It was our last performance. I don’t know if it was nostalgia or boy trouble, but I was feeling melancholy as I donned my costume for the last time.
During the play, Angie didn’t stumble over any lines and there were only a few minor glitches (during the wedding scene, a piece of scenery almost toppled, but Dev had the foresight to grab it and pretend to casually lean against the faux wall until curtain).
There was no use in crying. Dev was obviously not interested in me. I vowed to give up guys permanently and devote myself to good works. Or something.
“Did you talk to him?” Monet asked.
“Your brother is insane,” I said. “I talked to him, but I’m not sure he heard me. It was like we were speaking two different languages.”
“He’ll come around, Sophie,” she said. “It’s obvious he likes you.”
It wasn’t obvious to me. “I’ll take your word for it.”
I was still in costume, although I’d wiped the heavy stage paint from my face. The stuff made you break out if you left it on too long.
I helped Monet and Vanessa set up the snacks and punch for the parents.
There was even a real wedding cake that towered next to the punch bowl. I nabbed a Fig Newton and glanced around. I was pretending to ignore Dev, but unfortunately, he hadn’t noticed.
“Why don’t you go feed your hubby a slice of wedding cake?” Vanessa teased.
I blushed. “Cut it out.”
Dev was heading to the snack table. He reached over and nabbed a cookie. He never looked my way once.
Olivia was standing a few feet away, probably just waiting to pounce. “I knew there was something between them,” I overheard her say. “I saw…” I tuned her out. I’d heard enough gossip lately.
Evidently, so had Dev, because he abruptly turned away.
“This is our cast party?” Monet asked.
“Of course not,” Vanessa snorted. “This,” she waved at the innocent-looking snacks, “is for the parents’ benefit. The real cast party starts later.”
“For a minute, I thought you’d lost your mind,” she replied. “We’re still all going to Wicked Jack’s for dinner, right?”
She nodded. “And then to Haley’s. Her parents said we could use the guesthouse, but not to step foot in the main house.”
Haley’s parents were loaded. Their guesthouse was bigger than my entire house. The thought of smiling and laughing and pretending to have fun made me tired. I just wanted to go home and sleep for about a week. And when I woke up, I wanted to eat a pint of Ben & Jerry’s.
But I had obligations. I had already told Monet that we’d hang out at the cast party, and for once, I was going to keep a promise to her.
“I dropped off the snacks there earlier,” I said. “But make sure that if Jason Brady shows up, someone frisks him for a flask.”
“That guy should come with a warning label,” Vanessa replied, “after what he tried with you.”
“I don’t think he’ll be trying that again,” I said. “I heard he tried to get grabby with Kaley Michaels and her brother practically tore him apart.”
“Jason’s not too bright, is he?” Vanessa replied. Kurt Michaels was an all-star linebacker with a notoriously short temper.
I chuckled. “Not very.”
Dev was no longer in the room. I knew because my heart had stopped thrumming.
I smiled when I saw that Connor had given Angie a huge bouquet of roses. So predictable. I cherished my orchids, which were more exotic.
“I forgot to hang up my costume,” I said. I gave Monet a rueful glance.
“We’ll wait for you,” she said. “Make sure to put it in the right place.”
“I will,” I said, summoning a smile. I didn’t really feel like going to the party, but I would make an appearance. “Go on without me, but save me a seat.”
I draped the costume over my arm and headed to the closet. I hung the dress up very carefully and in plain view.
The door opened and then I heard Dev clear his throat, but I didn’t turn around. “Monet told me I might find you here.”
“I’m supposed to meet her at the party.”
“She told me to tell you it was okay,” he said. “She said to tell you she’ll hang out with you on Sunday instead.”
“Instead of what?” I was confused.
“I—you know, I had the biggest crush on you in middle school.” He looked down at his hands.
“You had a weird way of showing it.”
He grinned. “I know,” he said. “I tortured you unmercifully. But I had it bad.”
“And now?” I couldn’t look at him. I didn’t want him to see the hope in my eyes.
He moved closer. “Now it’s even worse.”
“Why didn’t you say anything? I just stood there,” I said.
“I don’t know,” he confessed. “It was stupid. I thought you were giving me the brush-off. I wanted more than anything to—”
“To what?”
“To do this,” he said. And then he kissed me.
Even though I was still mad at him, I kissed him back. What can I say? He was a great kisser.
A long time later, I remembered that we hadn’t really settled anything between us. I wasn’t up for another long session in the costume closet if, afterward, it meant weeks of Dev not speaking to me.
“Dev, we need to talk,” I said. “I wasn’t the one—”
“I know,” he said. “I heard Olivia talking about it earlier. You didn’t spread the rumor about us. I was an ass to think you’d do something like that.”
I thought about letting it go, but I was the new, improved Sophie. New leaf and all that.
“I might have done something like that,” I said sheepishly. “If I’d thought of it.”
There was no sense in pretending to be someone I wasn’t. Not with Dev or anyone else. He had to like me for me, not for who he wanted me to be.
His face darkened for a moment, but then he laughed. “True.”
“But that was the old me,” I continued. “I’ve changed. Or at least I’m trying to change.”
“You’re perfect just the way you are,” he said huskily.
“No, I’m not,” I said. “But I’m glad you think I am.”
We engaged in several minutes of silent communication, but then I had a thought and put my hand to his chest.
“What does this mean, Dev? I’m not going to be your closet girlfriend, someone you can just kiss and leave whenever you feel like it.”
He smiled slyly. “Why would I want you as a closet girlfriend when I can have the real thing?”
I was speechless. Were we finally getting our act together?
He looked alarmed. “You’re not saying anything. Sophie, I know I made some mistakes, but I really like you. Can you forgive me?”
I kissed him into silence, which I hoped answered his question.
“We’re going to be late for the party,” I murmured.
“Do you really want to go?” he said.
“No,” I said. I sighed. “But I promised Vanessa and Monet that I’d help. And I can’t let Monet down. Especially since she’s given me permission to date her gorgeous older brother.”
He matched my sigh with one of his own. “Just a few more minutes,” he said against my lips.
“A few more minutes,” I agreed.
Somehow, we’d ended up on the floor again. “This,” I said, “is becoming a habit.”
“A very good habit,” Dev said.
We resumed kissing, but a minute later, I heard the sound of a door opening.
“Not again,” I groaned.
“What is it?” he said, but his hands were stroking my back, which made it hard for me to think.
“I have a very bad feeling that we have company.”
We sat up and both looked toward the door. I met Olivia Kaplan’s eyes.
“You guys,” Olivia said, after a long moment where she stood there with her mouth agape, “you’re going to miss it. Everyone’s leaving for the party.”
“Have fun,” Dev said. “We’ll get there eventually. But first I want to kiss my girlfriend.” He slammed the door in her face.
“Now, where were we?” he asked.
“Hmm, I’ve forgotten,” I teased.
“I know,” he said. “Kiss me, Sophie.”
And I did.