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Dear Kit,
I went out to a Halloween party last night! God it was so much fun! I haven’t been able to just let loose and relax in so long. You’ll never guess where it was...
After everything that happened, I guess Cheryl just couldn’t stand to be here anymore. Especially since every time she tried to apologize to me, I just started laughing. Sometimes I wonder if I finally have snapped, but it feels so good I can’t bring myself to care. Anyway, I think I really made her mad. She packed up all her shit and left again, probably to her parent’s house I’m sure. Hell, maybe she even went to Kevin’s. Either way, I’m happy for her.
Anyway, after she left I decided to take a trip for the weekend. I got a hotel room down in the city and decided to just wander around. It was Halloween weekend and everything was decorated. There were orange lights on the bridge at night and pumpkins all over the place. I even stopped at a coffee shop and got a latte with a little pumpkin poured into it! While I was out walking, just enjoying my newfound freedom, I saw some fliers posted up for a masquerade that was taking place at a local club. I’ve never even been to a club, but the guys on the flyer looked like they were having so much fun. I stopped for a moment, knowing full well what kind of place this club was, but I realized, I didn’t care. At that moment, I knew I had to go. It just sounded fun and, fuck it, I can do what I want right?
I raced out and bought a cheap costume to wear and made sure I got a great mask. When I got to the club I was surprised to see everyone barely wearing anything, but at the same time, I guess I didn’t really mind. As soon as I got inside I could smell the stench of the booze everywhere, but you know what Kit? For the first time in my life, I didn’t want any. Even when a guy came up to me later, offering to buy me a drink, I was able to turn the drink down easily. But I still danced with him anyway.
I’m not sure if I’m ready to say it out loud just yet. But maybe I will be someday soon.
Love,
Ryan