That Sad-Eyed Boy you share this sign with
is a Midwest Speed Trap.
Apparently he does not know what he wants but it isn’t you.
Apparently, you’re amazing and all but it isn’t you.
Today, you find your bursting heart again
in the house of too much.
Today it is okay to be angry and to want
these last three months back
to want a return on all that hope you spent so easily on this
too easily on this
Today, your teeth are full of jade and questions
with no point in asking.
Today, you hate him for what you were willing
to give up/trade/compromise
and for what he will not. It is okay to call out this cowardice.
In fact, go ahead and say things you cannot take back.
Fuck the consequences.
This was a mistake. You should not have come here.
This is a mistake. You should go away now.
Lucky Numbers: the miles between you, the 5 years between
breakups, and that one awkward time he thought you said
I Love You.