Not much later, we stand in Pauline’s spectacular digs. Her loft has three floors, each eclectically decorated by art, trinkets, collectibles, weavings, rugs, mirrors, and other fashionable items, including a harp and a stuffed bear. They cover every square inch of wall and floor, creating a veritable three-dimensional mural.
Pauline picks her art with a remarkable combination of whimsy and purpose. Same with her clothes.
She stands at the doorway wearing a black skirt short enough to show lovely knees and a snug T-shirt with Mickey Mouse on the front. She rubs her eyes and shakes her head.
“Cobwebs. So excited for your visit I fell asleep.”
I laugh.
“And you must be the infamous Grandma,” she says.
“I’m Lane Idle,” Grandma responds. Then she mutters something I can’t quite make out. Pauline asks her to repeat.
“Pigeon,” Grandma says, quietly. “It’s my identifying password.”
Pauline shoots me a quick glance. I shrug.
“I’m Pauline,” our host says. “Want to know my password?”
Grandma nods. Pauline approaches and whispers something to her. Grandma smiles.
“You are very beautiful,” Grandma says as we walk into the room, her eyes focused on our host.
“You’re not so bad yourself.”
Grandma puts her hand over her mouth. It looks like fear. But then she joyfully exclaims: “Tansey!”
She points at a framed print of a painting hung over the fireplace. The print depicts a cow standing in a museum. Next to the cow, a museum curator pulls a white sheet to unveil a painting of two other cows.
“You like Mark Tansey?” Pauline asks.
“I’m not sure what the artist is getting at,” I say. “Were any cows harmed in the making of this painting?”
Grandma and Pauline simultaneously say: “Just enjoy it.”
Grandma breaks into a grin, takes Pauline’s hand in hers, squeezes.
Pauline looks at me, shakes her head, bemused, then excuses herself. She returns a moment later and hands me a martini with a sunken green olive. I sip and feel its warmth.
“Does this house have a computer?” Grandma asks. “I like to play the game with the falling blocks.”
Pauline holds Lane’s arm as she takes us down a metal staircase with a polished red wood railing to a floor with a wide-open living room. It’s scattered with painstaking design with more eclectic art and furniture, including a statuesque grandfather clock but with Martian ears on its sides and an antenna, and a beanbag chair that looks like a wading pool.
I follow the pair of women to the far side of the room, where a doorway leads to a home office. This is relatively Spartan, a single multicolored weaving hanging on a wall behind and above a metallic desk. On the desk, a sleek Macintosh.
Pauline snags the mouse, bringing the monitor to life, makes a few clicks, and calls up Tetris. “Is this the game you like?”
“No,” Grandma says, looking intently at the screen. “No, no, no!”
Pauline looks at me.
“Where are all the messages?” Grandma asks.
“Messages?”
“I like that one,” Grandma says, more calmly. She is pointing at the screen’s top right corner, where there’s a logo for “super Tetris.”
Pauline clicks on it, prompting the program to appear on the full screen. Without a word, Grandma places herself on Pauline’s ergonomic wonder of a black work chair, and practically pulls the mouse from our host’s hand.
We watch as Grandma starts playing, sort of. The blocks are falling, and she’s in a trance, watching, sometimes clicking.
“Is this fun?” I ask after a minute.
“I’m busy now,” Grandma responds.
“Yowza,” Pauline says to me. “Eerie.”
“Grandma, I’m going to go in the other room for a little while.”
In the living room, Pauline and I sit on a soft brown couch. I slug the remains of my martini and place it on the glass table or, rather, on a round coaster covered with green felt made to look like a putting green. My host refills it from a silver shaker.
I’m immediately buzzed. I find myself staring at an oil painting of a French café, where a young woman holds a poodle in one hand and a baguette in the other. I can’t remember the last time I ate.
“So . . . the mysterious thumb drive. Tell me!” she says.
I want to tell her. I want to untangle the last few days. Does she advise going to the cops? Does she know anything about Biogen? Does she have sources who can help?
Can she tell me about Chuck? Can I trust him?
But I’m just locked up, beyond fatigued.
“Martini got your tongue?” she asks.
“Huh?”
“You’re not speaking. It’s like we’re an old married couple that I never plan to become.”
“Well, we are babysitting—an eighty-five-year-old. So we’ve been married a long, long time.”
She’s inched closer to me—now only a half a foot away. She curls a strand of hair behind her right ear. A silver chain hangs around her neck, holding a pendant that rests just above her cleavage.
“Polly,” she says.
“Pardon?”
“You have got to start calling me Polly. The only people who call me Pauline are my mother and the Internal Revenue Service.”
“Polly,” I say, “Who is in your locket?”
She fingers the silver jewelry.
“I’ll make you a trade: You tell me about the thumb drive and I’ll tell you about the locket.”
I clear my throat, trying not to sound defensive. “What’s so interesting to you about the drive?”
“Easy. I won’t Bogart your scoop. I’m just curious.”
“Just curious.”
“It’s a habit of mine.”
I shake my head. My energy to discuss the topic feels sapped; and I’m feeling a remote sense of suspicion about her curiosity—without any basis that I can name.
“Dead end.”
“You’re blinking a lot—quickly. Whenever I see that in negotiations, it means someone is holding something back.”
“Are we negotiating?”
She laughs. “You win.”
I haven’t even told her all I’ve learned today. Chuck’s visit, the drive-by shooting, the emptied dental office, Adrianna.
She runs a manicured finger along the locket’s outer edge, then slips it open. Inside, a headshot of a handsome man with an angular face and closely cropped hair.
“My brother. Philip.”
“The one . . .”
“The addict who likes to steal from his sister.”
“Steal? Like what?”
“Stuff I leave out,” she says. “When he shows up out of the blue, I leave out cash or jewelry he can easily take and sell. Then I convince myself he’s using it for food and shelter.”
The room has fallen so quiet that I can hear Grandma muttering to herself in the other room. I raise my near empty glass.
“People change on their own terms,” Pauline says.
“To recovery,” I say.
We touch martini glasses and I slug the remains of mine. She pours lemon-flavored seltzer water into a glass, brings it to her lips and sips.
“You’re getting me drunk,” I say.
She bites the inside of her lip.
“You’re flushed. Are you sick?” I ask.
She shakes her head.
“What’s stressing you, Polly? What aren’t you telling me?”
“Bad patch at work.”
“Care to elaborate?”
“Nathaniel, I’m not who you think I am.”
I shiver.
“This place isn’t me,” she says.
“This house?”
“This role. My life. It’s just an iteration of me. I grew up in Albuquerque, on rice and beans. We got our health care at a free clinic. My brother served in the National Guard to pay for college.”
“That’s your confession?”
“I love to get invested in the world. I do it more easily than most, through various professional pursuits. I’ve made money to take care of myself and other people. But if all this stuff went away, if I lost this all, I’d be no different.”
She pauses.
“Polly?”
“Does my success intimidate you?”
“C’mon.” I’m surprised to feel a hint of defensiveness I hope I don’t betray.
“Nathaniel, I know you can’t buy real emotional connection at an auction.”
I can’t tell if we’re having a relationship conversation or something else.
“You’re an adult and I’m treating you that way. I just want you to know all this stuff about me before you decide,” she says.
“Decide what?”
She looks at me at length, shakes her head. She stands and sashays away. She walks to a wooden cabinet sitting beside the enormous TV. She kneels, causing her skirt to inch above her thigh. She clicks buttons on the stereo, and Jamaican music fills the room. Sultry seaside drums.
She saunters back. She takes the napkin that is wrapping the base of her glass and dabs spilled liquid from the couch. Then she moves the napkin to my knee, where a droplet has begun to sink into my jeans. My neurons jerk awake, delivering me a sensation of craving.
Without withdrawing her hand, she looks up at me.
“My brother and I had the same genetics. He took one path and I another.”
Before I can ask what she means, she says: “We all have the power to choose.”
Cryptic, I think, or maybe I’m too drunk to follow. She leans forward—into me. I feel her breath getting closer. I open my mouth to greet her. And then we hear a violent crashing noise.
It has come from the home office.
Clumsily, hurriedly, I extricate myself from the couch. I hustle into the home office.
Grandma stands beside the metallic desk. The Macintosh computer lies on the ground beside the desk, as if it has been swept there.
“I lied,” Grandma says.
Alcohol is dimming my capacity to make sense of this. “Did the computer fall on you?” I ask. It’s an inane question. Grandma has tossed the computer to the ground, or pushed it from the side of the desk.
“I lied. I lied. I lied. I lied.”
She’s shaking. Now her head is hung. She’s not looking at me.
“Grandma, what did you lie about?”
“I have two sons. You know that. That’s the truth. My father drove a Chevrolet. Irving did not wear a uniform to our wedding. I know these things to be true.”
“Okay.”
I put my arms around her and she drops a head to my shoulder.
I feel Pauline standing behind me. “I’m sorry. I’ll pay for the computer.”
“Don’t be silly,” our host responds.
“We should go, Polly.”
She considers this. “You can’t drive.”
She’s right. I can’t drive, or think, or make sense of Grandma’s outburst.
“If you have a bed or couch Lane can lie down on, I’ll take the floor. I need to be near her.”
“Sure.”
“We’ll finish the conversation later,” I say.
She smiles thinly. “Maybe.”
She leads us to a guest room on the third floor. Grandma takes the bed, I curl up in a heavy blue comforter at her feet on the carpeted floor.
I wake up nine hours later to find that I’ve crawled onto the bed. And I’m cold. I’ve slept on the edge, uncovered by a blanket, while Grandma nestles next to the wall.
I wake to see Grandma looking at me. “Bugs in a rug,” she says.
“Peas in a pod.”
“Pigs in a blanket.”
“You’re the only one with a blanket.”
We both laugh. She’s always most lucid when she’s rested.
I stand and stretch.
My cell phone buzzes. I extract it from my pocket, and discover two missed calls. One is from G.I. Chuck, asking me to call. He wonders if I’m okay and says he tried the phone I’d given him but I didn’t answer.
A second voice mail is from Betty Lou.
“I have the file,” says Betty Lou, whispering her message. She tells me to meet her at the same time as yesterday in a park near the home.
“Is it the right time of day for pancakes?” Grandma asks.
“Exactly the right time.”
“Okay.”
“It’s Halloween.”
“That’s nice.”
“It sure is. Because we’re going to wear costumes,” I say.
That’s how we’re going to sneak into Biogen.