THE WORST INJURIES IN Seattle, and usually the western half of the state, headed straight for Harborview’s trauma center. If Harborview couldn’t help you, the next option was the morgue.
The admitting-desk receptionist told me Dono was in surgery. No, there wasn’t any news of his condition. He was Patient ID 918. She said they’d let the doctors know I was there, once they came out.
The waiting room had a few dozen black-and-gray plastic chairs, arranged around low tables with stacks of donated magazines. People had pulled the chairs together to huddle in close groups, like prayer circles. Nobody was reading the magazines. There was a flat-screen monitor on the wall that told where patients were. I waited until the display cycled through to read “918—Surgery Begun.”
I claimed a chair and sat. And stared at the cream-colored wall.
I’d spent a lot of time in hospitals. Twice from my own bad spins of the wheel. The first had been at Walter Reed when I was twenty years old, after my face had been redecorated. The second bought me that desk duty during the last two months, when my forearm caught a whirring piece of shrapnel right as our platoon was being lifted out of the extraction point in Kandahar.
In between those two visits, I’d logged a few hundred hours in waiting rooms, while buddies or my own men were under the knife. Sitting silently with the rest of our unit, none of us daring to tempt fate by saying it was going to be okay. Those hours were a hell of a lot worse than being in a hospital bed myself.
The very worst time, the reigning King of Bad, was the one I hardly remembered. I was six years old. I didn’t know how I’d come to be there, in the ER. I stood in a room a lot like this one while people I didn’t know whispered and cried around me. And then my grandfather was standing there.
I had only met him a few times. He was always a little scary. He leaned down and spoke to me, saying the same thing a few times before I got it. He was telling me that I couldn’t see my mom right now. That we’d be going home for a while. His home, not the apartment Mom and I shared.
I’d asked why. When he finally answered, there was a stone solidity to his words that I knew the truth behind it, even if I couldn’t understand.
“She’ll be here,” he had said.
And there she stayed. Even after she died and was buried and long gone, I felt she was still in the hospital, somewhere just out of sight. The six-year-old me would feel that forever.
If Dono died here, would he occupy the same corner in my mind? I didn’t want to find out.
The big automated glass doors leading from the street slid open. Guerin and Kanellis came in. Kanellis spotted me first. Something was different about their vibe, just from their walk. Kanellis stood up straighter. Guerin looked grim.
“Sergeant Shaw,” Guerin said, “you’ve been keeping things from us.”
They sat in chairs on either side of me. Guerin left a seat in between us. Kanellis sat close. Guerin was carrying a blue manila folder. It was thick, maybe thirty or more pages.
Kanellis smirked. “Your grandpa is a very bad guy.”
“I know Dono’s got a record,” I said.
Guerin opened the folder and looked at the first page.
“Your grandfather has a business license as a general contractor and electrician,” he said. “He’s held that for twenty-three years. And there’s a stack of building permits and a number of other public records that have his name on them.”
I sat, waiting for what I knew would come next. Guerin turned the pages, reading from the top of each one.
“Arrested on suspicion, armed robbery. Suspicion, breaking and entering. Conviction, armed robbery. Conviction, grand larceny.” Guerin looked up at me. “He served four and a half years on McNeil Island for those last two, since it was a federal currency depository.”
“Your granddaddy must have really pissed off the judge,” said Kanellis. “McNeil was hard shit, back in the day.”
“Before my time,” I said.
Guerin turned once more to his pages. “Arrested on suspicion, burglary. Twice on that. Suspicion, aggravated assault. Suspicion, grand larceny again. And one last count, for possession of an unregistered firearm. Fourteen months in King County.”
The detective showed me the top sheet on the stack. It must have been Dono’s first arrest record, or at least his first in the United States. His face—young, handsome, and mocking—both front view and profile, in a mug shot over a reader board with his name and booking date in 1973 spelled out in uneven white plastic letters. The reader board said POLICE—ALLSTON MA. Sometime before Dono and my grandmother and my mother, just a toddler then, had moved across the country to Seattle.
I was fascinated. Dono hadn’t kept any photos around the house. I’d never seen him as a young man before.
He looked a little like me.
Guerin raised his eyes from the page. “And speaking of guns, the pistol on the floor had your grandfather’s prints on it. We also found another .38 Special upstairs, and a shotgun hanging by a strap under the coats in the kitchen. The pistols were registered to a man who passed away at age ninety-three, eight years ago.”
Guerin closed the blue folder and put it on the chair next to him. “You didn’t say a damn thing about any of this. Which makes me wonder if you’re mixed up in his work. Maybe all the way.”
It was almost nostalgic. Cops asking me what I knew about my grandfather’s night work. I hadn’t had to play this game since I started middle school.
“How old is the last charge on that list?” I said.
He didn’t have to look. “Eighteen years.”
“Right.”
“Just because he hasn’t been busted again, that doesn’t make him clean,” Kanellis said. “Clean guys don’t keep guns hidden behind the laundry soap.”
I said, “Dono was always a little paranoid. Guns in the house don’t mean he’s robbing liquor stores either.”
“You must have known about his rap sheet, growing up,” Guerin said. “You were living with him when he was arrested the last time.”
“I was. Dono told me that bust was a case of mistaken identity.” I shrugged. “I was a kid, I believed it.”
Kanellis pointed a finger at me. “You went into the system then, right?” he said. “Foster care. That couldn’t have been a shitload of fun.”
The detectives had done some fast digging. I’d been a ward of the state for a year and a half, assigned to foster homes during Dono’s trial and while he served his stretch in County.
“If you checked my record,” I said, “then you also know I went into the army right after high-school graduation. I haven’t been back. I don’t know anything about Dono’s life nowadays.”
“You said you didn’t know if he had any enemies now. What about back then? Any old grudges? Anybody who seemed like bad types, coming to the house?”
“He never talked about anything but his construction work,” I said. “Sorry.”
Guerin stared at me. Kanellis did, too, although he kept flicking his gaze back to his partner to check for approval.
“I need you to level with us,” Guerin said finally. “You’re not doing your grandfather any good by keeping his life a closed book. I don’t think you shot him. I spoke to your company’s executive officer. You’ve served your country well.”
He leaned forward. “But it’s too damn big a coincidence. Dono getting shot the same day you come back to town.”
The detective was right. The same morning. Almost the same hour.
I hadn’t told anyone other than Dono that I was coming. Had he?
I looked at Guerin. “If I knew anything that would help you catch this guy, I’d tell you. I want him nailed more than you do.”
A slight man in fresh green hospital scrubs walked over from where he’d been talking to the receptionist at the admitting desk. He had a full beard of black hair and wore a burgundy turban that looked like an autumn leaf above the walnut color of his tired face.
“Which of you is with Mr. Shaw?” he said.
“I am,” I said. Guerin opened his jacket to show his badge.
“I’m Dr. Singh, Mr. Shaw’s surgeon. Mr. Shaw is coming out of the postoperative ward now. He should be placed in a room before very long.”
“So he’s alive?” My pulse jumped. I hadn’t allowed myself the idea.
“He is. The bullet fractured his skull. It also did considerable damage to his left temporal lobe underneath. His heartbeat is steady, but his breathing still requires assistance.”
“When can we talk to him?” said Kanellis.
Singh tilted his head. “That’s very difficult to predict. His anesthesia will wear off in two or three more hours, but—” The doctor made an almost imperceptible shrug.
“How bad is he?” I said.
“I’ll be direct. In cases of brain damage like this, consciousness is not always regained. And when it is, the patient is not often lucid.”
“Did he say anything on the table?” Guerin pressed. “Anything that might identify who shot him?”
“No. I’m sorry,” said Singh. “And I must ask that you not disturb him. If he wakes, we can call you immediately.”
“I’ll post someone here,” said Guerin.
Not only to hear what Dono might say, if he woke up and started talking. The shooter might learn that the old man was still alive and try again.
Singh turned to me. “If you will excuse me, did your … father …?”
“Grandfather.”
“Oh? Your grandfather, then.” Singh’s surprise wasn’t uncommon. Dono and I were only thirty-six years apart in age. “Did he have any sort of living will or advance directive? Something that might indicate his preference of care?”
“I don’t know. I’ll check with his lawyer, but I doubt it,” I said.
“I see.”
“You saying he might be like this for a long time?”
“Again, I am sorry. If you would like to see him, he should be prepared now.”
Prepared. Like a corpse for viewing. We followed Singh to the elevators and up to a ward on the third floor, where he checked a computer screen at the front desk and led us down a long hallway. The room had two beds, but only one was occupied.
Dono lay with his upper body slightly elevated by the articulated bed. A mass of gauze and tape made a small pillow across the back of his head. Electrodes to monitor his pulse were stuck to his wrist and shoulder. IV needles in his arm, hidden by tape. The bulb of a plastic ventilator tube perched obscenely on his lips like a thick soap bubble.
“Leave me alone with him,” I said. “All of you.”
Guerin and Kanellis glanced at each other.
“I’m a suspect or I’m not,” I said. “Either way, I’m not going to unplug him with you standing outside the door.”
Guerin frowned at that, but they left, with Singh following.
I took a chair from against the wall and set it by Dono’s bed. For a few minutes, I just watched him, trying to see past the medical apparatus. People at death’s door are supposed to look smaller, shrunken. But the old man was as sizable as I remembered. A shot glass over six feet, and rangy. His hair had turned from salt and pepper to iron gray in the last decade and receded a little more. There were a few extra creases around the eyes. He still had the knuckled hands of a stonemason. I rested my own hand on the bedsheet. A tanned version of his paler one.
He had asked me to come back home, without any hint as to why. And I hadn’t made it here in time. By ten minutes.
“Christ, Dono,” I said. “One of us really fucked up.”
I had lied to the cops about one thing. My grandfather hadn’t straightened out when I was a kid. He’d just gotten better at his job.
Dono Shaw was a thief. He’d been a career criminal since his teens. Robberies mostly, wild cowboy shit. After that approach had earned him the sorry record that Guerin had shared with me, Dono smartened up and changed his methods.
And he had taught me. About stealing cars and forgery and security alarms. And money. How to find it, how to take it, how to hide it. At twelve I could use a thermite mini-lance well enough to beat the relocking safety on most commercial safes. By fifteen I probably knew more about police interrogation tricks than Kanellis did now. I had been hot shit.
I doubted that Dono had changed in the ten years I’d been gone. Either my grandfather had made a score recently or he was planning one soon. He didn’t take vacations.
I’d lied to Guerin about Dono’s work. But not about his shooting. If I knew anything that might catch the motherfucker who did it, I’d happily hand it over. The detectives had the resources to follow every lead.
But I could find other sources. Better ones. Guys who would rather cut off their own toes with a penknife than help the cops.
This was assuming that any of those old bastards would still talk to me. I’d been gone a long time.
Dono had known the shooter. I felt that in my gut. Had he been a partner?
On those infrequent occasions when Dono had worked with partners, he never double-crossed them. He thought it was bad business. So I couldn’t buy that anyone had shot Dono in the back of the head because the old man had cheated him.
Which meant it had been an ambush. Were Dono and his shooter meeting to hand over somebody’s share of a score? Dono’s .38 had been on the floor. Had he been too slow when the shooter reached for his gun?
“You asked me to come back,” I said to Dono. “I’m here. It’s your turn, goddamn it.”
The accordion pump of the ventilator eased up and down with a soft wheeze each time it pushed air into his slack lungs.
I stood and put the chair back against the wall. “I’ll be around,” I said.
Out in the hall, I saw Guerin down near the ward desk, talking on his cell phone. I turned and went the other way, a few yards to the door of the stairwell.
It was Sunday afternoon. There was only light traffic as I drove through the streets and over the hill, back toward the house. A couple of the streets had become one-way since the last time I’d seen them, and I had to backtrack once or twice. I concentrated on each step, like a student driver. Pressing the accelerator gently. Clicking the turn signals.
He might be like this for a long time? I’d said the words to Singh, and the surgeon hadn’t given me an answer. Which had been answer enough.
What if this was the last of it for the old man? What if he didn’t open his eyes and tell me who’d shot him?
What if I never learned why?
The curb in front of the house was empty again, and I parked the Charger and went up the stone steps to the porch. I stopped at the door. The forensic crew had attached a padlock to the jamb. They hadn’t wanted to use the regular lock, in case they needed access again.
I stared at the padlock for a moment. Then I raised my boot and stomped the door above the knob. The wood cracked and bent, but the lock held. I reared back and kicked it again, harder. Splinters exploded from the jamb as the padlock and hasp flew through the swinging door.
Yellow crime-scene tape was stretched wide over the entrance to the front room. Ivory fingerprint dust was everywhere. And red across the floor, like a demon’s blanket.
The rest of the room looked pretty much as I remembered it. Overstuffed bookshelves. Lamps made of heavy brass. The same old painting of the rocky landscape of County Clare hanging above the mantel of the fireplace. The television was newer, a flat-screen plasma, but sitting on the same built-in cabinet where the old one had been. Dono’s leather chair was also in the same spot. The old man spent most of his time in this room. Had spent.
I walked down the hall and into the kitchen. Dono had always kept his liquor in the cabinet above the refrigerator. He still did. I grabbed the first bottle I saw, Kentucky bourbon, and took a long pull from it. Then another. It helped my mood about as much as pissing on a bonfire.
I threw the bottle across the room, and it shattered against the counter. That was more like it. I snatched up one of the wooden chairs and smashed it down on the breakfast table, once, twice. Music. On the third swing, the chair fell to pieces, and I threw the fragments aside.
I was looking around for something else to break when someone knocked on the open front door.