CHAPTER TWO

20-MAR

Sloane stared at the ceiling of an elevator, willing it to move faster until the very second the doors split apart on floor fifteen, at which point she dashed through them like a racehorse.

“They’re all in the conference room—” Her secretary, Beatrice, leaned over her vestibule, her coiled phone cord stretched from where she had the handset pressed to her ear.

“I know, Beatrice. I know.” Sloane tore past her through the hallway. “And I am already royally screwed.”

For the record, all had been fine a couple of hours ago when she’d sat down with her husband and her ten-year-old daughter, Abigail’s, school principal. She had responsibly tucked her phone inside her landfill of a purse because she was a good mother, which in that place meant an undistracted mother. Or that was the part she’d been intent on playing in front of Principal Clark, anyway.

And now look!

She’d fished out her cell post-meeting to find the text messages from Ardie:

Desmond dropped dead this morning.

Heart attack.

Ames is looking for you.

Ok, seriously, where are you??

Sloane??

She hadn’t even had time to say goodbye to her husband.

At last, she stood outside the North conference room, heart pounding so hard she worried that she, too, might have a heart attack. Number one killer of women over forty! She’d heard that somewhere. Maybe on The View. She pulled the handle to let herself inside.

Seven lawyers at the director level or higher sat around the table. Ames—General Counsel. Kunal from Communications, Mark for Employment, Ardie from Tax, Philip covered Risk, Joe, Litigation, and Grace was Director of Compliance. Plus another younger woman with a chestnut-colored pixie cut and Snow White cheeks whom Sloane had never met before. Every face in the room turned to watch Sloane enter.

“Sorry I’m late.” She slid into the empty seat beside Ames. The woman with the pixie cut smiled politely at her.

Ames glanced up from a stack of papers. A stripe of white ran a wavering line through his thick hair, otherwise the color of black coffee, save for the silvering that had begun to take root above his ears. “Where have you been?”

“I was—” Sloane paused for a fraction of a second, weighing how to finish the sentence. (We all did this. Whether in dating or at the office, we realized the power of pretending our children didn’t exist. A man could say he was taking the day to go fishing with his son, while a mother was usually better off hiding the fact that she took a long lunch to run her child to the doctor’s office. Children turned men into heroes and mothers into lesser employees, if we didn’t play our cards right.) “I stepped out briefly.” She cleared her throat.

“Without your cell phone?” Ames licked his fingertip to help him flip through the pages. Bodies shifted uncomfortably around the table.

“I was momentarily out of pocket, yes,” she said. “Poor reception.” Not a great excuse, in her world.

Ames made a nondescript noise and shifted the wad of Hot Tamales in his mouth.

She stared at him, resisting the urge to meet the seven pairs of eyes trained on her around the room.

Then Ames winked. Always his left eye. The delicate crow’s-feet branching quickly out to his temples. He was one of the only men she knew who still reached for the wink. He could pull it off, actually. It said at once: We’re fine here, but also: I’m the one in charge.

He opened his palms to the rest of the room. “Sloane Glover, everybody.” As if he were introducing a comedian to the stage. Sloane bristled, though her face remained placid. Working with Ames was like sitting next to someone who was constantly kicking your shin under the table. “So nice that we can finally begin. Shall we?”

Awkward nods of acknowledgment followed. Beside her, Philip quietly pushed his legal pad and pen in front of Sloane’s place. She pressed her hand to the spot between her ribs and blew out a breath. Thank you, she mouthed and Philip, whose tie was always crooked, simply shrugged. If only all men at the office could be more like Philip.

“I assume by now everyone has heard about the unfortunate passing of our Chief Executive Officer, Desmond Bankole,” Ames began. “Memorial services will be announced in the coming days. I’m sure I’m not off base in expecting to see many of you at the funeral.”

As Ames talked about Bankole’s accomplishments, Sloane furiously downloaded from pen to paper the action items she’d been formulating as she drove back to the office.

Ames cut a look to her.

She set down her pen.

“Let’s try to stay on the same page here.” He folded his hands on the table. “I asked Grace to start us off by discussing any legal obligations Truviv has as a public company. Grace?”

Grace straightened. Sloane often wondered if her face underwent the same transformative process when she had to put on an air of authority about a subject at work. In her twenties, she knew, it had. Then, she could feel herself pulling on the mask of confidence, lowering her voice, removing the “likes” from her speech, stilling her knee, reminding herself that, yes, she was qualified. Grace’s tells were subtler. In Grace she saw a lift of the chin. A squaring of shoulders. Sloane—like most of us—rarely spotted these tiny betrayals of self-assurance in male colleagues. Was it because they weren’t there? Or were we not in tune enough to see them?

“Sure,” Grace said and launched into a discussion of the SEC, about 8-K filings, and updating the company’s website. In a CEO’s unexpected absence, transparency, Grace explained, was key. “I’ll circulate a memo that will be easier to digest,” she finished.

“And we’re working on a statement.” Kunal pointed his finger, touching it to the table for emphasis. “Until that’s available, please answer any press calls by saying that we are very saddened by Desmond’s loss both personally and professionally.” His wide brown eyes took notice of each face in the room. “Do not respond with the words ‘No comment,’ whatever you do. Shareholders hate ‘no comment.’ Understood? We’ll shoot for having the statement tomorrow morning. Does that sound good to you, Sloane?”

Sloane sat back in her chair. “Sounds doable,” she said decisively. Men could get away with hedging. It came across as thoughtful. If Sloane waffled it would sound like she didn’t know what the hell she was doing. “We need to emphasize the firm’s succession plan and look at recent examples of companies that handled a CEO’s death or illness particularly well. A couple spring to mind, like Mc—”

“Actually,” Ames interrupted. Sloane’s toes contracted reflexively. “I think we should be looking at McDonald’s. They had a similar situation. Two CEOs dying in two years. The first one was sudden. And Imation. Those are the two examples I’d go with, Kunal.”

Sloane absorbed a spike of frustration. She’d used all the potential reactions by this point in her career. Her favorite was a polite: “Interesting, that sounds a lot like what I just said” in her best Southern accent. But to this she said simply, “Great idea, Ames.”

Ames rubbed his palms together, satisfied. “All right, we all have our marching orders. My office door is always open if you need me.”

They stood to go. Sloane clicked the pen closed. Ink stains peppered the inside of her right middle finger. Ardie and Grace, who had been seated side-by-side across from her, skirted the room to pass by on their way out. “Sorry,” Ardie leaned in and whispered while shaking her head slowly.

Grace pressed her lips together and caught Sloane’s hand for a quick squeeze. Sloane noticed a damp stain on the front of Grace’s silk blouse that she knew, without thinking, wouldn’t come out. It was useless to wear any kind of silk while breastfeeding. She’d have to tell Grace.

“Katherine.” Ames held up a finger, talking to the new woman, who still lingered while everyone else had filtered his or her way out. “You can wait in here one moment. I just need to go pull the draft announcement from my desk for Sloane.” He looked at Sloane. “You don’t mind stopping by my office, do you?”

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Ames’s office door was not actually, as he’d said, always open. Neither literally nor figuratively. Sloane had followed him as he walked two steps in front of her along the narrow corridor.

He opened the door to his office and together they stepped inside The Shrine—a gallery wall of Ames with famous athletes. Truviv, Inc., was the world’s foremost athletic apparel brand, sponsoring all the country’s biggest athletes. There he was playing golf with Tiger Woods. Now, here he sat courtside with an injured Kevin Durant. Then—look!—another candid photo playing catch with Justin Verlander and his wife, Kate Upton. If Ames realized that the men and women memorialized on his wall might only be his friends because Truviv wrote a large portion of their sponsorship checks, he didn’t care. Either way, Sloane considered The Shrine the semi–socially acceptable equivalent of a dick pic.

“So,” he said, turning to lean on his desk. He was a middle-aged man who wore a charcoal suit well and managed to look better with age. At least this was what Sloane objectively knew to be true, though she herself had a hard time recognizing his good looks anymore. They’d become just another fact about Ames that she didn’t quite believe. “Desmond’s gone.” He stuck his thumbs deep into his eye sockets and kneaded his eyes. “That was something I didn’t see coming.”

“I’m … yes, I’m so sorry.” Sloane allowed herself to drift farther in past the threshold. Since hearing the news, it was the first time she’d mentally framed the CEO’s death around condolences. It was terrible. He had children, two she thought, each only a little bit older than Abigail. She planned to process his passing tonight with her husband, Derek, over a glass of wine—the finest chardonnay their refrigerator had to offer. She would remember Desmond for his lively, attentive face as he sat in the first chair on the left side of the conference table, listening as she gave quarterly presentations to the company’s executives.

“Remember how he always called you Miss Sloane?” Ames folded his arms. His shoulders shook with a quiet, good-natured laugh. “Like you were a preschool teacher?”

The memory triggered a faint smile. “Yes, god. It didn’t actually bother me. Coming from him.”

“He liked you.” Ames pushed his weight off the desk and went around to the other side, where he began typing on the keyboard without committing to sitting down. She waited for a few moments, unsure of how much attention was required for whatever he was doing behind the computer.

“I’m sorry to change the subject, but who was that woman?” Sloane asked. “Katherine, was it?”

He slid open a drawer, shook out a couple Hot Tamales—an oral fixation to curb his smoking habit—and popped them in his mouth. “That was Katherine Bell. I’ll introduce you. Slipped my mind with everything going on. One second, please.” He struck a few more keys and then looked up at Sloane again.

She had the idea that Ames sometimes had a touch of selective amnesia about their early years at the firm. Other times, it was the only thing he seemed to remember about her at all. Today, he was clearly in the mood to pretend history didn’t exist. “She’s our new hire,” he said. “Lots of corporate experience. She’ll be working in your section. I think you’re going to find her to be a really valuable asset.”

Sloane cocked her ear toward Ames, as though she’d misheard him. “My section?” She repeated it as a question.

“That’s right.”

“And you didn’t think to consult me about hiring someone new for my section?” Her voice sounded too high-pitched. Shrill, he might call it. “I’m SVP of that section.”

It had been years since Ames had pulled something like this on her—years! And Sloane nearly undid all of them, all those months upon months of keeping her cool, of dealing with Ames and his Grade-A bullshit, with a sudden outburst of unadulterated anger.

Ames stooped to look at his computer screen again. “And I’m the General Counsel,” he said. “Should we swap resumes?”

Sloane could already feel herself going over this conversation tonight in the mirror while brushing her teeth, wishing it had gone differently.

“Where is Katherine’s office?” She changed tacks.

“I figured you could take care of all that. After all”—he flashed a disarming smile and his chin dimpled—“you are Senior Vice President.”

“Right.” She took a deep breath and compartmentalized. It wasn’t as though they could leave an attorney, even one Sloane hadn’t asked for, idling in the conference room forever. She rested her legal pad on her forearm and added Find Katherine an office to the list of action items, right at the top. What an inauspicious day to begin. And hadn’t she looked young, her skin so well hydrated? The word “ingénue” had come to mind, though that was ridiculous. She had to be at least thirty, older than Sloane was when she started here.

Sloane turned to leave, forgetting for a moment the reason she’d come in the first place.

“Sloane. The draft.” Ames had finally made a decision to sit and was clicking through something she couldn’t see because his screen was tilted. He nodded toward the legal pad on his desk. “I took a first stab. I want to see it before it goes out.”

Sloane walked back to his desk. A pair of scissors lay open atop the legal pad. Their silver blades left a violent X against the yellow pages. She felt lack of sleep and stacks of unopened bills and anger. Her fingers lingered over the cool metal. Sometimes when Sloane stood in very high places, she worried an urge to jump would seize her and she’d find herself tumbling off the side of a building. We all understood this feeling, how with just a twitch of fingers, Sloane—or any one of us—could snatch up the scissors and snip the artery in Ames’s neck.

She pulled the legal pad, her fingertips sticking to the pages with faint perspiration. “I’ll have this back to you in an hour,” she said, a false note creeping into her voice as she escaped Ames Garrett’s office, not for the first time.

 

Deposition Transcript

26-APR

Ms. Sharpe:	State your name, please.
Respondent 1:	Sloane Glover.
Ms. Sharpe:	What is your occupation, Ms. Glover?
Respondent 1:	I work at Truviv as a lawyer. My formal title is Senior Vice President of North American Legal Affairs.
Ms. Sharpe:	How long have you worked at Truviv?
Respondent 1:	About thirteen years.
Ms. Sharpe:	That’s a respectable length of time. Longer than most people stay at their jobs, I imagine. What has kept you at Truviv for so many years?
Respondent 1:	I hold a highly coveted position. In-house jobs, especially ones that pay well, are hard to come by. Truviv is a household name. Many people would have killed—sorry, I didn’t mean—there were lots of people who would want my job.
Ms. Sharpe:	And how did you come to know Ames Garrett?
Respondent 1:	Ames was part of the group I interviewed with before making the move over from Jaxon Brockwell, so I suppose we first met then.
Ms. Sharpe:	Did you work closely with Mr. Garrett?
Respondent 1:	Not until we worked on a divestiture of an affiliate brand, I guess. He had been with the company about five years at that point, I believe. He was coordinating the diligence materials to be sent to opposing counsel and I was assisting him.
Ms. Sharpe:	And how would you characterize your relationship back then?
Respondent 1:	It was fine.
Ms. Sharpe:	What do you mean by “fine,” Ms. Glover?
Respondent 1:	I thought Ames was smart and ambitious. He taught me a lot about running a sales process. We got along.
Ms. Sharpe:	I see. And when did your affair begin?