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IS THERE A GOD?

Yes.

I say a prayer to my old man, my grandfather and my ancestors every night. And I ask the big man upstairs to look after my woman, my children and grandchildren, and to make sure they have long, healthy and happy lives.

When God considers it’s my time I’ll come, no problems.

I went to church seven days a week from the age of four. My Dad’s dad, Joey Campbell, used to drag me along to the six o’clock mass every day and he’d do the 10 o’clock on Sunday as well. When I was almost eight I became an altar boy and I did that till I was about ten.

Believing in God helps you through life. If you don’t fear death, you fear nothing. Donna worries that once you die there’s nothing more there. With me, I’m the opposite. I didn’t know my brothers had been killed on Fathers’ Day 1984, but when I flatlined and they put me out in the hallway I saw my father and my grandfather and some of my grandfather’s brothers, and I saw Chop and Shadow with them. So I firmly believe that once you go, they’re all there waiting.

My grandfather looked like photos I’d seen of him as a young bloke. I believe that when you go, you don’t go up as a 70-year-old, you go as what you were in your prime.

But I also believe that when men who have lived violent lives die, the only way to get into heaven is to fight a battle angel. And when men like me (and there are only a few, like Achilles, Genghis Khan, Attila the Hun, and Angus the Red Campbell) die, we have to fight the king of the battle angels to get into heaven.