Ezekiel was usually gone, but for the next two weeks, he was everywhere I was, taking me places and spending time with me as if he suddenly remembered what he was paying me for. We went to an opera, something I’d never attended and was shocked to find I enjoyed—I never considered myself much of a cultured person. Even though it was in another language, I could read the translations projected above the stage, and the actors did their best to communicate the jokes. Ezekiel took me to an art museum and explained some of the more abstract art, though I still found it too far above my head.
We even went golfing, despite the chilly weather. They were predicting snow in the next few days, but it didn’t dip below an average fall temperature the day we took to the green, and it was one of the few times I saw Ezekiel abandon his dark suit for beige slacks and a white sweater. He even allowed me to wear leggings, because, considering the temperature, it would have been torture to stand outside for three hours with bare legs. Bruce and Garrett golfed with Ezekiel and even allowed me a few swings, though they both guffawed behind closed fists when my shots were low and short. I didn’t proclaim to be an excellent sportswoman. I didn’t have much strength in either half of my body. But Bruce and Garrett sobered when Ezekiel tossed them a look.
I had a feeling Ezekiel knew something. Why wasn’t he away on business as usual? Did he want to keep an eye on me? I was never sure, and I didn’t perceive his mood as being out of sorts. He was always articulate, calm, and unruffled, as if owning half of Zinya City were as easy as brushing his hair.
I also worried about the physical effects of my pregnancy. I wasn’t showing yet, but my breasts felt swollen and tender, and some days I felt too nauseous to move more than ten steps from the bathroom. I faked other symptoms, telling Ezekiel I had the flu. I ignored my food cravings. I was good at ignoring cravings by now, considering I was cutting back on my dust intake. Luckily, Ezekiel wasn’t around all the time—he did work during the day—so I let my sickness show the most when I was alone. Emotions and hormones were twirling around inside me, and it took all my self-control to keep a harness on them. Perhaps a girl with a little less self-preservation might let her signs show, but I knew what waited for me if Ezekiel found out.
With Ezekiel around, it was both impossible to pay Blade back or find Kayle, who was notorious around Metro for doing cheap, discrete abortions. I already knew about him—you had to if you ran around with prostitutes on a daily basis. Accidents happened.
My time was running out. Once I got too big, not only would Kayle’s usual operation no longer be an option, but also, Ezekiel would figure it out. He wasn’t stupid, and one more night spent vomiting in the bathroom would give me away.
This entire disaster haunted me all day and sometimes all night. I couldn’t escape the terror. Every time I almost forgot about it, I’d see a mother with a baby in her arms or a grizzly murder in a movie. Everything reminded me of what I had to do, and how impossible it was to get it done. Some nights, I considered telling Ezekiel and letting him shoot me. After all, what did I have to live for? I wasn’t a suicidal person—I’d always fought my depression with work or friends—but I didn’t consider this angle a particularly illogical one. Suicidal people were illogical. Martyrs were logical. I wasn’t a martyr because I had nothing to fight for, but I knew I was cornered. Even if I somehow lived, then what? I’d go back to being Ezekiel’s whore of convenience. I’d still be stuck in his apartment, kept as a pretty jewel, only worn out on the town when needed to impress someone. How long would that last? Years? Until I developed a wrinkle? Until some bigger, wealthier drug lord killed Ezekiel?
My life had dwindled down to this. I grew depressed. I tried my best to make Ezekiel happy in some hope that it would save my ass later. However, Ezekiel was impossible to read, and an outsider would say he was indifferent. When I did something that pleased him, he’d nod. When I did something he didn’t like, he’d chide me in that blank, yet cruel, voice, and I’d be ashamed. There was a passion inside of him, but not for me—only for controlling me and those around him. His eyes only lit up when he discussed power and ways to attain more of it.
* * *
Ezekiel decided to host a meet-and-greet gala in his penthouse, the first since I’d arrived. I always thought his penthouse was cold and unforgivable, but when filled with people in their finest garments, chatting and laughing politely, it felt so different. Not warm, but full at least. Usually, it was so empty and quiet.
Ezekiel bought me a dress for the event. Well, his credit card bought it for me, and then he approved it when I modeled for him the night before. This gown actually reached the floor, though my leg protruded from a long slit when I walked. I wore my biggest diamonds, and Rosa even showed up to make sure my hair and makeup were perfect. We didn’t talk. Maybe at one point, we’d been on the precipice of being friends.
Not anymore.
I spent half the night on Ezekiel’s arm. You could tell he frightened people more than he enchanted them. They feared his finding out how he unnerved them. So they’d smile and laugh and attempt to fake the ease with which they interacted. The women complimented me and did their best to make small talk, but you could tell they were scared of me, too. Not because I was an intimidating person, but because they all knew why I was there, what Ezekiel used me for. I wasn’t one of them.
The other half of the night, I spent alone. Ezekiel took several of the men to discuss business. It was disheartening to see he hadn’t anything to discuss with a single woman. I’d heard there were rich, successful, intelligent women out there somewhere, but I’d never seen one. I wondered if they didn’t really exist, or if Ezekiel just didn’t do business with them. As far as I could tell, the only way for a woman to access the world of splendor and grandeur was by latching onto a man’s arm. This wasn’t a new concept. I’d been told and shown this since I was a little girl.
Didn’t make it less sad, though.
The women avoided me once Ezekiel was gone. This didn’t shock me. After wandering around aimlessly for some time, I went back to his room. I was planning on waiting for Ezekiel, but as I lay there, staring at the ceiling, the entire weight of my failures and incompetence collapsed on top of me, and I started to cry. Then—whomp!—just like that, my anxiety triggered the withdrawal symptoms that had been only minimal before. I found that when my emotions bottomed out, the shaking and sweating came back as if my body remembered I hadn’t taken dust in two days. I wasn’t sure if this was normal, but the human will was an amazing thing. If I were lounging around my own apartment, safe and warm, my pregnancy and withdrawal probably would have landed me in the hospital. But it seemed every molecule of this body knew how much was at stake if I showed weakness. Every cell had banded together like some sort of militia, holding back the wave of symptoms. It really did amaze me, and I didn’t think it likely. But if your mind had the ability to convince you that you were sick when you weren’t, it also had the capacity to convince you that you were healthy.
I stumbled to the bathroom and vomited twice. That simply made the shaking worse, and sweat bled through the bodice of my dress. My temperature spiked, and I rushed to remove my clothing. No matter how hot I felt, my teeth chattered. I looked at myself in the mirror. My skin had gone paper white, and I gasped at the immediate change.
I heard my phone ring back in the bedroom. I stumbled over and answered it, my hand trembling so hard I had to hold my wrist with my other hand just to keep the phone steady.
“Yes?” I asked.
“Everyone is leaving now. I will be up there in ten minutes.”
I gulped. “All right.”
Ezekiel hung up. I fell to my knees on the floor and grabbled for the suitcase where I knew my dust was. Nothing mattered more than getting myself back together. Even if it was just a little, it would put my settings back on default.
I hadn’t shot up in some time, but I had no problem remembering how it was done. A minute later, the needle sank into my skin. Despite the initial burn of the needle piercing flesh, all I felt was relief. It took about thirty seconds for it to reach my brain, but when it did, I inhaled deeply and closed my eyes. The shaking was still there but less pronounced. The sweating stopped and the room returned to normal.
Despite being slightly high, I managed to clean everything up and shove the dust under the bed. I went to the bathroom to slip back into my dress. When I emerged, Ezekiel was in the doorway, appearing as if he were a ghost.
“Ezekiel!” I blurted, holding one hand to my chest. “You—you scared me.”
Ezekiel barely acknowledged me. He turned his back to me as he began pulling off his jacket. When I rushed to help him, his hand clasped down hard around my wrist. He jerked me forward.
“Ow!” I yelped.
“You’re shaking,” he said in a low, even voice. He turned to me, eyes icy. “You’re high.”
“I-I’m sorry,” I whispered, my terror amplified by the dust rushing through my veins. His eyes seemed to glow, and an image flashed in my mind of a huge, dark maw, ready to swallow me down. “I was so—I didn’t want you to see me before. It was far worse than this.” I swallowed. “Withdrawal.”
“Why aren’t you getting what you need?” he asked. “Haven’t I provided you with enough?”
“Yes, but—”
“You can have all you like.”
“Yes, but I was hoping to cut back,” I said.
His eyes narrowed. “Why?”
I took a deep breath. “I don’t want to be like this anymore.”
“You should have thought of that before you started using dust,” Ezekiel said. His voice had a rough edge, like a growl. I didn’t know if he was angry, or if I was projecting. My brain felt sluggish, yet my blood raced and pounded in my ears. Normally, I didn’t feel this high from a dose so small. I guess my tolerance had lowered. “It’s too late now.”
“I can stop.”
“Some can.” He let go of my wrist with a jerk, causing me to stumble backwards. “Not you, though.”
“Why not?” I rubbed my wrist as I supported myself on the edge of the bed.
“You have no reason to stop. I’ve given you everything you’ve ever wanted. Money is no issue. What could possibly be gained from stopping?”
“I don’t want to be a slave to dust anymore.”
“So you think you’d be free without it?”
“No.” Tears rose in my eyes, but I managed to hold them back. “But it would be one less prison cell to sit in.”
I didn’t see the slap coming. I didn’t even feel it. I just felt my face move to the side, heat already fading from the cheek Ezekiel’s hand struck. It certainly shocked me enough to stop my crying.
“You think this is a prison, Melissa?”
“No—”
“I dress you, feed you, house you, give you everything, and you tell me I’m imprisoning you?”
“No! I-I’m thankful for all of that—”
He jabbed a finger at me. “Don’t be foolish. What you had before me was nothing. Squalor, poverty, and perverted strangers paying you to be their sperm depository.” He took a handful of my hair, but his hold wasn’t tight, nor was it forceful. “You weren’t any more free then than you are now.”
I shook my head, afraid to say anything, in fear he’d hit me again.
“Tell me why I hit you, Melissa.”
“Because I insulted you.”
“No. You disobeyed me. I gave you several rules before I took you on. One of them was never to be high while in my presence. That is why I hit you.”
“I had to. I was falling apart.”
“That is not my fault.” He pushed me back as he let me go, looking disgusted. “I am leaving tomorrow. When I return, I will expect you to be both sober and grateful. Do you understand? Can you understand when you’re like this?”
“Yes. Yes, I can.” The tears were threatening again.
“Good. Now grab yourself something to wear and get out of here. Find somewhere else to sleep tonight. You are disgusting when you’re like this.”
I practically flung myself at his feet and begged for forgiveness. However, Ezekiel did not take kindly to begging, pleading, or any form of hysterical behavior. It would be best to apologize in a simple, civil manner before he left the next day, when I was sober and capable.
I scrambled to a stand and went looking for my nightgown. I spent the rest of the night on the living room couch, pitching and rolling, still high and tired, but unable to fall asleep.
When I did, my dreams were not kind.
* * *
I woke early, even by Ezekiel’s standards. I crept back into his room, put on my makeup, brushed my hair, slipped into more acceptable lingerie, and approached his bed. I couldn’t believe my behavior, but I needed Ezekiel’s approval all the same. He terrified me, and I hated him. Yet, I craved his approval and acceptance with the same ferocity. I would never get it, but it felt good to try. His simple nod was all I needed to feel better for the rest of the day.
I was seated beside him when he woke, attempting to mimic his emotionless expression as best I could. I arranged myself into a position that was both sensual and professional—legs placed together and to the side, hands resting on my thighs. Ezekiel raised his head and looked me over, face blank. He was waiting for me to speak.
“I came to apologize for last night,” I said softly. “I didn’t mean to disrespect you or insinuate this is a prison. You’ve treated me with far too much generosity—generosity I do not deserve. I have been ungrateful, and I want to make it known that I’m much happier here than I was at home.”
Even though a part of me knew I was lying, a bigger part of me needed to believe it was true.
“I was very disappointed in you,” Ezekiel said, sitting up. “It is not like you to act so irresponsibly.”
“I know. It won’t happen again.”
There was a small silence. Ezekiel turned away. “You understand why I hit you?”
“Yes.”
“And you accept my motive?”
“Yes. It was my fault.”
Old Melissa hissed in anger at these words. New Melissa believed them.
Ezekiel looked at me. His face softened incrementally, and the fist clenching my heart went slack. A sick sort of happiness crawled up my throat, the kind a dog might feel upon receiving a treat from its master.
His hand reached up, and with one knuckle, he stroked my cheek. He leaned in slightly, but the distance between us remained. I suddenly understood what I was to do. I tilted forward and kissed him. I made the move. I kissed him. He was expecting it; he practically demanded it from me. I never made the moves. I never kissed men unless they forced me to. I had that pride, that part of me that fought and believed herself worth more than the approval of a stranger.
I kissed Ezekiel, and I enjoyed it. I still felt sick and depressed and filled with fear, but I enjoyed it. It was the sort of relief one received after learning she didn’t fail a test, not the enjoyment she received when she aced it.
I’d never aced a test in my life.
This type of joy was all that I knew.
* * *
It became about more than the desire to live. It became about Ezekiel. I wanted to please him, and pregnancy did not please him. So while I knew preserving my life was of the utmost priority, that wasn’t all it was. The logical part of my brain knew I was sick, that Ezekiel’s approval wasn’t anywhere near as important as self-preservation, but the emotional part of me couldn’t pull itself out of the mud. Was I like Mimi now? Was this why Mimi had kept going back to Joel? Did she want to make him happy despite how miserable Joel made her? Yet Mimi could have left if she wanted to. I couldn’t leave. It was either please Ezekiel or…well, what? What would he do if I told him I wanted out?
I didn’t dare contemplate it.
Ezekiel left, destined for the airport. I assumed he was going to be gone a week, but I didn’t ask, nor did he tell. It wasn’t important to him that I know. After all, what other purpose did I have, other than being here when he returned? It wasn’t like I was expected to have plans outside of him.
I found Victor and asked if I could stay over at Mimi’s that night. Victor nodded. In half hour, he waited down at the street for me, the black sedan’s back door open.
When I knocked on Mimi’s door, I heard laughing inside. Something inside my stomach tightened. I knocked again.
The laughter paused, and Mimi opened the door. She looked pretty good, wearing a clingy floral dress that complimented her thin frame. Mimi and I looked a lot alike, and no one had ever told us that one was prettier than the other. I think we were on the plain side of pretty, just in slightly different ways. Mimi’s nose was smaller, but my cheekbones were higher. Her lips were fuller, but I had what my mother called “adorable little ears.” I had big hazel eyes, while my sister had nicely shaped eyebrows. We used to joke that if Mimi took all my good features and she gave me all her bad, she’d be beautiful, and I’d be hideous.
“Hi,” I greeted with a small smile.
“Hey.” She looked me over. “You okay?”
“You always ask that.” I brushed past her into the living room. “I’m fine.”
One of Mimi’s close friends was seated on the couch, which explained the laughter. I hadn’t seen Opal in forever. Opal refused to visit when Joel was around. She said he was poison. I was happy to see them together. Mimi was happier with her quirky friend Opal around.
“Melissa.” Opal raised her glass of wine, saluting me. She was always dressed in leggings and baggy sweaters, with lots of dark makeup and a tilted beret that never fell off but always looked like it was about to. A fuzzy, lopsided scarf wrapped around her neck. Opal knitted, but no one ever said she was good at it.
“Hey.”
“And who are you?” Opal turned to Victor.
“Friend,” Victor muttered.
“Uh-huh.” Opal lifted a carefully plucked eyebrow, looking over Victor and me. “You guys just get back from a dinner or something?”
“Something like that,” I lied.
Mimi blinked, bit her lip, then rushed to the center of the room. “Drinks! Can I get you two drinks maybe?”
“Got any scotch?” Victor asked.
“Um, just beer and cheap wine.”
Victor sighed and sat down in a squished armchair. “Wine is fine then.”
“Same for me.”
Mimi vanished as Opal continued to eye Victor suspiciously. Her eyes slowly left him before moving to me.
“So, Melissa. What’s been going on with you? I haven’t seen you in forever.”
“I have a good new job,” I said. “Working in Ralston.”
There was a long silence, punctured only by the ticking of the clock. Opal gave me a knowing look. She knew I wasn’t doing honest work, but she couldn’t deny that I had a classy wardrobe.
“Huh. Neat.” She took a sip from her wine and then tossed a glare at Victor, who just looked blankly back. She didn’t faze him, which wasn’t exactly a surprise. I wondered if Victor was married. I’d found some really tough types that weren’t intimidated by anything outside of their wives. It was just as impossible to imagine him with a submissive housewife as it was to imagine him married to a woman who ruled with an iron fist.
“You glad now that Mimi got rid of Joel?” I didn’t like the tension in the room.
Opal laughed. “Oh, definitely. Can’t believe he shot at you at the hospital. Holy shit! What a fucking dumb-ass.”
“Yeah.” I sighed, glad to have a topic to discuss outside of my own private life.
* * *
I snuck out again.
Once more, I wore Mimi’s clothes and left my purse at home, just to make sure I wasn’t bugged. It was slightly earlier this time—everyone had fallen asleep from copious amounts of wine. I took her phone, because I didn’t want to take the chance that my phone could be tracked. In my head, I made a rather dark joke about a future career evading the government. If I could avoid Ezekiel, I could avoid anyone.
Kayle wasn’t where people said he usually was. Knowing his reputation, I decided he could only be one other place—Whore Avenue.
That wasn’t the official name, of course, but everyone in Metro knew it as that. It was alive all night, mostly full of drunken men and women in Lycra mini-dresses, laughing and stumbling toward their cars or apartments. This wasn’t the strip I had worked on. This all belonged to the pimps. You couldn’t work independently on this street, at least not without some pimp or whore coming up to you and cursing you out. I avoided this place at all costs. The barbershop had at least tried to retain some sense of dignity. These pimps dressed their girls in expensive designer leather, PVC, and lace, and often gave them both booze and narcotics to keep them feeling frisky. I did drugs, but never while I was on the job. That was just dangerous.
Blade liked this place for obvious reasons. Since that episode with Cordelia, I was sure he was either working as a pimp or partnered with one, dipping his hand into another money bucket.
I didn’t bother approaching a man—they believed any woman on this strip was for sale, whether she was dressed in baggy jeans or corsets. Instead, I talked to a small woman shivering on a corner, wrapped in a big fur coat.
“Do you know of a Kayle?” I asked her.
“Who the fuck wouldn’t?” she snapped, giving me a dirty look. Another trademark of Whore Avenue—women were the enemy of every whore. They were competition. If one girl didn’t make her quota, she was beaten. If one topped the quota, she was rewarded. Inevitably, the girls constantly sabotaged each other. Thank God I hadn’t worked on this strip. Who knows how long I would have lasted.
“Do you know where he is?”
She shrugged. “I don’t know. Look around. He’ll be the one with the most leeches on his arm.”
Leeches—the Metro word for whores. You didn’t even have to be a Metro native to know that. I sighed and moved along.
I ducked into all the bars I could along with one club, but no one had seen Kayle. I couldn’t even look for him myself, because I didn’t know what he looked like. I just knew he had a reputation as being very much like Blade, except a tad less repulsive. Which wasn’t saying much.
After walking up and down several streets, I heard a familiar voice. It was a darker, quieter street this time, so there were no problems hearing—it was Blade. He was bearing down on some skinny thing, holding her against a car and screaming at her.
I almost wanted to run. I wasn’t here to get mixed up with Blade. Although I clutched his money in my pocket, I still needed it to pay Kayle. I knew that would be the first thing Blade asked for. The whole plan had been to find Kayle as quickly as possible, give him the money, and hope he didn’t require me to make an appointment at a later date. I wanted this whole thing to be over with.
I could have gotten out of there without being noticed, but the girl saw me and screamed, “Help!”
Blade whipped around and saw me. His rage almost evaporated on the spot. With a sleazy smile, he grabbed the girl by the hair and smashed her face against the car window. She shrieked and then collapsed to the asphalt, her breathing ragged. There was blood all over her face—probably from a broken nose. Blade never killed women, but he certainly never left them unharmed. Luckily, he’d never beat up on me much. As Ezekiel said, I had a talent for being a good, obedient girl.
“Melissa, how good to see you,” he said. “Long time no see. It’s been a few weeks now, hasn’t it?”
“I need to find Kayle,” I said.
“Kayle?” Blade kicked the girl when she whimpered, then turned back to where I still stood at the end of the block. “Haven’t seen him in a while. Who knows what he’s up to. Maybe he skipped town.”
“That isn’t possible,” I said, fear closing up my throat.
“There’s always Nebbie,” Blade said with a grin.
“No.” Nebbie was cheaper than Kayle, but I’d heard so many horror stories. Girls traumatized, girls scarred, girls dead three days later. Hell, I’d heard that a few had died on the spot, and in order to cover his own ass, Nebbie dumped them into the river. Kayle at least tried to keep his patients alive.
“Where’s Mimi?” Blade’s grin widened. “Isn’t she the one with the little…problem?”
“Whatever.” I turned to leave.
“You owe me money!” Blade called at my back.
“I don’t have it,” I said back.
Blade shrank the distance between us, snatching up my arm right before I finished crossing the street. He whipped me around and brought me close enough to smell the cigarettes on his breath. But I wasn’t afraid of him. In fact, I almost wished he’d shoot me. It was the only way to get out of this mess, and death had never seemed less scary than it did now.
“You owe me money,” he said slowly, in a low voice.
“I don’t have it,” I repeated, my voice just as even. I couldn’t believe it. I wasn’t afraid. I was always afraid. Ever since Mom’s boyfriend came into my room when I was little…I’d been afraid. For the first time, my heart didn’t race. My skin didn’t itch. My breathing didn’t grow heavy. No, I was calm. With my eyes, I challenged Blade to throw me down and put a bullet in my head. He could. I’d seen the gun poking out of the back of his pants.
He snorted and started hauling me toward the spot where the other girl still cringed. He threw me against the car, and I think I stepped on the girl’s fingers. She let out a long moan, mingled with a sob. I wanted to reach down and help her up, but I began to wonder if death was better for her, too.
“You’re a stupid bitch, you know that?” Blade shouted at me, finger in my face. “Don’t think you mean anything more to me than that slut does.” He pointed to the girl under my feet. “You’re all the same. You take my money and then you act like such fucking snobs when I ask for it back. I gave you time. Now I want my money.”
“You aren’t very original, are you? Honestly, Blade. Do you practice these lines in the mirror?”
Smack. My head whipped to the side as Blade’s blow stung my cheek. I started laughing.
“Oh!” I chuckled. “How original!”
“Crazy bitch!” he shouted, pissed now. No one mocked Blade, especially not a woman who had given him sexual favors. I was his dog, or perhaps his blow-up doll, something plastic and lifeless to be used for his own satisfaction. Blow-up dolls didn’t talk back. They were silent—always silent. If they talked, they became human.
He smacked me again. That one actually hurt. I bit the inside of my cheek, and blood dribbled down my chin.
“I’ll kill you, Melissa.” His hands closed around my throat, his pupils blown wide with rage. “You give me my money, or I’ll fucking kill you!”
“Go ahead,” I said, spitting out the blood that filled my mouth. “You’ll still be out two hundred bucks. So, who gets the last laugh?”
“You won’t live to laugh, slut!”
“Slut, whore, bitch. That’s like calling grass green and expecting it to get offended.” Hibernating anger began to wake up inside of me. It rose like a great lumbering bear, shaking off the snow and rubble to rush out into the sunshine. “You kill me, and you kill her. Nothing changes. You’ll still be the same exact piece of scum you always are, living off the leftovers of the rich and pretending it makes you one of them. But…you’ll always be Metro trash like the rest of us.”
Blade could only do what he knew—hit. He swung a leg up into my stomach, forcing a thin stream of vomit from my lips. I went down and he started kicking me—in the ribs, in the stomach, in the face.
A gun went off. His deltoid suddenly sprayed blood, and Blade stumbled away, cursing and holding a hand to his torn arm. Blood gushed down the tattooed skin.
I raised my head. All the bravery that had resurrected a fort inside of me vanished in a cloud of vapor. The fear came back, heavy and cold like a wet blanket, covering me and squeezing me tight.
At the end of the block was a black sedan. And not the one Victor had used to take me to Mimi’s. This was Ezekiel’s car, one of the few he actually drove on his own. There were two figures standing by it. One was in gray—Victor.
The other was undeniably Ezekiel.
It was surreal, seeing him there. Ezekiel was bathed in neon green light from a dingy bar sign, gun raised, wearing a suit so black it blended into the night around him. He was a spirit or some otherworldly creature, surrounded by that sick glow. I couldn’t see his eyes from here, but I could bet they were dead, blank, and still blue as the sky.
“What the fuck…” Blade whispered. He knew it was Ezekiel, too, but he probably didn’t want to.
Victor and Ezekiel came closer. Victor was taller, but no one was more intimidating than Ezekiel at that moment. Blade backed away and looked ready to run, but Ezekiel shot him in the knee, and he went down with a howl.
Victor stopped beside me, but Ezekiel kept going until he reached Blade. I’d never seen Blade truly afraid, but he was crying now. He tried to rise, tried to keep crawling, but Ezekiel raised a foot and stomped on the torn knee he’d shot. Blade wailed. Before Blade could even manage to form a plea, Ezekiel bent over and slammed the butt of his gun straight into Blade’s nose. There was a sickening crunch, and blood gushed down his face. Blade continued to scream. Ezekiel hit him again. And again. He beat down on Blade’s nose until Blade stopped shrieking—until blood, bone, and broken flesh covered what was left of Blade’s face and Ezekiel’s arms were completely saturated in fluids. Until Blade’s form was still.
The girl lying in the gutter by my side tried to get up, her breath coming in terrified gasps. I tried to grab her, tried to keep her down. But my fingers barely brushed the back of her leg by the time she was up.
She didn’t stay up for long.
Ezekiel whipped around and shot. The girl flew backwards, her back hitting the hood of the car, and then landed with a dull thud on the pavement. There was a bullet wound just to the left of her forehead leaking a trickle of blood. I stared at her dead body blankly, incapable of feeling horror—it would surely show up in a few minutes.
There was a long silence. If anyone had been on the street, they were gone now. It was just us, and I was too terrified to move. Victor still watched, emotionless, facing his employer with the same sort of look he’d been wearing before Blade’s gruesome murder.
Ezekiel was standing, panting lightly with his arms and legs slightly spread, still holding the gun. His eyes were on the ground, widened by the adrenaline of the hunt. Then, as if remembering where he was, he suddenly straightened, closed his eyes, and pushed a few errant hairs back in their place with blood-covered hands. He became a businessman again, the madman gone in a flash. He turned to Victor.
“That was unwise,” he said, his voice as cool as always.
“You were going to dispose of him soon anyway, sir.”
“Yes. Yes, I was.” He glanced down at his stained suit with a slight disdain, as if looking at a few wayward breadcrumbs in his lap. “This will need to be burned.”
“The bodies, sir?”
“Call Bruce and Garrett and the other boys. I want everyone on this street bribed well and kept quiet. What did you see tonight, Victor?”
“Nothing, sir. Just a quiet evening at home watching sitcom re-runs.”
Then Ezekiel finally turned to me. “And you, Melissa?”
I realized I had blood and a thin stream of vomit drying on my chin. I wanted to wipe it off, but I feared just smearing it. “Nothing, Ezekiel. I saw nothing.”