MARTYR STARED AT THE EQUATION on the whiteboard and set his pencil down. He didn’t feel like practicing math today. What did math matter when his expiration date was so near?
His wrist still throbbed from Fido’s teeth. Martyr touched the strip of fabric he’d ripped from his bedsheet and tied around his wrist to stop the bleeding. He hoped the wound would heal before a doctor noticed it. A trip upstairs to mend it would be unpleasant, as the doctor would likely use the opportunity to perform tests. Martyr shuddered.
To distract himself, he glanced at the other boys. Every Jason in the classroom except Speedy and Hummer scribbled down the numbers from the whiteboard. Speedy sketched Dr. Max’s profile, staring at the doctor with intense concentration. His hand darted over the paper, shading the dark face with a short, black beard.
Hummer—as always—hummed and rocked back and forth, hugging himself. Martyr never understood why the doctors made Hummer take classes instead of putting him in with the brokens. Perhaps it had to do with Hummer’s being so much older than the other brokens, or the fact that he could walk and didn’t need special medications.
Movement at the back of the room caught Martyr’s attention, and he twisted around to get a better look. Dr. Kane stood outside the locked door, looking in through the square window. A stranger wearing glasses stood beside him, much shorter and a little rounder than Dr. Kane. The man’s head was also shaven like Martyr’s, but the way he carried himself next to Dr. Kane showed he was nothing like a clone. Martyr’s pulse increased. There hadn’t been a new doctor on the Farm in a long time.
Dr. Kane opened the door, and both men stepped inside. Martyr gasped. The new doctor wore color! A narrow strip of fabric ran from his neck to his waist. Martyr jumped up from his desk and headed for the stranger.
“J:3:3!” Dr. Max’s tone slowed Martyr’s steps. “One mark. Take your seat immediately.”
Yes, but one mark was not so bad. Martyr quickened his pace. If I could just touch the strip once …
Dr. Kane shooed the new doctor back into the hallway, pulling the door closed behind him. Desperate, and knowing the door would lock once it closed all the way, Martyr stepped into the shrinking exit. The door slammed against his bare foot, and a sharp pain shot through his ankle. He winced and wedged his torso into the crack.
He was met by Dr. Kane’s hand pressing against his chest. “J:3:3, return to your seat this instant. Two marks.”
But the color on the new doctor was too tempting.
Something indescribable stirred inside Martyr. “He has color, Dr. Kane.” He tried to remember the word—like carrots, like the caps on the doctors’ needles, like the slide. “It’s orange!”
Martyr pushed the rest of his body through the doorway, and Dr. Kane moved with him, keeping his imposing form between Martyr and the new doctor—the same way Martyr did when a Jason picked on Baby or another broken.
Chair legs scraped against the floor, and the Section Five math class rushed from their seats. With a quick glance that seemed to hint more marks were coming, Dr. Kane reached around Martyr and yanked the door shut before any other Jason could escape, leaving Martyr in the hall with the doctors.
Identical faces filled the square window, but Martyr could barely hear the Jasons inside. The silence in the hallway seemed to heighten the severity of Martyr’s actions. He glanced from Dr. Kane’s stern expression to the new doctor, to the strip of orange color.
The man stepped back, face pale, eyes wide and slightly magnified through his thick glasses. He clutched the orange fabric with both hands as if trying to hide it. “Wh-What does he want?”
Dr. Kane rubbed the back of his neck and sighed. “It’s my fault, Dr. Goyer. It’s been so long since I hired someone. Years ago we stopped allowing any adornments below level one. They were a danger to the doctor wearing them. Plus, the boys don’t encounter much color down here. It causes problems, as you can see.” Dr. Kane turned to Martyr with a tight smile. “J:3:3 is harmless, though.”
Dr. Kane’s casual tone emboldened Martyr to carry out his plan. He reached out for the orange color, exhaling a shaky breath when the doctor allowed him to touch the fabric. It was smooth, softer than his clothes or his sheets or the towels in the shower room. A napkin, perhaps? Maybe it hung there so the doctor could wipe his mouth after eating. “What’s it for?”
The new doctor tugged the orange fabric from Martyr’s grip. “It’s a tie.”
“Enough questions, J:3:3,” Dr. Kane said.
Martyr cocked his head to the side. “A napkin tie?”
“Three marks, J:3:3. Back against the wall, or it’ll be four,” Dr. Kane’s deep voice warned.
Martyr inched back and glanced down the hallway. Rolo jogged toward them, clutching his stick at his side, his large body bouncing with every step. Johnson, the other day guard, loped along behind.
Martyr fell to the ground and immediately wrapped himself into a ball, covering his head with his arms. His curiosity had gotten him in trouble again. Three marks meant three hours of lab time. All to touch the orange napkin tie.
It had been worth it.
“What’s he doing?” the man named Dr. Goyer asked.
Rolo and Johnson’s footsteps on the concrete floor drowned out Dr. Kane’s answer.
Rolo jabbed the stick between Martyr’s ribs. “What’s up, Martyr?” Another jab. Rolo liked when the Jasons fought back. “Getting into mischief again?”
Johnson’s familiar crushing grip pried Martyr’s arm away from his face, despite Martyr’s efforts to keep it there.
Rolo stopped poking long enough to whack Martyr on the head, sending a throbbing ache through his skull. “Get up, boy.”
Martyr complied as best he could with the stick still poking his side. He hoped the stinger wouldn’t engage.
Rolo grabbed Martyr’s other arm, and Martyr bit back a groan as the guards dragged him up and pushed him against the wall.
Rolo slid his stick under Martyr’s chin and pressed up, forcing Martyr to look at him. “See, now? We’re not so awful, are we?”
Rolo’s eyes were clear and cold. Martyr knew it was best to nod.
Johnson smirked at Martyr over Rolo’s shoulder. Johnson had thick brown hair, a bushy brown beard, and a mustache. The boys were not allowed beards or mustaches or hair. They visited the groomers once a week to be shaved—to keep from looking like Johnson.
“These are our day guards,” Dr. Kane said. “Robert Lohan, known as Rolo to the boys, and Dale Johnson. Men, this is Dr. Goyer. He’ll be starting next week.”
“Was it necessary to strike him?” Dr. Goyer asked Rolo. “He wasn’t being violent.”
Martyr looked from Dr. Kane to Rolo, then to Rolo’s stick. Rolo always used his stick. Most of the time it wasn’t necessary.
Rolo snorted, like Dr. Max sometimes did when one of the boys asked an ignorant question. He tightened his grip on Martyr’s wrists.
“The guards know how to keep the boys in order,” Dr. Kane said. “I don’t question their methods.”
“But why sticks?” Dr. Goyer asked. “Why not something more effective? A taser?”
“We use tasers if things get too far.” Johnson bent down and snagged up Martyr’s pant leg, revealing the stinger ring on his ankle. “They’re remote controlled, and each has its own code. Lee, up in surveillance can turn each one on manually or in a group. If the boys gang up on us and manage to swipe our weapons, the tasers knock ‘em flat in a hurry.”
Dr. Kane put his hand on Martyr’s shoulder and squeezed. “But J:3:3 doesn’t cause those kinds of problems. He sometimes gets a little excited, that’s all. Take him up to Dr. Goyer’s office, Robert.” He turned to Dr. Goyer. “This will give you a chance to try our marks procedure and get to know one of our subjects.”
Martyr eyed Dr. Goyer. Would the new doctor be angry that he had touched the orange napkin tie? Would the marks be miserably painful?
“What do I do with him?” Dr. Goyer asked.
The guards pushed Martyr toward the elevator, and he struggled to look over his shoulder at the new doctor.
Dr. Kane’s answer made Martyr shiver. “Whatever you want.”
Martyr lay strapped to the exam table in Dr. Goyer’s office, which he’d discovered was the third door on the right. He twisted his head to the side and squinted. The lab-like office rooms were always so bright. The lights buzzed overhead and the smell of clean made him sick to his stomach, reminding him of the hundreds of times he had lain on a table in such a room while a doctor poked and prodded. All the labs looked the same: a desk for the doctor, an exam table, and a long counter stretching along one wall with cupboards above and below. It had been five years since Martyr had been in this particular lab, though. He would never forget the last time.
The third door on the right had belonged to her. To Dr. Woman.
Many years had passed since the incident. Martyr was certain Dr. Kane would never allow another woman to enter the Farm because of what had happened, and the thought made him feel lonely. Dr. Woman had been kinder than any other doctor.
But it had gone bad.
Martyr blamed himself.
The door opened and Dr. Goyer entered. The light glinted off the man’s head as he looked down at a chart, and Martyr wondered why this doctor had to see the groomers when the other doctors were allowed to grow hair.
Dr. Goyer jumped back a step when he saw Martyr on the table and put a hand to his chest, but then moved about the lab as if he hadn’t seen Martyr at all. Martyr waited and watched Dr. Goyer file some papers, wipe down his counter, and sit at his desk. He was no longer wearing the orange napkin tie, only a white coat over a white shirt and black pants. Martyr frowned. Dr. Goyer would probably never wear the orange napkin tie again.
He hoped Dr. Goyer wouldn’t use pain today. Occasionally he got lucky with his marks and only needed to answer questions or try new foods. Dr. Goyer hadn’t carried in a steamy sack full of food, though.
Dr. Goyer suddenly spoke. “What am I supposed to do with you?”
Martyr met the doctor’s eyes. They were brown, like the eyes of every Jason on the Farm. Martyr knew the color brown well. “What do you want to do?”
The doctor rubbed a hand over his head. “I don’t know … I don’t know. They gave me a list of starter questions, but you’ve probably had all those by now.”
Martyr had answered them often. “What’s your number? Do you have a nickname? What’s your purpose?”
Dr. Goyer smiled. “That’s right. Can we just … talk?”
Martyr relaxed. Talking would likely be painless. “Yes, we can.”
“Do you like living here?”
The question confused Martyr. Where else would he live? “What do you mean?”
“Do you enjoy it? Do you find it fun?”
“Some days.”
“What makes a good day?”
“No marks. No fights. Food with color. Being with Baby. Especially a day where no one is trying to hurt Baby.”
“Is Baby your friend?”
Martyr nodded. “He needs me.”
“Why?”
“Baby is a Broken, so a lot of Jasons pick on him.”
“Broken.”
“Yeah, you know. Something went wrong when he was made. He’s small and doesn’t speak. The doctors think he’s ignorant and can’t learn, but they just don’t know his language. He talks with his hands, so I’m the only one who understands him.”
“Why did the guard call you Martyr?”
“It’s my nickname. I got it because I help Baby and the other brokens.”
Dr. Goyer paused for a second. “Tell me about a time you helped one of them.”
Dealing with bullies wasn’t Martyr’s favorite thing to talk about, but it was better than being poked with needles. He didn’t want the doctor to change his mind, so Martyr answered quickly. “A few days ago, Iron Man and Fido attacked Baby, and I called Johnson to stop them. Fido found me later and was angry.”
“What happened?”
Martyr saw no harm in pointing out the wound since he was already in a lab. He jerked his head to the strip of bedsheet tied around his wrist. “Rolo was close by, so Fido only bit me.”
Dr. Goyer stood and walked toward the exam table. “And that’s why they call him Fido?”
“Fido is a dog’s name.” Martyr knew this because Rolo said it almost every time he spoke to Fido. “Rolo says that Fido acts like a dog.”
“Have you ever seen a dog?” Dr. Goyer released the strap holding Martyr’s wrist to the table, loosened the sheet, and inspected the bite marks. Then he went to his counter and opened a cupboard.
“Only pictures we’re shown in class. Have you seen a real one?” Martyr had heard dogs were small and hairy and drooled a lot. Sometimes Hummer drooled, but no one called him a dog. Baby drooled a lot when he cried, but no one called him a dog either. Apparently Fido’s dog-ness was due to something else, because he certainly wasn’t small or hairy.
Dr. Goyer closed the cupboard. “I’ve seen lots of dogs.”
Martyr’s eyes flickered around the lab while he waited. A thick, black coat was draped over the back of Dr. Goyer’s chair. “You can go outside?”
“Of course.” Dr. Goyer stepped back to Martyr’s side and rubbed cool alcohol on his wrist.
It stung and Martyr stiffened. “You take the antidote?”
Dr. Goyer paused and looked away. His throat bobbed. “I, um … yes.”
Martyr blew out a long breath. He couldn’t even imagine what it must be like in the outside world. “I know I’ll never see things like dogs, but someone has to stay underground so people and dogs can exist.” Sometimes, the knowledge of his purpose was the only thing that made the Farm bearable. “You took off your napkin tie. Will you wear it again?”
“It’s a necktie, not a napkin tie, and I’m not allowed to wear it. I’m sorry I broke the rules today. It was a mistake.”
“I’m glad you did. Orange is very rare on the Farm. So is red. Red is my favorite. Where did you get the … necktie?”
Dr. Goyer peeled a bandage and stuck it to Martyr’s wrist. “My daughter gave it to me for Christmas.”
A tingle traveled down Martyr’s arms. Daughter was woman. He lifted his head off the table. “You have a woman?”
Dr. Goyer’s eyebrows crinkled over his eyes. “My daughter. She’s seventeen.”
“What does she look like?”
Dr. Goyer reached into his back pocket. He unfolded black fabric and showed Martyr a colored picture. The doctors sometimes showed them pictures, but never in color. Martyr had never seen so many colors in one place. He stared at the face and exhaled a long breath. The daughter had orange hair! And it was long, past her shoulders, and very curly, like spiral pasta. His eyes were the color of peas.
“He is very colorful.” Martyr’s eyes did not leave the picture when he asked, “What are the colors of peas?”
“Green.”
Martyr stared at the daughter’s eyes. “His eyes are green.”
“Her eyes.”
Martyr glanced at Dr. Goyer. “Her?”
“Women’s belongings are hers instead of his. They’re called she instead of he. Personal pronouns are gender specific.”
Goose pimples broke out over Martyr’s arms. This was why Dr. Woman had been called Her. Martyr wished he could remember more about Dr. Woman, but it had been so long ago, and he had been so young. “I would like to see a woman.”
Dr. Goyer’s eyebrows crinkled together again. He put the picture back into the black fabric and tucked it into his pocket.
“What’s that you keep the picture in?”
“A wallet. It holds my money and credit cards, my driver’s license.”
Martyr shook his head slightly, confused by the strange terms. None of the other doctors ever showed him things like this. He wished he could see the picture again—wished he had his own picture—but Dr. Goyer had seemed upset when he put his wallet back into his pocket. Martyr hoped Dr. Goyer wouldn’t stop showing him fascinating things in the future.
As the silence stretched on, Martyr tried to think of something to say so Dr. Goyer wouldn’t get bored and decide to use needles. “What is Christmas?”
Dr. Goyer leaned against the wall by the door and folded his arms. “It’s a holiday. You don’t celebrate Christmas here?”
“What’s celebrate?”
“Celebrate is … being happy together.” Dr. Goyer straightened and looked into Martyr’s eyes. “What do the other doctors do when you have marks?”
Martyr swallowed, torn over how to answer. If he didn’t tell Dr. Goyer the truth, the other doctors would, and Dr. Goyer would know Martyr had lied. Lying always made things worse. “Mostly they use needles to test the contents of different vials. Medicines for outside, I think. Sometimes the vials cause pain, sometimes they make us sleep. Other times the doctors put sticky wires on our bodies that buzz our insides. And occasionally they just ask questions.”
“What kind of questions do they ask?”
“Questions about pain. Questions about math and science. Questions about Iron Man and Fido, or Rolo and Johnson.”
“Who is Iron Man?”
“The doctors call him J:3:1. He’s the oldest who is still living, which makes him the leader. But many of us choose not to follow him. He’s cruel. He’s cruel to Baby.”
Dr. Goyer walked to his chair and sat down, glancing over the papers on his desk. He picked one up and read from it. “What’s the most important rule here?”
It was the standard list of questions. “Obey the doctors.”
“What is your purpose?”
Martyr swallowed and closed his eyes. “My purpose is to expire. To be a sacrifice for those who live outside.” Martyr opened his eyes and met Dr. Goyer’s. “Like you.”
Dr. Goyer folded his arms and stared at his lap.
Did the doctor want a longer answer? “I expire in twenty-five days, when I turn eighteen. Then my purpose will be fulfilled.”
Dr. Goyer looked up. “Does that scare you?”
No one had ever asked if he were scared. “I don’t want to expire.”
“Because you want to live?”
“Yes, but not for myself. I’m content to sacrifice my life to save thousands from the toxic air. But if I’m gone, who will take care of Baby? And if Baby doesn’t live until he’s eighteen, he’ll fail to serve his purpose. That wouldn’t be fair.”
“It’s important to you to serve your purpose?”
“It’s why I’m alive.”
Dr. Goyer rubbed his mouth with his hand. “Can I answer any questions for you, Martyr?”
Martyr thought about the orange necktie and the picture of the daughter. “How do you celebrate Christmas?”
“You give gifts to those you love.”
Dr. Max had explained gifts once, when they talked about being nice to others. But the other word was new. “What is love?”
Dr. Goyer ran a hand over his head again. “Uh … it’s when you have kind feelings for someone.”
Dr. Goyer had been kind. He had given enjoyable marks and mended Martyr’s wrist with no lecture. “Will you give me a gift?”
“Maybe someday.”
“An orange necktie?”
Dr. Goyer pursed his lips as if fighting a smile. “Probably not.”