Ellisa Kasey,
JOURNAL ENTRY 02
295.30
Paranoid Type Schizophrenia

Word gets out and I'm up to my eyeballs in the TV movie people all fake and plastic and silicone parts. I'm signing in every movie star and everyone from LA to Florida. Belial tells me things only get worse or better and then this joint is noisy as all get out because of everything they build on it. Belial says I can have a bigger room if I want since I work here and he says he's real glad I was locked up in this place before he got here so he didn't have to come find me. I know he could find me because of all the bugs in his cameras and in the breakfast cereal they give us to eat.

Belial got this sicko following him foot to foot and some weepy cat who says slim to nil and then a bunch of retards including one with a pet weasel that talks when no one hears but me. I hear all that stuff cause I bother to listen.

Belial calls all of the trash together in the main assembly hall and I stand onstage beside the main workers while he tells everyone about the new bible and the new God and the new way of doing things. It's official. I'm watching all the eyes in the crowds and all the secrets go scrambling through the air like flying fish but they're all so dead no one looks up. I hear the entire quiet snickering. Belial says drink it in. He says what's the point of being crazy if it's boring? He's all smiles and giggles. He makes the most sense. I'm inclined to buy what he's selling.

After the meeting Belial takes the retard, the crybaby, the sicko and me into a room and says we have to sell the change, says we have to really ram it home. I'm suspecting a recording device, suspecting a camera, I'm wanting to beat this all at its own game. I'm wanting to take it all down from inside. Belial says I'm already in, says he got me in and he can show me where the pin is. If I pull the pin, the whole thing collapses. Wouldn't they all just scream if I pulled the pin? Wouldn't all the secrets just come pouring out like someone busted a skull full of candy?

Belial laughs at me thinking out loud and says good, real good, let's pull it.