power lost by breaking taboo.