My Mother’s Skin

KATE AUSTIN

I’m wearing my

mother’s skin

and since I’ve passed my

best-before date,

her hands fit as if they were

made

for me

Personally crafted

by a tailor from

Hong Kong

one who sends out

full colour postcards

promising

the perfect fit

I remember

her hands, mine now

trembling as she

smoked

drank

her morning beer

from the sunshine

yellow of her plastic cup

I use it, she’d say

because it doesn’t break

when I drop it.

That yellow cup

Holds a faded paper crane

a tarnished bracelet

a bookmark

I lift it to my nostrils

and believe I still

smell her in it

I’m wearing my

mother’s nails

her fingers

her rings almost fit

so I push them

onto my middle finger

too tight but safe

the gold and

treasured diamonds

shine

as she did

Her hands, now mine

tobacco stained and worn

with time and pain and

for me at last

with joy

I read between the lines

of my hands

mining the veins

for answers

I map the marks

on my hands

pale ones, dark ones

to find a path to

my mother

myself