RACHEL

All morning on the Smart Board

Ms Arthur showed us paintings

of wheatfields

and churches

and cafés

and starry swirling nights

and bowls of fruit

and lots of paintings of the artist

because

Ms said

he was so poor he couldn’t afford models

and fruit was cheap

and wheatfields were free

and Ms said

you pronounced his name, Van Gogh,

like Fen Hoch

not Van Goff or Van Go

and she told us he cut off his ear

and went to a place

where people with mental illness go

and Mick said,

‘You mean the pub?’

and everyone laughed

even though

cutting off your ear didn’t sound very funny

and we voted twenty-eight to nil

in favour of his paintings

and Ms said she’d seen the real paintings

in art galleries

and they were

‘explosions of colour’

and

‘the work of a genius’

and I thought maybe

he cut off his ear

because those explosions

had come out of his tortured mind

and landed on a canvas

and maybe

if he was really poor

and the people in the hospital

wouldn’t let him paint

wouldn’t let him do what he had to do

it made him mad enough

and angry enough

to hurt someone

and he couldn’t hurt someone else

so he hurt himself.

I stared at his paintings for ages

and wondered what it would be like

to have all that going on inside your head.