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A sickening silence reigns in the house of death. George and Rachel are sitting at the kitchen table, numbly picking at their breakfast. They look blank, lost, more like puppets than people. All these months later, they’re still not even close to getting over what happened.
I’m standing in a corner, wearing my school uniform. If my foster parents notice me, they say nothing. We find it hard to say anything to one another these days. I can’t remember the last time one of them spoke to me directly.
I glance at the clock. It’s time to leave. I think about saying goodbye, but I can’t bring myself to break the crushing silence, so I slip out, taking my blazer from where it hangs near the front door. There’s a photo of Dave on the wall, in his uniform, smiling.
I’ve opened the door, but I’m still staring at the photo, remembering the day that everything ended and the nightmare began. Dave’s trapped in photos, video clips and memories now. He’ll never grow older or rock this house with his laughter again. Lost to the silence forever.
I step out and close the door oh-so softly behind me.
It’s a grey, heavy day in London, lifeless clouds hanging in the sky as if stuck there with glue, and I know even before I hit the pavement that I won’t be going to school. There’s a tight knot in my stomach, and the thought of sitting in class makes me want to throw up. It won’t be the first day I’ve skipped since the accident. Nobody has said anything about the absences. Sometimes I feel like nobody in the entire world will ever say anything to me again.
I gaze at people in coffee shops as I trudge past, wondering if any of them has lost someone the way we lost Dave, if this city of millions feels as cold and alien to them as it does to me.
I wind up on a bridge over the Thames. There’s a railway line up the centre, a footbridge on either side of it. I walk across one of the footbridges, studying the river, thinking about Dave, the accident, how easy it would have been to save him if I’d seen the danger in advance.
“There’s a dangerous drop on the other side of that wall, Dave. Hop back onto the path.”
That’s all it would have taken. He’d have rolled his eyes and asked me if I thought I was his minder. Then we’d have laughed and carried on, and the day would have been like any other, and he’d still be here.
Leaving the bridge, I drift along the riverbank. For a while I blamed the Thames for stealing Dave from us, but I came to see how silly that was. It was an accident. Not Dave’s fault. Not mine. Certainly not a river’s.
I return to the footbridge, walk about three-quarters of the way along, then stop and study the view, which takes in the London Eye and the Houses of Parliament, glass skyscrapers in the distance.
I should be cheerful, with no school and that view, but I can’t stop thinking about Dave. I feel lost and alone, with nothing to do and all the time in the world on my hands.
Hoping to distract myself, I focus on the people crossing the bridge. Many are tourists, pausing to take selfies, smiling and laughing, flashing the peace sign or pretending to prop up the London Eye. A few joggers pant past. Men and women in business suits march by, talking loudly on their phones. Foreign students on school trips. A few pensioners.
And then I spot the girl.
She’s my sort of age, darker skinned than me, maybe Italian or Spanish. She has black hair cut short, and wide brown eyes, dressed in plain cream trousers and a red, long-sleeved top. Her boots are navy, scuffed and stained with dry mud.
She comes running along the bridge in a panic, stops near where I’m standing and starts grimacing bizarrely. Her nose twitches, her lips gurn, her eyebrows shoot up and down, her tongue flickers out and around.
At first I think she’s pulling faces at me and I open my mouth to snap at her, but then she throws a worried – no, terrified – glance backwards, and I realise she hasn’t even noticed me.
Two men are striding towards us. They’re dressed in white suits, white shoes and white ties. One is black, the other pale like me. Both are bald, except for a curved, thin strip of white hair that arcs across their foreheads, the tips of the crescents pointing towards the backs of their heads.
The pale man is holding a long, narrow knife, the sort they called a stiletto in the old days. The darker man is carrying an axe, swinging it through the air in short, menacing strokes.
It’s clear that the men are chasing the girl and will kill her if they catch her.
The girl gulps, then pulls more faces. She’s staring at the paving slabs. I want to cry out and warn her of the danger, but she’s obviously aware of the threat. I can’t understand why she isn’t fleeing, why she’s drawn to a halt and is wasting precious time pulling those ridiculous faces.
I think about intervening – I could tug the girl away from the onrushing men and help her escape – but I’m rigid with fear, breathing shallowly, eyes wide, shocked by what’s happening.
When the men are several metres away, a couple of slabs in the bridge shimmer and a hole yawns open. I think it’s a trick of the light, so I do a double take, but it’s definitely a hole, a gap where a moment before there had been solid stone.
With a victorious yelp, the girl throws herself into the hole. The men’s faces twist with rage and they pick up speed, but the girl yells something, and in an instant the slabs are back in place.
The hole is gone.
The bridge is solid again.
The girl has disappeared.
The armed, angry, white-suited men stand there, scowling at the spot where she vanished. I look to see how the other people on the bridge are reacting to this, but to my astonishment they angle round the men, paying them no interest, not even sneaking a quick look at their weapons.
Then, as I gawp at the slabs and the men, the pale guy with the stiletto raises his head and looks straight at me.
“I think the boy can see us,” he says.
The man with the axe looks around uncertainly. “What boy?”
“That one,” knife-man says, pointing at me with the blade.
Axe-man stares at me. “Are you sure? He’s wearing Born clothes.”
“They could be a disguise,” knife-man says.
A lump of terror forms in my throat. The men are studying me as if I’m an insect, and there’s no doubt in my mind that they can stamp me out as swiftly as a bug if they choose.
But even while fireworks of fear explode inside my head and I stand on the verge of a meltdown, I’m noting details of what’s going on around me. It’s like part of my brain has detached itself and is working hard to save me.
“The other people don’t see them,” a voice whispers inside me. “They don’t know that the two men are here. They didn’t see the girl or the hole either.”
I don’t know how that can be true, but I instinctively know that it is.
Prompted by the voice, I cast my gaze around, as if I’m still people-watching, and clock the movements of pedestrians as they approach the two men. Without seeing the pair in the white suits, they sense something in their way and move to bypass the obstruction.
“He does look a bit shifty,” axe-man says and his face hardens. “Will I chop off his head, just to be safe?”
I act as if I haven’t heard, and hope the blood isn’t draining from my cheeks. I’ve managed to hold myself together but my knees are threatening to spasm. I need to convince the men that I’m unaware of their presence.
Remembering something that I’d seen earlier, I cock my head and focus. “What on Earth...?” I murmur, and step towards the men in the suits.
They squint at me as I approach. I try to behave like the other people, and angle my body in order to slip between them. I feel (or imagine) a cold wind skittering across the back of my neck as I pass.
I stop at the rails and stare across the gap that separates the footbridge from the railway line. A small tree is growing out of one of the supports, in a circle of unbroken concrete. Dirt must have built up in a crack, and a seed must have got lodged and taken root, but I pretend to be flabbergasted.
“How did that get there?” I mutter, like a botanist who has found an Amazonian tree in the middle of the Sahara. I’m laying things on thick but the men buy it.
“You were wrong,” axe-man says. “He was just looking at that tree.”
“So it seems,” knife-man sighs. “A pity. I was looking forward to killing the girl. He would have been compensation.”
“We could kill him anyway,” axe-man says helpfully.
My insides turn to ice, and I’m glad the men can no longer see my face, as I’m sure my stricken expression would betray me.
I sense the man with the knife deciding whether or not to attack. I want to run, but they’ll catch and slaughter me if I do.
“No,” he finally sniffs. “We’d break cover if we killed a Born. People would see us.”
“It wouldn’t be the first time,” the other man laughs.
“I know, but it would be foolish to draw attention to ourselves when there’s no need. Besides, we’d be wasting time. The camel has given us the slip but she can’t be far ahead of us. We should start scouting for her trail.”
“You are right as always, Orlan,” axe-man says. Then I feel him lean in close to me, and the warmth of his breath on the back of my right ear as he whispers, “You don’t know how lucky you are, little boy.”
With that, the pair set off. I take a step back from the rails, as if still studying the tree and wondering how it sprouted in the middle of a concrete pillar. I chance a glance left. The men haven’t looked back. Moments later they reach the stairs and start down. As soon as their heads are no longer in sight, I slump against the rails and cling on for dear life as my legs turn to jelly and tears roll down my cheeks in unchecked waves of terror and relief.