Conversations with God

Why are you not on their side? I had asked Clyde

I never called him Mr. Richter

I ain’t a slave and he’s not my Mister

Master

Grandma calls me Master Amal

because she says

I am the master of my own destiny

I am the master of my own fate

I am the master of my body, mind, and spirit

So there was only room for one master

and Clyde ain’t it

(I never tell Grandma that on most days

I don’t feel like a master

I don’t feel like I’m the one in control)

These things that Grandma tells me

are like

a pan of mac and cheese on Sunday

a pair of socks for my birthday

a whisper in my ear that she’ll steal me away

to take me to her church

a tight hug around my waist and a kiss on my chin

because I’m way taller than her

These things that Grandma gives me are like

a butterscotch or peppermint candy from her purse

Sweet promises

that make me feel special

only for a little while

Then she goes home

to her church, to her Bible, to her knitting

to her bargain shopping at dollar stores

to her own

sweet

promises