A flicker of anxiety took over my thoughts as I pulled into a Visitor parking space alongside Richmond Towers. My eyes swept the park between the Towers and Lake Shore Drive. Was one of those thugs still lurking around? How would I feel if I were Philip, still living here after being attacked so viciously in the pedestrian tunnel, the one I could see from my parking space?
I’d be terrified.
So why did he come back here last night?
Well, duh, Gabby. You weren’t about to let him stay at your apartment after this weekend. What else could he do?
Taking a deep breath, I grabbed Philip’s bag, locked my car, and hustled into the building through the revolving doors. “Hola, Señor Gomez!” I called out, using the little Spanish I knew, to the square-built man who used to be the night doorman when I lived here at Richmond Towers “How is the wife and family?”
“Buenos tardes, Señora Fairbanks. Muy bueno, gracias. Oh, do you want me to let you in?” the man said, seeing me head for the security door into the elevator bank.
I shook my head and waved my security key card. “I still have my key—just don’t tell Mr. Martin.” I laughed and gave a head jerk in the direction of the building manager’s office. “But would you call up to the penthouse and let Mr. Fairbanks know I’m coming?”
Mr. Gomez chuckled as I disappeared into the elevator foyer. Rising steadily upward to the thirty-second floor—a height I tried not to think about—I realized I missed seeing Mr. Bentley there in the lobby as Top Dog Doorman in his blue uniform and cap. The towering glass building with its luxury penthouse had always made me nervous from day one when we’d moved in early last spring— but Harry Bentley, my “first best friend” in Chicago, had been down to earth, a comforting presence who seemed to bring sanity into my discombobulated existence during the months I’d lived here.
And Mr. B had stood by me even when my husband kicked me out, though at the time I had no idea the doorman was a retired cop involved in all sorts of dangerous intrigues within the Chicago Police Department. Or that he was raising a grandson he’d only recently discovered existed. Or that my fellow staffer at Manna House would fall in love with the man.
I smiled to myself as the elevator door dinged open on 32. “Thank You, God, for Harry Bentley,” I murmured, “for bringing that beautiful man into my life—” My smile faded and I added, “And please don’t let Estelle throw that man away! He’s the best thing that ever happened to her!”
Philip opened the door before I even had time to ring the doorbell. “Gabby—Gomez rang me, said you were on the way up.” He seemed distracted, even upset, hardly noticed when I handed him his leather overnight bag. “Do you have a minute? I need to talk to you.”
I’d intended to stay awhile because I wanted to hear from him how the weekend had gone—but something told me whatever Philip needed to talk to me about wasn’t P.J.’s cross country meet or his visit to SouledOut Community Church. Was I going to regret this?
Still, I followed him as he led the way through the gallery into the living room. Even though Philip’s hair was growing back, I still wasn’t used to how short it was. And the jagged scar still visible in his scalp and the cast on his broken arm had certainly taken the edge off his polished look. At least the facial bruises had faded and he didn’t look so scary.
But it wasn’t only the change in his appearance. Other things, too, left me not quite knowing how to react. Ever since the accident, he’d started calling me Gabby again instead of Gabrielle, the familiar over the formal, the endearing rather than the distant. And then there was the elegant dining room set that fit so beautifully in the penthouse. He’d given it up. For me.
It all made me feel a bit off balance, a feeling that stayed with me as I settled on one end of the L-shaped couch and glanced at the wraparound glass windows overlooking Lake Michigan. The view was still breathtaking, provided I didn’t get too close and look down. Philip didn’t sit, but paced, running a hand over the dark stubble on his head.
“Philip? What’s wrong?”
“This.” He picked up a business envelope from an end table and handed it to me. Then he sank onto the other section of the couch, head in his hands.
I looked at the return address: Macromber, Fitz, and Morgan. Sounded like a legal firm. I pulled out a single sheet of paper, unfolded it, and scanned the letter. My eyes widened. “Matty Fagan is suing you for breach of contract? But I just heard today— a few hours ago, in fact—that Fagan’s been found guilty of all the charges that Internal Affairs brought against him. I mean, Mr. B told me the man was charged with fraud, intimidation, assault, illegal distribution of weapons and controlled substances—and that’s before he got caught threatening you with a pistol in that alley! He was a rogue cop, Philip! And now he’s on his way to prison. How can he sue you?”
Philip threw out his hands. “I don’t know. I guess because I signed a loan and took his money and haven’t repaid it. This was mailed”—he looked at the postmark—“last Friday.”
“Humph. That money was probably drug money he lifted off some drug dealers anyway.”
“Oh, great. Thanks a lot. Now I’m implicated in how he got the money?”
“You couldn’t have known that! You thought he was legit—right?”
Philip slumped back against the cushions. “I just wanted the money quickly, didn’t want to know where it came from.” He shook his head slowly. “I’ve been a fool, Gabby. Unfortunately, that’s not all.” Philip picked up another envelope and handed it to me. “This came last week. Fenchel’s making good on his threat too. You heard him—the time you took me to the office right after I got out of the hospital. He’s suing me too.”
I didn’t even look at the letter. “Oh, Philip. I’m so sorry.” I didn’t know what else to say. We sat in silence for several minutes on opposite sides of the L-shaped couch.
Then Philip sighed. “My back’s against the wall, Gabby. It’s my fault, I know. The gambling—I never meant for it to get out of control. It was fun. I was good at cards. It was no big deal—you know, you lose some, you win some. You come out about even. But I kept raising the stakes, just for the thrill of it, and then I lost a big one. At first I didn’t worry, I’d just keep playing and win big. But I didn’t. Still couldn’t quit, just got more desperate. Kept digging myself deeper into a hole. Maxed out my own bank accounts, decided to borrow from the business.” He shook his head. “Didn’t think I was really doing anything wrong. After all, half the business belongs to me, right? And besides, once I won, I’d pay everything back. No big deal . . .”
He sank into another silence. I didn’t say anything. Didn’t know what to say, though Philip hadn’t been this honest with me since I didn’t know how long. Months. Maybe years. I didn’t want to break the spell.
He made a funny sound in his throat, almost a bitter laugh. “Huh. Actually felt some hope yesterday after talking with Harry Bentley. Have to admit, I misjudged the man. Hard to think of him as anything but the doorman downstairs. But as you know, the guy saved my butt a few weeks ago—at least saved me from getting my knees shot out. Still . . .” He fell into that silence again, as if he wasn’t quite aware that he’d quit talking, as if his thoughts had taken over the conversation.
“You said you felt some hope yesterday?” I prodded.
“Right. Bentley gave me a ride home from the Baxters. We’d been there all afternoon, the boys wanted to . . . anyway, he came all the way up to the penthouse with me. I think he was taking that threat from Fagan’s people seriously—I noticed he was wearing his service revolver under his coat. When we got up here, he said he wanted to talk to me about something, so I said okay. But he kind of surprised me, started talking about himself, how things got real tough in the police force and he started drinking. The drinking got so bad, he lost his wife, lost his kid, almost got tossed from the force. Finally admitted to himself he was an alcoholic—an addict, you know. What saved his hide—those are his words”—Philip let slip a small smile—“was going to AA, admitting he had a problem, and having someone hold him accountable.”
Harry, an alcoholic? I’d never seen him drink anything stronger than a soda. But if that’s why he lost his family, that would explain why he didn’t even know he had a grandson till recently.
“Said he almost fell off the wagon not long ago—guess he’s had some serious problems with his eyes and he was scared.”
Harry was telling Philip this? Of course I knew about his eye problems, but Estelle never said anything about Harry drinking.
“I guess he still goes to AA meetings from time to time, but he said he ended up telling ‘the brothers’ in his men’s group—his words again—when he was tempted to turn back to the bottle. I think Denny Baxter is one of the guys in this Bible study, or whatever it is. He said they prayed with him about it and held him accountable, just like his AA sponsor.”
Philip took a deep breath and blew it out. “Anyway, he said he was telling me all this to say he knows an addict when he sees one. He got pretty blunt, told me as far as he’s concerned, I’m a gambling addict and I need to go to Gamblers Anonymous. And he’d be my sponsor if I wanted one.”
Now my mouth fell open. I could hardly believe what I was hearing! With everything Harry Bentley knew about my jerk husband, about how he’d treated me, about his annoying arrogance and selfish ambition . . . Harry had offered to be Philip’s sponsor if he’d go to Gamblers Anonymous?
Philip looked at me sideways, obviously embarrassed. “I don’t think your Mr. Bentley said that because he’s fond of me—though he’s been decent enough whenever we’ve been in the same room. He even played Monopoly with me and the boys yesterday. Vicious player, though. Still, I think he talked to me and made that offer because he cares about you. And the boys.”
I had to blink quickly to keep the tears back. Finally found my voice. “You said you felt hopeful after talking to Harry?”
My husband nodded. “Yeah. Guess . . . guess it sounded like a place to start, going to GA or whatever they call it. And when Bentley said he was willing to put himself on the line by being my sponsor, someone I could talk to, well, crazy as it sounds, I felt hopeful for the first time since this whole mess started to unravel.” He shook his head. “But . . .”
Silence swallowed his words again.
“But, what?”
He didn’t answer.
“Philip?”
Philip finally looked at me, his eyes tortured. He pointed to the two envelopes laying on the couch cushions between us. “That was yesterday—before I got those. I don’t know what I’m going to do, Gabby. They’ll ruin me.”