To: Jonas Zebila
From: Abi Zebila
Subject: Hello
Saturday, 22 August 2015
Dear J,
Thank you for saying you don’t hate me and that I did nothing wrong. I really wish it hadn’t taken me so long to see it. Now that you’ve started replying to my emails, I’m hoping that you’ll move on from a few words.
Clemency called me out of the blue earlier and I went to see her. Daddy asked me where I was going and I said that I was seeing Declan. I know, right? Suddenly him thinking I’m seeing the man responsible for me not finishing uni is better than seeing Clemency. I only lied because Declan hasn’t found us a new place yet.
She told me everything. She was open and honest, told me that Gran had asked her to help her die but Clemency didn’t do it even though she agreed to. I believe her. I think she was actually quite brave to agree to help Gran like that. It was like all the stuff I was telling you about what Gran actually wanted. What she wanted was for it to be over. I can’t think about that though. The thought of going into nothingness completely terrifies me and I have to think about something else. As Clemency said, though, if she didn’t do it, then who did?
That’s the most terrifying thought of all. Someone did this to Gran, or someone helped her. And we have no idea who.
Right, it’s late, I need to sleep.
Love,
Abi
xxxx