NOT KNOWING WHAT HE’S MISSING

The old poet writes importantly about the hungers.

About Brahms, being greedy for intensity, hot

sunlight on small weeds, fierce honey from hives

abandoned far up the mountain. And the women,

their flavors and flaws. The places he’s had them,

Paris, Japan, dire Copenhagen, stony islands in Greece.

And now he is eighty, and wishes to be in love again.

Sometimes his wishes sound like bragging.

She reads his poems gratefully in her small

Mississippi town. It’s an undramatic life, yet

these past months she seems to have found the intensity

he yearns for. This also sounds like bragging,

though she doesn’t mean it to. If she could, she’d let him

bear her secret. She’d let all the great men bear it,

for a few hours. Then, when she took it back,

they’d remember how it feels to be inhabited.

Last night the secret kicked her awake. She grew

hungry. She didn’t want to roll-heave out of bed,

but the secret demanded. She walked to the kitchen, stood

eating handfuls of cereal from the box while the birds

sang in the dark. Remembering what a racket

birds can make. Finally, the secret was content. She tried

the bed again, facing the rising sun. The secret kicked

so hard the mattress shook, but the husband didn’t wake.