Wesley, Paul
JOURNAL ENTRY 06
Mild mental retardation
IQ: 68

I try reel hard to reed the book that steven give me but the words is big and the book is very big to and long with lots of pajes. he put marks in the book and he rite things in it to help it make more sens. and steven give me a book like a jurnul he rite in that make more sens and help me to under stand.

in this book it says that doing what you want and saying whats in it for me is not so good cause this book say it much better to say whats in it for somebody else. the book say the best way is to treet everybody else better than yurself. that sownds reel hard to do. steven rite that it is reel hard but you not suposed to get it rite all the time just try and thats good. steven rite in the jurnul part that if we do things for our selfs and then we die and thats it then thats bad cause theres no point. he says that makes life seem like a jale cause we lockd up and cant get out. he says if there is something more than just live and die then we could be set free. steven thinks there is and that it is in the book and he rite that jurnul to explane more cause now so many peepel beleev belials way and he dont think that way will make peepel happy.

steven rite that its not his job to tell peepel they are wrong or tell peepel they are bad. he says his job is to love peepel and serv them and show the best way by how he livs. its very hard to under stand.

I reely want to under stand. sumtimes what the ziz say does not sownd good to me. i dont want to be meen or fite cause they have been so nice to me and let me and Oscar live here and give us food to. but the ziz in class name buer say that I shud be meen to the world and cause its not fare im stupid and other peepel is smart and god was reel meen to make me this way.

i do wish i could be smart reel bad but im not mad im not smart cause im still reel happy and have good frends and Oscar who is my best frend for six years. i think if my frends need something it is good to help them and not worry to much abowt me and buer say that make no sens cause whats in it for me. i think good frends is in it for me. i would do anything to take care of Oscar even though he is a ferret he is reel good to me and my best frend so i dont know if being meen is a good idea. buer say the world is cruel so I need to be cruel to it. He say its called balance. at first it sound like it make sens a littel but now I dont no about that.

now im scard a littel becas if belial is not rite maybe me and Oscar shud not be here no more. maybe me and Oscar shud see if we could go stay with stevens frends cause he seems like a good frend and even looks for medisins in the trash when they is sick. but I still dont no what to do. I gess I shud sleep on it maybe then i can think of what to do. love, Paul