Chapter 1

Why do I find it safer to entertain romantic thoughts of someone I’ve just killed or one I’m about to? No commitments? No worries he’ll turn out to be a bastard when I get to know him better? Probably. Or maybe I don’t want to explain who I am and what I do. Luckily, I’ve never had that conversation. I’m a dark angel, I kill demons in my sleep. And you? What do you do for fun? Never imagined it to go over well under any circumstance. Guess that’s why I’ve never tried.

Most people fear death. Many, because they question where they’ll go when the cold hand of eternity grips their mortal throats; others, because their final destination is absolute. For me, death is a cool glass of water in the choking heat of an Arizona summer, infused with ice and a tall, inviting straw. Death has always beckoned me to “drink up” from the moment I began killing.

Hushed voices force my heavy eyes open. I’m in a state of confusion while blinking away the haze. How can this be? I’ve never been so disoriented before.

The room is dim with strategic lighting illuminating crystal vases and glass sculptures. Clear shelves display opulent art pieces; a child with a bucket digging in the sand, a translucent nude woman overcome from behind by a wave of seawater, two elderly men playing checkers. Each is uniquely crafted with accuracy and splendor. I’ve never seen such intricate glasswork before. My head throbs and vision blurs as I scan my surroundings.

Is this a dream, or am I awake? A room filled with potentially dangerous objects is not the best place for anyone if I’m not certain, especially when someone I’ve never met is advancing on me. Should I fight or hold back?

I step backward to get a better view of the room and feel my arm tilt an unseen glass figure. With the smooth, swift reflex of a ninja (yeah, that’s right, nin-ja), I spin and reach for the vase about to shatter upon impact. Before it can fall into my grasp, however, he captures it with barely a flinch. My eyes turn up to his and I catch my breath.

His hair is dark with loose, thick waves nearly covering his eyes. He smiles in my direction. Shit. He’s gorgeous. How can I kill someone that insanely handsome?

Hopefully, the flutter of my heart is only noticeable to me as his hand takes mine and his lips brush my cheek, and caress my ear. He whispers, “I’m glad you came,” as if he knows me. Who the hell is he?

A hint of Ireland rolls on the back of his tongue and I close my eyes momentarily, taking a deep breath. The scent on his throat is musky like the moors outside of Dublin after a rain. No, I’ve never been there, but somehow I know the fragrance. The alluring aroma captures my attention, seducing my soul. Where am I? More importantly, am I awake?

While rising to full height, I run through the events of the day—did I eat breakfast, go to work, drive here—I can’t recall the entire time. I remember eating breakfast and being at work. There’s the moment toward the end of the day when Sarah entered my office and surprised me with a cup of coffee. All of this is fresh in my mind. What I don’t remember is how I arrived at this joint. I can’t even remember opening the front door. This is an important detail.

If awake, I won’t forget the guy standing in front of me. I’d return just to see his penetrating eyes again. If dreaming, though...

The heavy beating of my heart continues as I scan the room, taking in each piece of hand-blown glass and polished crystal vases, colored figurines, and soft lighting. Sarah is standing near a brilliant dish shaped like a half piece of wrapped butterscotch, but her eyes are on me. What is she doing here? There’s a sly grin on her face as she watches my reaction to him. What does she know that I don’t?

My gaze meets his. I’ll finally see his eyes, deep green, still framed by those dark tresses. His smile takes my breath away and it is in this moment I see it: the front door has no handle. I close my eyes and grit my teeth at the realization.

Damn! Dream.

Every muscle in my body tightens and my heart races with anticipation. Before the sun breaks the horizon, one of us will be dead. My best calculation guarantees it’ll be him.

***

I take a deep breath, then another, as if I’m in the middle of a vigorous workout. Why is my heart pounding? What went wrong? Where am I?

There are no sharp objects, no vases or glass figurines, only torn covers as I lay face down in my own bed. The pillowcase is stained. Crap! He split my lip.

Why the face? I always hate it when they go for the face. Defensive wounds and bruises on forearms are easier to explain. I was sparring with my new partner last night. Yes, as a matter of fact he is a master, and much better than me, obviously. They always believe that one, shake their heads and walk away; the lie that usually works until I get hit in the face. This time: I’m training for a championship match. My opponent got a bit ambitious. Hopefully, it’ll stave off concerned glances.

If I were married, they’d have my spouse locked up for domestic abuse. If I told anyone the truth—that I hunt in my dreams—they’d lock me up. If they only knew the monsters that roam the night, waiting in shadows for their prey. If they understood the demons populating their subconscious, they’d be too afraid to close their eyes.

That hot guy in the corner office, sweet grandmother across the street, they all have something dark lurking beneath the surface. Most times it’s a benign grudge they’ve carried since junior high. Sometimes it’s a hidden defect they can’t control once they start dreaming. When their minds slip into REM, their inner demons roam. Whatever they kill in the night remains dead in daylight, the cause of death precise to how they died in their dream.

Every muscle in my body aches as I push up from the mattress. The monsters seem to be getting stronger with each new night. I kid myself that splashing water in my face will wash away the filth from the night before. Every morning I try to cleanse hatred from my soul while preparing for my day. Used to work. Not anymore.

The mirror doesn’t show my dread over what I’ve seen and what I’ve done. I’d buried my emotions many years before. Only determination shows at this stage. I sometimes wonder if others can recognize my growing self-loathing as easily as I? Does it show that I’m getting weary of the evil I encounter? I’ve begun to fear my growing self-hate more than the killers I meet in my sleep.

The reflection in the mirror shows my split lip is nearly scabbed. Thankful for that. After scrubbing the dried blood trapped between my teeth, I flip my hair into a ponytail, and then pull on loose shorts and a t-shirt. A good workout will clear my thoughts.

As I leave the bedroom, though, my house feels different. There’s a lingering scent of someone else. The vibration of a mortal’s energy only dark angels can sense. The feeling of another with higher aspirations but low self-esteem clings to the walls and coats the doorknobs. I try the front door. Unlocked.

Now I search each room—slowly, carefully—one at a time. The living room, around the central fireplace, kitchen and dining room, twin master bedroom, guest room, bathrooms and workout room; all are empty. But their essence still lingers. How is it possible? This’ll bother me all day. I need to punch something.

The next hour I’ll spend hitting the bag to release my frustrations and calm my mind. I prefer to work out like I’m training for a boxing match. If my muscles aren’t burning, sweat running down my face by the time I’m done, I usually go another hour. That would be a typical training session. Today, however, I’m already feeling beat up. Wish I could remember my dream. Maybe the sore muscles could be explained. I’ve only felt this worn once after a fight, but that was years ago when I first started hunting. I hate thinking of that time and push the memory away. The lack of clarity is disturbing and this workout isn’t improving my lucidity. Maybe a good jog will clear my mind.

During my morning routine, I always run through the events of the previous night. Who did I fight, where did they hide and how did they attack? Are there new techniques I could learn and adapt into my training schedule? Mostly, I remember how they smelled.

Scent is important. Your nose can tell you what kind of demon they are, where they roam. The high-class ones usually smell of money and expensive wines. Sometimes they reek of caviar. The smell nauseates me.

The poorer ones smell of cheap fabric, discount stores, and desperation. Periodically, I catch a hint of stale whiskey, rotting trash, sometimes pee. Oddly, I prefer that to the fish eggs.

Funny, no matter how hard I run, my memory still isn’t improving. Last night is merely a blur to me. I can recall a room of glass and crystal, tantalizing creations. More like candy to my soul. Shame I had to kill him. If those sculptures were his, he was quite talented. So many brilliant minds with a dark side that sends them straight to hell. Why’d he have to be one of them?

Odd that I still clearly remember his face, the soft lines that sharpened when he smiled, a dimple in his chin like mine. The eyes...I’d only seen eyes that green one other place. The mirror. The one part of me I like are my irises and he had the same.

Why’d it have to be a dream? The story always ends the same when I’m asleep. Maybe I’m growing tired of that, too.

I also remember his hair. Nearly ebony, and his skin. Olive. Delicious. I’m sure he’s broken a number of hearts. Nearly melted mine with his touch.

Ugh! Enough of that. I’m not the melting kind. I’m far too cynical for a crush. So why can’t I get him out of my mind? Shame he had to be a demon. Because he’s the best looking I’ve ever had to exterminate.

Already ran a mile and the only other thing I can remember about last night is how he looked. Nothing else? Am I still in high school? Let’s see...there was Sarah, there was the room of glass and there was Irish Eyes, facing off with me. So what happened next? His eyes played with me. Mine narrowed on him. He circled me; then, moved toward the door.

I remember saying, “Let’s skip the dance, shall we? You know why I’m here.” So cliché. Sounded cool, anyway. I may be a bit melodramatic for my age.

But he didn’t say a word. What was he doing at the door? Pulling a knife from behind the front desk? Wrapping his fingers around a heavy vase? I can’t see it. Why?

Nocturnal fights have never been blocked from my memory before. I always wake lucid as a matter of fact. Tends to be a family trait. My grandmother shared with me every fight she’d ever had. She’d hoped to give me pointers. At ninety-nine years old she remembered every detail, what they used against her, how they smelled and how badly it hurt when she woke in the morning. Purging darkness from our earth doesn’t come without consequences.

She fought until the week before she turned a hundred. That’s when my parents found her broken body lying in her bed one morning. Mom said Grandma must’ve hesitated. I find that hard to believe. She was the best. Taught me that to hesitate was to fail. “Always focus and never shrug,” she’d say.

Grandma? Shrug? Didn’t happen. But we’ll never discover how she was finally bested. Only the monster in her dream would know. Someday I’ll meet up with them. And when I do you can count on one thing: I won’t shrug.

Mile three. A woman leaving her house stares at me as if she knows my secret. Then, she turns and locks the front door. The front door—Irish Eyes. That’s what he was doing, locking the door. I was trapped in his shop and so was Sarah.

Sarah!

The last mile is lost as I worry for my coworker and friend. I can’t see the trees passing me by, cars cruising down the road, dogs barking at my heels. Nothing captures my attention as I stretch my legs and dash toward the house. I can’t remember if she escaped. Only way that could’ve happened is if I’d tossed her out before an exit was secured. I didn’t do that. At least I don’t remember removing her. Then again, I don’t remember much of anything.

The demon must have been thrilled having two prey. He thought I’d be controlled at the threat of my friend’s life. Did he kill her? Did I kill him first? I have to know and I left my phone at home.

By the time the door slams behind me, speed dial chimes her number in my head. “Pick up the phone, Sarah, pick up the phone!” No answer, so I hit the shower and scrub myself clean before pulling on slacks and a suit-jacket. Next stop is Sarah’s place.

Even after ringing the doorbell five times and pounding like my life is in danger, she doesn’t answer. I can’t think. How could I allow a fight to happen with an innocent bystander in the mix, especially one I know? I’ve never fought with the victim in sight. If they saw the demon I’d killed in their sleep on the evening news, there’s great risk they’d begin asking questions and end up complicating my life even more.

There’s just prey and predator in my type of dreams. The only other occupant would be me and I always separate victim from attacker, send them into a kinder dream or wake them with a cold sweat. Then, I finish the deed.

Last night, however, he locked the door. That meant we were locked in the dream together. No one leaving until a final outcome. The kill-or-be-killed moment had begun. A mortal had to die, victim or perpetrator, before the seal could be broken. I don’t remember killing the Irish man. I don’t remember.

I won’t risk my reputation by acting like a prowler, crawling in through a window. Sarah’s neighbors are already paying too much attention to me. With her not answering her door, I can do nothing more than go to work. If she shows, all is well. If not, her mangled body waits to be discovered. If she doesn’t come in today, I’ll call the police and report her missing. Can I think of a good reason to worry over an employee potentially playing hooky for a day? I may be clever but this will definitely stretch my imagination to the limit. With my mind preoccupied over Sarah’s fate, I head to my car and drive straight to work.

When I arrive at the bank, the lamp on my desk is lit. Let it be Sarah.

As I walk into my office, the first thing I notice is the surface of my desk. The damned thing is clean and there’s Sarah. What is she doing in my office and why’d she clean my desk? I hate when she touches my stuff. I like my working area messy, stacks of papers and files always within reach.

Her smile lights up when I enter. How can I be so relieved she’s alive and annoyed at the same time? Hopefully, she has a terrible memory when it comes to dreams. I feel cranky all of the sudden, realizing I didn’t even stop for coffee. This’ll be a long day.

She glances at her watch as if nothing’s wrong. “You’re early, aren’t you?”

Would still be home if you’d answered your damned phone. Agh! I’m dying to hit something. “Have work to catch up on. Checking status on some loans,” I tell her. Better to lie. I throw myself into my chair.

“Burr, it’s cold in here.” Sarah rubs her arms, breaking into laughter. “I had the oddest dream about you last night. I’ll have to tell you one of these times over—”

Abruptly picking up the phone, I start dialing. She might forget by the end of the day.

As luck would have it, I’m left to myself for the bulk of the morning. No one wants to be near me when I’m in a mood. Most of my day is spent making calls, closing open files and messing up the top of my desk again. No interruptions and no Sarah casting confused glances my direction. You might say my Wednesday is ending perfectly with less than an hour ‘til close. Of course, that’s when someone knocks on my door. Shit.

“Go away.”

“It’s Sarah, we need your help up front.”

Sigh. “What is it?”

“Problem with an account. Customer wants to talk to the branch manager. Says he’s missing funds.”

“Can’t you handle it?” I sound too impatient. I don’t care.

“I’m not the branch manager, boss.”

Hate it when she’s right. “I’ll be out.”

I’d sigh again, but it won’t make the problem go away. Could I slip out the back door without being detected? Probably not.

The lobby is fairly empty—two tellers, one loan officer, Sarah, and our customer. He’s standing near the counter and turns as I near. My gait noticeably falters and I bite down on my aching lower lip. When he reaches for me in concern, I immediately jolt backward. Then, I hear his voice.

“Are you all right?”

The Irish lilt is familiar. His deep green eyes drill into mine like he’s never seen me before. Thankfully, he didn’t recognize me. At least not now that he’s awake.

“You okay, Jaime? You look like you’ve seen a ghost.”

Not funny, Sarah. I am seeing a ghost.

I wave her away. “Forgot breakfast, uh, and lunch. Low blood sugar.” Returning my attention to the customer, “How may I help you?” I clip my words while holding out my hand to him. I’ll finally learn his name.

“Collin Leary. Crystal Creations.”

His hand slips into mine as it had in my dream. I’m trembling while wrapping my fingers around his palm. In my mind I see him whispering in my ear, asking my name as his lips strafe my cheek and then my ear. My heart flutters once again. But he doesn’t lean in, nor does he whisper, doesn’t even ask my name. Not sure why I’m disappointed.

“Jaime Connor,” I offer anyway. That’s it, I’m a stricken school girl.

My breathing becomes shallow. I swallow deep. He’s staring at my mouth. Why the hell is he staring at my mouth?

“Your lip’s bleeding.” He points to his own. I’m having trouble moving my eyes from them. They seem so soft and—My lip’s bleeding. Damn it! I dab it with my fingertips, realizing the cut from last night must’ve broken open when I bit my lip.

“Fell in the shower this morning—” Damn it, damn it! I forgot my excuse. I fell in the shower. Stupid. Sounds too prepared and not prepared at all. “Let’s see what’s wrong with your account, Mr. Leary.”

Moving to the nearest cubby, I push behind the computer as he sits across from me. Knowing he’s perched there makes me focus on the screen. If I look into those eyes again, I’ll...well, I can’t be sure what I’d do. My best guess is I’d throw him down right here, fervently kiss him or slit his throat. What the hell? I never want to kiss anyone fervently. What’s wrong with me? Get your mind off of him, now.

Once my attention is back on the screen in front of me, it takes nearly an hour of searching through records, cross-referencing times and transactions to get the matter figured out. Somehow a deposit of the previous evening ended up being split into several customers’ accounts early this morning. Does he know how to manipulate our system? Did he do something intentional to make an excuse to stalk me at work? By the time I’m finished, I want to snap his neck. That is, I’d snap his neck if I hadn’t already killed him. Why the hell is he still alive?

“All resolved.” Now I can wash my hands of him.

Troubling that he’s now closer to finding my home. Once he has that information, he’ll haunt me every night until one of us is dead. I’d prefer it be him.

“You’re a miracle worker,” he says and hands me one of his cards. “Please come by my gallery on Friday. I’d love to show you what I do.”

“I’m sure you would.” I sound too flippant, but Sarah snatches the card from my hand with glee.

“We’d love to go.”

I hate her perkiness.

Poor demon schmuck doesn’t realize he’ll die one more time before I ever see his gallery in person.

When he takes my hand this time, I notice his fingers are rough with thin scratches and ridges in the cup of his palm. I’ve suddenly forgotten how handsome he is and wonder what made those marks. Now I’m hungry for the hunt and this rat is on the menu. Purr.

Yes, we’ll definitely meet again, Mr. Collin Leary. I promise.