African American

When I turned thirteen

Grandma told me she’d take me to

Africa

I told her Africa’s not a country

and she slapped my shoulder and

said I’m too smart for my own good

Umi said I should go to connect with my

Muslim brothers and sisters on the continent

and Grandma looked at her sideways

She said her church was organizing

a trip to Senegal and we’d go to someplace

called Goré Island and there’d be something

called the Door of No Return

It’s where slaves had to go through

to get on a ship sailing to America

It’s where African people lost everything

and stepped out into a future they didn’t know

So when the officers hold that door open

leading out of the courtroom

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I think of that trip that never happened

and the Door of No Return

My life, my whole damn life

before that courtroom

before that trial

before that night

was like Africa

And this door leads to a slave ship

And maybe jailmaybe jail

isis America