Conversations with God IX

Dr. Bennu doesn’t come every day

Imani doesn’t come every day

So as soon as those metal doors shut

as soon as the buzzer goes off

as soon as it’s lights-out

and lights on

and program begins

it’s the same shit

over and over again

day in day out

We forget all about the lessons

or maybe

the lessons don’t stick

don’t land

don’t sink to the bottom of our souls

Dr. Bennu’s words

only skim the surface of our skins

So with the markers

I copped from Imani

I write down his words

to remember—

When she had asked me

to help her put away her stuff

When she turned her back

the markers were

just sitting there on a table

I grabbed all of them

and stuffed them into

my jumpsuit

I felt them drop to the bottom

almost slipping out

over the top of my sneakers

So you’re a poet, she asked

I nodded

I wanted to say more

I wanted to spit some more rhymes

I wanted to tell her that I

paint and draw, too

but the markers—

What you did there

was fire

I like your metaphors

and similes and imagery

she said

and all I did was shrug

because the markers—

She turned away again

digging in her bag for something

and I bent over to tuck the bottom

of my jumpsuit into my sneakers

keeping the markers in place