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“The style of your solo is classical ballet,” Miss Toni explained to Scarlett on Wednesday. “Marilyn was a beautiful, tragic figure. I want you to dance en pointe and make the judges fall in love with you.”

“My mom said she was a bombshell—whatever that means,” Scarlett said, stretching at the barre.

“It means she was vivacious and people tripped over themselves just to get near her,” Toni explained. “She seemed sweet and innocent, even naive at times. But she wielded a tremendous amount of power.”

Scarlett fastened the ribbons on her toe shoes. “That’s a lot of different things to show in one dance,” she said.

“If anyone can do it, you can,” Toni said. “I’m counting on you. Don’t let me down.”

Scarlett loved how much faith Miss Toni had in her, but at the same time, it made her nervous. What if she missed a step? Tripped and fell? It had all happened before, and she knew it would happen again. She just hoped it wasn’t at Electric Dance.

“The arms and legs have to balance each other out,” she said while she demonstrated. “I want long and graceful mixed with strength.” She did a perfect tombé pas de bourrée and then a pirouette into a finishing fourth. It took Scarlett’s breath away. Sometimes she forgot that Miss Toni had once been a prima ballerina. She and Justine Chase, City Feet’s coach, had been students together at American Ballet Company, where their friendship had begun and ended. But why it ended was still a puzzle. The girls had learned that Justine tried to steal Toni’s roles and even her boyfriend. But they also suspected there had to be more to the story. The only thing that was clear was that Miss Toni wanted to beat City Feet just as much as the Divas did—maybe even more. For her, it was personal.

“This will be your costume.” Miss Toni pulled a silky white halter dress out of the closet. “Very Marilyn, don’t you think?”

Scarlett nodded. She especially loved the tiny pearls around the neckline and waist. It was both delicate and glam at the same time—exactly how she imagined Marilyn Monroe had been.

“The key will be to keep it real,” Miss Toni said, adjusting Scarlett’s turnout. “Nothing over the top. Just clean, beautiful lines and a haunted face. Let me see it.”

Scarlett tried to look both pained and pretty at the same time. She pouted her lips and blinked her eyes.

“Oh no … You look like a puppy dog!” Toni complained. “You need to practice in front of a mirror. If you make that face, there is no way you’re taking home first place in Junior Solo. The judges will throw you a dog biscuit!”

Scarlett winced. Sometimes Toni’s critiques stung. But she nodded her head and promised she’d work on it.

“Scoot then, Scoot,” Toni said. “Isn’t that what Gracie calls you?”

Scarlett rolled her eyes. “Yeah, unfortunately.”

“Well, I’m going to call you ‘Sour Puss’ until I see a better Marilyn face.”

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At home that night, Scarlett stood in front of her bathroom mirror, trying to channel her inner Marilyn.

“What are you doing?” Gracie asked, watching her make strange faces at her reflection.

“Do you mind? I’m working on showing emotion for my solo at Electric Dance.”

Gracie looked confused. “Are you supposed to be sick?”

“No!” Scarlett shot back. “I’m supposed to be sad and tragic and incredibly beautiful.”

Gracie shook her head. “You look like you have a tummy ache.”

Scarlett tried another face: this one with a furrowed brow and a wrinkled nose.

“Yup,” Gracie said. “That’s definitely the ouchy face.”

“Mom!” Scarlett shouted. “Gracie is driving me crazy!”

“Am not!” Gracie replied. “I’m trying to help!”

Scarlett shooed her away and went to her room, where she brought up video chat on her computer. Bria appeared on the other end.

“I knew you’d be on your computer!” Scarlett said. Bria was always up late, studying one subject or another.

“Make it quick.” She sighed. “I have twenty more problems to go on my pre-algebra homework.”

“I can’t get the right face for my solo,” Scarlett explained. “I can feel it when I dance, but I just can’t get that feeling from my toes to my head.”

Bria thought for a moment. “Imagine yourself dancing on the stage. Now try.”

Scarlett made a face into the computer camera. “How’s this?”

“You kind of look like you ate one of Gracie’s crazy recipes and you have a stomachache,” Bria said.

“Miss Toni said she wants my face to look haunted. But apparently all I can do is look sick.”

“I think the problem is that you’re trying too hard,” Bria suggested. “Don’t pretend. Think of something really sad and connect with it.”

Scarlett racked her brain for the saddest memory she could think of. “I just don’t know,” she told her friend. “What would you say is your saddest memory?”

“Definitely my last science pop quiz,” Bria said. “That was a nightmare. I blanked and forgot all the answers.”

“No, I mean something really, really sad. Something that breaks your heart,” Scarlett insisted. Then it came to her: the day, two years ago, that her mom and dad told her they were getting divorced.

“Please! Don’t!” she had screamed at her parents through hysterical tears. “I don’t want this to happen to us.”

“Honey.” Her dad had tried to calm her. “You have to be a big girl about this. It’s not working between your mom and me, and we can’t live together anymore.”

“We’ll always be here for you and Gracie,” her mom added. “We love you and your sister so much, and nothing will ever change that.”

Scarlett remembered feeling like someone had knocked the wind out of her. She felt completely lost and helpless. There was nothing she could do to keep their family together. It felt like floating aimlessly in space, with no one and nothing to grab on to …

“That’s it, that’s it!” Bria shouted, snapping her friend back to the present day. “Scarlett, that was a great face.”

Scarlett shuddered and shook the feeling away. “I guess that’s what I need to think about,” she said. “Poor Marilyn. I can’t imagine feeling like that all the time.”

“Well, just remember it for your next rehearsal,” Bria said. “And if it doesn’t work, I can give you my science quiz. It’s pretty sad and scary.”