Patricio was standing alone on his balcony when they came for him.
A glass of Jack Daniel’s in his hand, he stared out at the lights of Los Angeles, spread out and twinkling against the shadowy silhouettes of the Hollywood Hills. He wasn’t drunk yet, but maybe that didn’t matter anymore.
It was quiet up here on the fifteenth floor, the sounds of blaring horns, pounding music and talking people muted by his distance from them. So even if he weren’t on his guard, it still wouldn’t have been difficult to hear the snick of the front door as it opened behind him, the soft footfalls on the carpet, though they tried to make no sound.
He tipped his glass to his mouth, the last of the whiskey burning his throat before he set the tumbler down on the small table beside him. There were five of them.
He sensed them creep closer, but still he didn’t turn around. Not even when he felt the muzzle of a gun pressed against his neck, heard the sharp slide and click of the clip.
“Check it,” an accented voice snarled in the darkness. “You can come with us, or I can shoot you where you stand. Your choice, ese.”
His choice. Patricio didn’t look at the speaker, though he knew it was O.T. Mejia. Old friend, old brother. Now, his friend wanted him dead or wanted him gone. Patricio’s choice, and he didn’t give a damn which way the wheel turned.
Seconds ticked by, until O.T. broke the silence with a sharp intake of air. Patricio felt the gun muzzle tremble against his temple, and then O.T. pushed it harder against his skin. “Dammit, Rico,” O.T. said, a note of something Patricio had never heard from the man before creeping into his voice. “Don’t make me do this.”
Patricio kept his focus on the hills before them and remained silent. He wondered what it would be like to float over those hills, looking down at everyone and everything below as a dispassionate observer. He wondered if he’d ever find that kind of peace, in this life or the next.
Something slammed into his shoulder, and it wasn’t until he fell against the rough stucco of the wall behind him that he realized it was O.T. who had shoved him backward. Patricio kept his hands at his sides, adjusting his balance so he was leaning casually against the wall as if nothing had happened. Keeping his expression neutral, he finally met his old friend’s glare.
O.T. swiped at his nose with the sleeve of his red and black jacket, as close to losing it as he’d ever seen the man. “What’s the matter with you, man?” O.T. asked, his voice shaking. Still holding the gun, he shoved Patricio again with both hands, the gun’s muzzle pointed momentarily upward underneath Patricio’s jaw. “What the hell’s the matter with you?”
A brief vision of Sonia Sanchez, a curvy girl with straight black hair and tight jeans, standing alone as nine men formed a circle around her flashed through Patricio’s mind.
His focus still on O.T., Patricio made a peace sign, curving his fingers forward slightly, and brought the sign of the Almighty Latin Cobra Nation over his heart.
O.T. blinked, brought the gun down to his side.
The shadows behind him seemed to sigh with relief.
And then Patricio threw it down, shaking the sign off his hand as if it were something dirty, perverse. Maybe it was, maybe it always had been.
Throwing down the sign of the Cobras was the highest insult he could have given the group before him, and he knew it. So again, he waited.
“You disrespecting us? Are you disrespecting us?,” he heard Jaybird Alvarez snarl as he stepped forward, his angular face illuminated by the city lights. “Finish it, O.T., or I’ll finish him for you.”
“Yes, O.T.,” Patricio said mockingly, speaking for the first time since the Cobras had arrived. “Finish it.” Finish me.
Another too-vivid memory, this one of Sonia begging King Cobra Antonio “Tone” Vicente to be initiated into the Cobra Nation. Of her choosing a “beating in” rite. Of eight men circling her, while Patricio had been too wasted to do more than stumble along the perimeter, slurring at them to leave her alone. Of eight men delivering brutal blows with their fists, their boots. Of Sonia crumpling to the ground. Of a flash of glass from a broken bottle.
And then the eight men had disappeared, leaving only Patricio to watch the pool of blood under Sonia’s neck slowly grow larger, until it coated her hair, the soles of his boots, his clothes.
His hands.
Finish me, dammit.
“You heard the man,” another Cobra growled in the darkness. “He’s begging for it, O.T.”
“Shut up,” Mejia whispered, staring at the gun in his hand.
“Freaking do it already!” another said.
O.T.’s head snapped up. “Shut up!” he shouted. He brought the gun up and swung his outstretched arm around in a semicircle, effectively getting the Cobras that had been breathing down his neck for a kill to back off.
“The Cobra Nation is done, O.T.,” Patricio said to his old friend’s back. “It’s over.”
“Screw you, Rico.” O.T. turned back to Patricio, the gun pointed at his heart. With a lunge, he slammed his body against Patricio’s, knocking him once more against the wall. Gripping a fistful of material from Patricio’s T-shirt, O.T. shoved the gun under his jaw. “There’s still a Cobra Nation tonight,” he hissed. “And if you’re going to leave it, you’re going to leave it my way.”
He curved his arm out and delivered a backhand swing, the pistol and O.T.’s fist connecting squarely with Patricio’s jaw. And then, all Patricio saw was darkness.
LATER—whether it was several hours or several days later, he didn’t know—Patricio woke to find himself on a cold, concrete floor. His head ached like a bitch, and his mouth tasted like blood.
Light from the street lamps outside filtered through the broken windows, illuminating specks of dust that danced through the air. He knew this place—one of the most senior Cobras had bought the place on Tremont Street for those belonging to the Marengo and Soto Streets section of the East L.A. Cobras. It served as a safe house to hide from the cops, a temporary storage unit for the illegal substances that formed most of the gang’s income, and a place to hold meetings when secrecy and isolation were a necessity. If they were going to do this at the warehouse, he was in trouble.
Bracing his hands underneath him, Patricio pushed his torso up. Before he could stand, a figure melted out of the darkest corners of the warehouse and slowly walked toward him, his footsteps echoing softly on the concrete. Then another stepped forward, and another, until the room was full of Cobras, forming a circle around him.
Forgetting about his aching head, Patricio pushed himself up to standing, determined to get to his feet before they could kick him back down. As soon as he was upright and steady, O.T. moved beside him in the center of the circle. He didn’t look at Patricio.
“For those of you who don’t know him, this brother is Rico Rodriguez. He’s been a brother for many years, and he’s a Cobra wherever he stands,” O.T. intoned, moving slowly to face all members of the circle as he spoke. “We, the Latin Cobras of Marengo and Soto have been designated by King Cobra Tone to deal with the breaking of our laws.”
“This brother is becoming an alcoholic. He was wasted when he tried to halt a Cobra High Initiation Rite, and he has disrespected his fellow brothers.” Murmurs of assent from the crowd surrounding them greeted O.T.’s words. The Cobras had probably killed hundreds of rival gang members in just the past year, but they had their own bizarre moral code. Being a lush was not looked upon well. “He will receive a three-minute head-to-toe violation, or he will be violated out of the Cobras,” O.T. continued. “His choice.”
O.T. turned to face Patricio, eye to eye. “It’s your choice, Rico,” he said softly.
A violation meant that every man in the room would be allowed to beat Patricio, as hard as he wanted, and in any way he could manage, from head to toe until O.T. called time. Under Cobra law, Patricio couldn’t fight back and keep his honor—and to be without honor inside this circle would be his funeral.
If he chose three minutes, he would be back in the good graces of the Cobras after it was all over. If he chose to be violated out of the gang, they’d leave him alone after all was said and done, and he’d be out. The catch was, O.T. could let the beating go on as long as he wanted, even long after Patricio was dead. Last time a Cobra had chosen to be violated out, he’d ended up in a coma for over a month.
Someone cracked his knuckles, the snaps reverberating throughout the room. “I want out,” Patricio said.
Mentally prepared though he was, the first blow caught him by surprise, knocking the air out of him. Almost immediately, the second connected with his still-tender jaw, causing him to briefly lose consciousness. He awoke seconds later on the cold ground, bursts of pain erupting on his chest, his head, neck, shoulders, legs, back. Not a sound escaped his lips, and he didn’t lift a finger to defend himself. Not even when they broke his ribs.
Exactly three minutes after it had started, O.T. called time.
His chest burning with a searing, knifelike pain every time he moved, Patricio pushed himself up on his hands and knees, gasping for air. Pausing to steady himself, he closed his eyes briefly, then stood. He wrapped his arm around his left side. Every square inch of his body felt like raw meat, and blood ran into his eyes from the blows he’d taken to his head. His world was spinning, and he didn’t know if he could stand for more than a minute, didn’t know if he’d even be able to crawl his way out of the warehouse.
“Don’t stand!” someone shouted. “Don’t you dare stand, you mother—”
Patricio’s hand snapped up, catching the fist that had come flying toward his face as if it were a baseball. He squeezed, putting pressure on the tenderest parts of his attacker’s hand, until the man made a sound, an “ahhh” of pain. Patricio remembered that hand, remembered how it had held a piece of glass, glinting in the light, slicing through the air toward Sonia’s bare neck.
“Don’t touch me,” Patricio said, his voice low and so soft, several men moved to hear him. “Don’t you ever touch me again.”
The room was thick with dust and silence, until O.T. finally stepped forward, making a gesture of dismissal. Several seconds ticked by, and then the men started falling back, until there was only Patricio and O.T. left.
Something like regret in his brown eyes, O.T. brought the curved peace sign to his heart. “Paz,” he said. Peace.
Patricio waited for the rest of the familiar greeting, the familiar goodbye. “Paz to the Almighty Latin Cobra Nation.”
But O.T. just said, “Peace, brother,” and then he, too, slipped away into the darkness.