A GREEN BOOK FOR MY NIECE

For Kylie’a

You who was born with raw knuckles and open eyes

who sleeps arms crossed and angry because you already know.

There will be a day when you slip into your father’s anger

like child feet into grown-man boots

you will stomp and scream and rage

and this rage will look foolish

except to us who also have black fathers.

There will be days you struggle with

knowing where you belong

for feeling like you belong everywhere

and nowhere at all.

There will be years when you feel bruised like worlds collided.

So, when they ask (and they always ask) what you are

tell them you are made up of whole worlds collided

supernova beautiful in its violent right to exist

violent like the night your white mother wrapped her privilege around

her knuckles

and reached thru the driver’s side window of a woman who dared to

rename you something hateful and pulled back

without a single scratch and with a handful

of blonde hair writing an apology.

Remember this when you feel far from her

(and you will feel far from her).

Let no one tell you that you must choose a side

that you are more of one or too much of another.

Enough is a foul word.

You will learn to recognize hate thru its sugartooth smile

recognize whose heart is a sundown town.

You will learn to skin backhanded compliments down

to their racist bones and leave them for dead.

Be sure to tell them

that you are beautiful without conditions

that you are valid

that you are no one’s token

no one’s tragedy.

Tell them this in whatever tongue is most yours.

Code switching is an awful party

trick I hope you never have to learn.

Remember that the opposite of passing is not failing.

The opposite of passing is overcoming.

The opposite of passing is permanence.

You aren’t going anywhere.

We aren’t going anywhere.

We fight too hard to exist.

Go ahead and show them the ways you collide

like you were born from it.