Haram

“God supports my waxing habit.”

—Khudejha Asghar

The day Auntie A saw my sister’s pussy

hairs crawling out & around her underwear

so long that if you ripped through the tangles

you could part them into pigtails

was the day we were all given our own

pair of scissors & told to read namaaz.

Your hairiness is against Allah’s will

my Auntie scolded, the disappointment

lined on her too-young face. The three

of us sisters lined up to wash our feet

in the tub, our shame quieting us as the wadu

water splashed all the way to our arms.

Khudejha had to do Astaghfirullah, repenting

for her evils as we cut each lock

of hair, discarding them in a plastic bag

we got from the corner store

because they were too thick to flush down

our struggling toilet. The next day, we sisters

woke at 5am to read the Qur’an,

massacring the scripture in our American

mouths. We read the Surah about not painting

your nails or altering any part of your body

& wondered about our sheared bushes,

once a part of us & now finding shelter

in some smelly garbage. Maybe we misunderstood

the Surah. Maybe we were outside Allah’s creations.

But we knew better than to question my Auntie’s law.

We speculated the Qur’an hadn’t ever imagined

hairiness like ours, so vast, it was its own sin.