Laura looked so vulnerable peeking at me through her long eye lashes. I could hear her heart racing and her breath was ragged and labored. I could almost smell the smoke coming off of Laura's brain as she tried desperately to come up with the words to say to me. Laura's offer to blood bond was like a gift from god. If we could bond then maybe a lot of our problems could resolve themselves on their own. We had so many differences in who we are and where we came from that we just kept making things worse.
Laura shifted around and I could tell she wasn't happy about her statement. I think she expected me to decline blood bonding with her again. I however had no intention of declining. I realized that Laura was my future and delaying the inevitable only served to hurt both of us more. Laura had no idea how much I learned while she'd been sleeping. Based on the look on her face I was grateful that Micah tried his best to explain many of the differences between Bastet and vampires. I understood that not only would Laura's wolf and my tiger bond but our souls would also connect in the traditional way of my people. According to Micah there were no words to describe what I would feel.
Micah said once our souls were fully connected most of our problems would simply seize to exist. We would know each other in ways that we could have never communicated through words. We would feel each other’s emotions and be connected in ways that no one else who wasn't a blooded vampire couple could begin to understand. I was ready to make that commitment. I was ready to expose my heart and soul to Laura. Her heart rate increased even more and I heard her take a long deep breath. I realized she was getting ready to say something, maybe even take back her offer to complete our bond. I was almost desperate to move forward. There was no way I was going to let this opportunity pass, so I quickly lifted my hand and placed a finger over her lips and said in a soft but almost demanding voice
"Don't retract your words. Micah told me about becoming your beloved. I know the process bares our souls to one another. It will expose every thought, feeling and intention. We would have nothing left that was hidden or shrouded in shadows. Laura, you need to know that nothing would please me more than to complete our blood bond."
Then I leaned forward and allowed my lips to glide lightly over Laura's. I shocked myself with my own actions. I'd had no intention of touching her. I was riddled with fears and inhibitions when it came to being intimate with Laura. I quickly pulled myself back and looked deeply into her eyes. Part of me was afraid of what I would see written in them. My biggest fear was that I had repulsed her with my kiss. What if Laura was thinking about what I' done to Rena. I shouldn’t have allowed my insecurities to drive me because what I saw in Laura's eyes was anything but disgust.
I saw passion, desire and maybe even lust. I took a deep breath and was overcome by the scent of Laura's desire. It teased my nose and made the rest of my body get rock hard. Every muscle tensed and I wanted to be with her. I was still scared though and knew that I had to have Laura tell me she wanted me the way I wanted her. I had to hear the words. I needed Laura to tell me exactly how she felt and exactly what she wanted me to do with her. Before I could stop myself the words burst from me
"Laura, you need to tell me what you want. You need to guide me with your words step by step. I simply can't touch you without you telling me exactly what it is you and your body desire from me."
Laura’s face seemed to register my words and went from passion to shock then back to passion. I watched as she blinked several times then finally said to me in a deep husky voice filled with need
"I want all of you Jeremy. I want you to touch me, kiss me, and finally make love to me. Right here, right now I want you to make my body yours. I want to know what it feels like to love and be loved. Please Jeremy I need you to take me and make me yours."
Laura's words were all the encouragement I needed. I moved forward and pulled her into my arms. This time I pulled her lips into mine. My hands roamed over her skin, squeezing, touching and caressing. My body was demanding. I was forceful as I explored Laura's mouth with my tongue. I had my hands resting on her lower back and was pulling her body close to mine.
I felt Laura's arms lift from her slides and slowly glide up to enclose me within them. I could feel her fingertips gently and softly caressing the expanse of my back. My body was reacting to her every motion. My blood was on fire and every place her fingers touched left behind a trail of pure pleasure.
My desire for her was building in ways that I'd have thought were impossible after the horrors I'd endured at the hands of elder Grier. My heart was damn near pounding out of my chest and I was having a hard time breathing. I knew the time for the blood exchange was now.
I allowed my hands to roam up Laura's back and eventually found my fingers tangled in her luxurious hair. I tugged lightly on her head and forced her lips from mine. I looked first at her exposed neck then into her eyes. Her eyes had a glassy dazed look that told me she was clearly emblazoned with passion and desire.
Laura exposed neck called to me and I dropped my head down to the juncture where her neck and shoulder blades met and sunk my large canines into her soft flesh. I felt Laura's hands move up to the back of my head as she lightly pressed me into her flesh. That was the final push that sent me over the edge and into oblivion.
I felt Laura's sweet nectar flow into my mouth and down my throat. Then I felt something inside of me that I hadn't even understood existed before this moment. It began to tingle and pulsate with life. My soul burst from my body and wrapped itself around Laura's. The emotion was more than I could register all at once. I felt our souls dancing together. They mixed and melded, touched and caressed each other. With the dance also came knowledge. Laura's life flooded my mind and heart. Everything Laura was and is. She lay bare before me; her past, her pain, her happiness and even her successes and her desires.
Our souls licked at each other like dancing flames in the dark. Each touch caused pure pleasure to radiate within me. I felt Laura's blood still filling my mouth and realized it was time to stop biting. I pulled back and licked lovingly at my mark. I heard her moan in pleasure and found my hands again roaming over her body. With our emotions so connected and both of us filled with lust and desire it took only seconds for us to rid ourselves of clothes.
I wanted to feel and explore every inch of Laura's body and with our new found connection I knew she wanted it too. She wanted me to dominate and take her body to new heights. Laura needed me to be in charge and bring her the pleasure that until now she'd only imagined was possible. I allowed my mouth to discover every single nuance of Laura's skin. I slowly made my way down to her sweet spot that was filled with cream and so ready for my touch. I took my time probing her place. I used my tongue to explore that soft pink spot. I reveled in her pleasure and moaned when she moaned. I felt her passion rise and knew the moment her pleasure crested and sent her shooting over the cliff.
My own needs were riding me hard and I knew it was time for our bodies to join and become one just as our souls and our animals had already done. I pulled Laura's legs wide and slowly slipped between them. I buried myself within her and felt the very last of my fears and inhibitions melt away. Being with Laura made me feel safe and secure. Somehow all the things that happened in the past made sense. I just knew they had to have happened in order to bring me to this moment in time and this perfect moment.
I had never known life could be this wonderful and amazing. I never knew my body could feel such perfect pleasure. I never knew that I could love a person or that they could love me this unconditionally. Laura and I would always be on the same page now. Everything seemed to come into focus and I knew from today on I would spend every moment of my life making Laura happy. Her happiness would be the gasoline that kept my engine running. I knew wherever Laura chose to be, I would call that place home. Earlier today I had wondered if she could adjust to my life and I knew now that it didn't matter. Laura and I would never be apart again. We would both adjust and find a way. Laura was now my home. She owned my body, my heart and my soul.