The woman crouching under the desk near my feet expelled an unladylike snort of derision.
I stilled. I didn’t dare urge her to keep quiet with a nudge of my boot for fear that Mr. Parmiter, the head librarian, would notice. At the sound of the snort, he’d turned back and scrutinized me yet again. He had a way of making me feel like a speck under a microscope. Moments ago, he’d pressed both palms on the desk, leaned in until his face was close to mine, and inspected me with all the rigor of a detective searching for evidence at a crime scene.
Indeed, Mr. Parmiter’s initial scrutiny had come about because he did suspect me of a crime. The crime of wearing makeup. According to the library charter, which I’d never seen, female staff were forbidden from adding so much as a smudge of color to their cheeks. Although I was sure the rule never existed since I was the first female employee, I didn’t question him. I simply informed him I was not wearing makeup. He’d sniffed, as if trying to smell a lie, then turned away.
Until Daisy had gone and snorted like a bull at a red rag.
Mr. Parmiter scrutinized me again, but this time he stood a foot back from the desk. “Are you unwell, Miss Ashe?”
“No,” I said. “I was just clearing my throat.”
Those beady eyes of his narrowed further. He moistened his lips with a lizard-like flicker of his tongue, dampening the overhanging gray moustache. I wouldn’t have been surprised if he reached across the desk to touch my forehead, checking for a fever, but the fear of getting too close held him back. I couldn’t blame him for that. The Spanish flu had recently wreaked devastation and we all worried it would return.
“You should go home if you feel unwell,” he said.
“I feel fine.”
He waved a hand at my face. “And remove that vile stuff. This is a respectable institution where gentlemen of learning come for quiet study. Attractive women are a distraction. If it were up to me, I wouldn’t have employed someone like you, but needs must.” This last sentence he muttered as he walked off.
Thankfully Daisy didn’t emit another snort. She was probably too shocked and angry to speak. I was just as angry but not shocked. In the two months since I’d taken the position of assistant librarian at the London Philosophical Society’s library, I’d been exposed to Mr. Parmiter’s misogynism on a regular basis. He blamed young women for just about every ill that had ever befallen him—or the world in general. I’m sure he could find a way to blame us for the war if he put his mind to it.
“It’s safe,” I whispered.
Daisy crawled out from the desk’s footwell and cast a disdainful look in the direction in which Mr. Parmiter had departed. She hadn’t seen him leave; it was the only exit from the reading nook. I was using the empty desk to inspect some old books for signs of disrepair. Tucked away on the first floor, between the stacks, it was the perfect place for quiet research—or hiding from one’s manager while chatting to a friend who shouldn’t be in the library at all. Daisy was not a member of the London Philosophical Society. She wasn’t at all philosophical, not even after drinking too many cocktails. A drunk Daisy was a giggling Daisy, not terribly unlike a sober Daisy.
But she wasn’t giggling now as she perched herself on the edge of the desk and regarded me with a frown. “What did he mean when he said he wouldn’t have employed ‘someone like you, but needs must?’”
I balanced the book on pragmatism on both my hands then closed it with a satisfying thunk of its thick pages and heavy leather cover. The smell of old paper wafted up, causing Daisy to cover her nose. I breathed the scent deeply into my lungs. “There were no other suitable applicants for the position of assistant librarian,” I told her. “He had to resort to hiring a female.” I rolled my eyes and gave a wry laugh.
“Really? Even with all the returned soldiers looking for work?”
“There were other applicants, but according to Mr. Parmiter, none were suitable. There were three others, in fact, all returned from the war. One was blind in one eye, another was missing a leg, and the third had shattered nerves that saw him jump at any loud noise. Mr. Parmiter claimed he couldn’t employ them because they are a distressing reminder of the war and will put off the Society’s members.”
“He truly said that?”
I nodded.
“After everything those poor souls have been through, and now they have to endure the sneers of people like Priggy Parmiter. And to imply you’re only attractive when you’re wearing makeup! The nerve of him.” The heat with which she said it was on par with her defense of the returned soldiers. To Daisy, the two wrongs were equally abhorrent. “You’re pretty, Sylvia, and don’t let a dusty old bore like him tell you otherwise.”
I thanked her for the compliment, but to be quite honest, I was no beauty. Not like Daisy, with her blue eyes and strawberry-blonde hair cut into a wavy bob that framed her face. The style was very modern, but in the few short months I’d known her, I’d come to realize Daisy followed trends like winter follows autumn—inevitably. She never settled for very long before moving on to the next thing that caught her eye. Her desire to try new things was understandable. I didn’t blame her for shrugging off the heavy blanket that had shrouded the nation after four years of war and another one and a half of the flu. Sometimes the bleakness had seemed as though it would never end. But despite their personal losses, some people were ready to move on. Daisy needed to move forward with her life.
I hadn’t quite reached that point yet.
“Speaking of dusty…” Daisy wrinkled her nose as she pushed away the book I’d been about to inspect for damage. One of the pages had come loose and the corners of several others had been turned over to act as a bookmark. The thin layer of dust on it bothered Daisy more.
It had been on the desk for some time, waiting for a librarian to tend to it. Years ago, someone had collected all the books in the library that looked as though they might need to be sent away for repairs and piled them up on this desk in the remotest reading nook in the building. Then war had broken out, the assistant librarian had died on the battlefields of France, and no one had been employed in his stead until I started work in March. Filling a dead man’s shoes wasn’t easy, particularly when Mr. Parmiter made it clear my gender meant my work was inferior to my predecessor’s, but I enjoyed it when he wasn’t bothering me.
It was quiet. Few members came into the library and when they did, they preferred to speak to Mr. Parmiter rather than me. The job didn’t pay particularly well, but I could walk to work, saving myself the cost of transport. I also got to chat to Daisy, when she wasn’t in her flat painting—which seemed to be most afternoons—and when she wasn’t hiding from Mr. Parmiter who came upstairs to check on me from time to time.
Daisy watched me as I gently opened the book she’d pushed away. “If you must work in a library, why not work in a modern one with novels?”
“With all the returning soldiers resuming their previous employment, there are few jobs for women. I was fortunate to get this one.”
She sighed. “It’s a pity you have to work at all, really.”
I looked up, frowning. She looked back at me with sympathy. “Don’t you have to?” I asked.
“Oh yes, but we artists don’t have a schedule like regular people. We work when the muse strikes. Besides, I was left a little money by my grandparents. It keeps me going.”
It was the first time she’d mentioned an inheritance. Daisy’s parents lived in Wiltshire and didn’t approve of their middle child moving to London. She had an older sister who’d lost her husband in the war and a younger brother who’d signed up upon turning eighteen in 1918. Thankfully he survived.
“I actually like working,” I said, and I meant it.
Whether Daisy believed me or not, I never found out. She became distracted by a newspaper discarded on a small table beside the armchair. She flounced into the chair and began to read.
I sat too and made notes on the damage to the books, sorting them into different piles according to the type of repairs required. For the many pages with dog-eared corners, I smoothed out the creases with my thumb. It was easy and relaxing work. Although the topics didn’t particularly interest me, it was satisfying to know these books would once again be read and valued by the society’s members thanks to my efforts today.
“He is the prime article,” Daisy murmured from the armchair. She folded the newspaper in half and turned it to show me what she’d been reading. I couldn’t make out much from this distance, however, just a dark-haired man standing on the deck of a yacht. “Handsome, rich, the heir to a title and a war hero. So many virtues in one man.”
“None of those are virtues, Daisy, except for perhaps being a war hero. He could be selfish and vain for all we know.”
“You’re so unromantic, Sylvia.”
I picked up the book on pragmatism and waved it at her. “Perhaps I’ve worked here too long.” I smiled but she took me seriously.
“I’m glad you finally agree.”
“I was referring to this title. I’ve only been here two months.”
“Long enough.” She glanced around, worried our conversation was being overheard. “If it weren’t for me, your days would drag.”
I laughed. Daisy’s unfailing self-confidence had won me over when we met. If I could bottle it, I would take a sip whenever I felt my own confidence waning.
She studied the newspaper article again. “I wonder if he’s married.”
“If not, he soon will be. A paragon like that won’t be single for long. The unmarried women of England won’t allow it.” One of the saddest outcomes of war was that it took young men. Now that we were emerging from the fog, women my age were bemoaning the lack of eligible bachelors.
I was not among them. I was still shrouded by the fog. I’d not only lost my brother in the war, but my mother had succumbed to the flu pandemic that had struck down so many in the war’s aftermath. They’d been my only family. I’d also left behind friends when I moved to London. Not that I had many friends to lose. We’d moved too often to put down deep roots anywhere.
But I was determined to make a go of it in London. In the two and a half months since my arrival, I’d made a friend in Daisy and found gainful employment. It was a foundation I could build on to help me climb out of the fog, in time.
“What has the paragon done to warrant an article written about him?” I asked.
“He attempted to rescue a fisherman and his teenage son while out sailing off the coast of the Isle of Wight. Apparently he saw their boat capsize and didn’t hesitate to dive in and risk his life to save them. They were tangled up in their net under water and he had to cut it to free them. The son survived but the father didn’t.”
“How awful.”
“The article says it was a miracle Mr. Glass didn’t drown too. It then goes on to list all the medals he won in the war. Good lord.”
I peered over her shoulder. “What is it?”
“He joined up at the start of the war and survived the entire four years on the front lines. He was there for every major battle, and he didn’t once get seriously injured.”
“Then he couldn’t have been in every major battle for the entire duration. Besides, the heir to a title would be given something safe to do well away from the enemy.”
“Not according to this. Gallipoli, the Somme, Ypres, Amiens…he fought in them all. His parents must have been beside themselves with worry. It says here he is the only child of Lord and Lady Rycroft.”
I read over her shoulder. “’Mr. Gabriel Glass, Baron and Baroness of Rycroft. Lady Rycroft is the famed magician, India Glass, nee Steele.’”
“Where can a girl meet such a man?”
“The Isle of Wight, apparently.” I returned to the desk but instead of picking up a book, I stared out of the window. The view wasn’t interesting, just the dark gray buildings opposite and a thin layer of cloudy sky above the roofline. I hardly registered any of it. My mind was elsewhere. “Daisy, does the name India Glass mean anything to you?”
She shook her head. “No, but I’m not a magician, nor can I afford to buy magical objects. I’m trying to make the inheritance last, and I’m yet to sell a painting.”
“Does the article say anything else about her?”
“Just that she gave up practicing watchmaking magic to marry Lord Rycroft and has been an advisor to the government on magician policies for years. Why? Have you heard of her?”
“The name rings a bell.” I just couldn’t remember why. The memory was there in my mind, just out of reach, buried in the fog.
I lay on my back on the narrow bed in the room I rented at the lodging house and stared at the water stain on the ceiling. I felt tired but pushed against it, wading through the fog as I searched for the name.
India Glass.
Where had I seen it? I knew I’d seen it, not heard it. That meant it had appeared in a letter or an article, but I rarely read the newspaper, so it must be private correspondence. There was only one person who ever wrote to me. One person whose letters I’d kept.
I pushed the chair up against the wardrobe and stood on it, rising onto my toes to reach, cursing my short stature. Fortunately, the suitcase was light. I managed to grasp it without pulling the entire thing down on my head. It was a child’s suitcase made of tan leather, small enough for a young girl to drag around the country. And drag it I had. Frequent moves accounted for the scratches and patchwork of dents. I opened it on the bed and stared at the remaining contents of my mother’s and brother’s lives.
I’d kept her favorite shawl, made of emerald green silk with Japanese motifs embroidered throughout, as well as a plain silver ring, two enamel hair combs and some old photographs of James and me as children. James’s belongings were just as meager. I’d not seen any point bringing his old clothes with me so I’d sold them before leaving for London. I’d needed the money. I set aside his pocket watch, war medal, and notebook. I plucked out the two packets of letters, both tied with string. One packet was thick and contained dozens of letters written by my mother and me to James. He’d kept them all, and they’d been returned to us after his death. The other packet contained letters he’d sent to us. I untied the string around them and lightly caressed the topmost envelope.
The sight of his neat, precise handwriting brought a fierce ache to my chest.
I read each letter but didn’t find any reference to India Glass. Perhaps I’d misremembered or I’d seen the name elsewhere.
I retied the string and, with a heavy sigh, placed the letters back into the suitcase, wedged between the notebook and the back.
I removed the notebook and flipped it open. It had been with James a long time. The leather cover was scratched and faded from its original forest green to the color of a muddy puddle. The pages were crinkled from being damp and drying out, making the whole book fatter than it would have been when new. My brother’s dirty fingerprints appeared on almost every page, and the once white paper was now brown from the mud of the Western Front. I’d read the notebook cover to cover after it was returned to us before storing it in the suitcase with his other belongings. With Mother becoming ill and dying, then contracting the flu myself, I’d forgotten about it and not looked at it since. Reading James’s words had been painful then, so soon after losing him. It was still painful now, but the initial sharp ache dulled to a throb as I became lost in my search for the name.
India Glass.
I scanned the pages, not wanting to read every word. That would only make the ache in my chest swell again. The pages were filled with James’s thoughts, some forming complete sentences, others merely fragments of ideas in the form of single words or a sketch. He’d been a good artist.
I found the name near the end. It was on a line of its own and didn’t form part of a sentence. It was just those two words, India Glass, which I’d thought meant glass from India when I first read it, perhaps referring to a vase or trinket. I’d not wondered why my brother would be making notes on glassware from a country he’d never been to, but back then, I’d been too grief stricken to think clearly about anything.
Knowing the words were in fact a name gave the notes above and below it new meaning. When I’d first read them, I’d been shocked to learn my brother thought he was a silversmith magician, simply because he liked silver things. Who didn’t like silver things? I was partial to jewelry set in silver, but I preferred gold. I owned neither, unless I counted the silver band of my mother’s. Magic couldn’t possibly run in our blood. We were unremarkable. Mother had been a seamstress, James a teacher, and I’d written articles for several local newspapers and journals before that work dried up when the soldiers returned in large numbers. Female journalists were once again relegated to the sections on cookery, housekeeping and fashion, none being topics in which I could claim any expertise or flair. The Ashes weren’t craftspeople. We were just a family with dissimilar interests.
I fought back tears as I removed Mother’s ring from the suitcase and slipped it on my finger. It fit my middle one. It was simple, plain and thin, not a special item at all. I felt nothing as I touched it. Wasn’t I supposed to feel something if it had silver magic in it? Or did only other magicians feel magic?
I didn’t know how it worked. I couldn’t afford magician-made things, so I’d never bothered to learn about magic.
I returned to the notebook. According to James’s notes, he’d asked Mother about silver magic, and she’d told him he was mistaken and to not bring it up again.
Below the name India Glass he’d written the word “Answers” followed by a question mark. Answers to what? To the question of whether the Ashe family could perform silver magic?
I closed the book and returned it and the suitcase to the space above the wardrobe. I fell asleep and thought no more about India Glass, silver magic, or my brother until the following morning when I returned to the reading nook on the first floor of the library and spotted the newspaper Daisy had been reading.
“War hero saves boy in miraculous underwater rescue” the attention-grabbing headline read.
The image of the brave rescuer stared back at the camera. Gabriel Glass looked a little annoyed by the attention, as if he wanted to shout at the journalists to leave him alone. As a former journalist, I’d been told to go away many times. I’d lacked the confidence to insist where my colleagues had persisted. It was probably why I was one of the first women to lose their jobs when the journalists-turned-soldiers returned from the war.
I placed the newspaper in the desk drawer and worked until Daisy snuck into the library. When she flopped into the armchair with a dramatic sigh of boredom, I handed it to her.
She frowned. “Are you trying to tell me something?”
“I want to meet his mother, India Glass—Lady Rycroft.”
She sat up straight. “If you think the way to a man is through his mother, you know even less about men than I thought you did.”
I bristled. “I know as much about men as you, Daisy.”
She battled with a smile. “Dear, sweet Sylvia, have you exchanged more than a ‘good afternoon’ with a single man since arriving in London?” I opened my mouth to answer her, but she put up a finger to stop me. “Priggy Parmiter doesn’t count.”
I snatched the newspaper from her. “I’m not interested in meeting Gabriel Glass. I’m interested in his mother.”
“Lady Rycroft? Why?”
Footsteps on the staircase cut off my answer. “Blast. Hide, Daisy, quickly.”
She dove into the cavity under the desk, tucking her legs into her body. I stood behind the desk, blocking the view to the cavity as best as I could in case Mr. Parmiter decided to come around to my side.
I smiled and pretended to listen as the head librarian complained about a particular member who hadn’t returned a book that was now well overdue. I was actually thinking about my brother’s claim that he might be a silver magician and our mother’s denial. Although I agreed with my mother, I felt as though I owed it to James’s memory to find out, once and for all. If he believed India Glass could provide answers then I would do everything I could to speak with her.
But first I had to find her.