The Scar

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The Library of Congress has cataloged the printed edition as follows:

Names: Cregan, Mary, author.

Title: The scar : a personal history of depression and recovery / Mary Cregan.

Description: First edition. | New York : W.W. Norton & Company, [2019] |

Includes bibliographical references.

Identifiers: LCCN 2018050858 | ISBN 9781324001720 (hardcover)

Subjects: LCSH: Cregan, Mary,—Mental health. | Depression in women—Patients—New York (State)—New York—Biography. | Depression, Mental—Treatment.

Classification: LCC RC537 .C748 2019 | DDC 616.85/270082—dc23

LC record available at https://lccn.loc.gov/2018050858

ISBN: 9781324001737 (ebook)

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