Conversations with God X

Care to tell me why you were

screaming in your cell

the other day, Amal?

Cheryl-Ann Buford asks

Being in her office

is like going to see the

principal, the guidance counselor

the social worker, the teacher

all at once

Keep thinking this is a game

and you’ll be doubling your

sentence

Before you know it, you’ll

spend half your

life in the system

I know your type, Amal

You think the world owes you

something

You think you’re innocent

and you don’t deserve to be

here

But guess what?

You’re here now

and you’re not going

anywhere

anytime soon, so do what

you need to do—

She says those last words

like she’s my mother

She’s notShe’s not

I let her hear the sound of her own

voice echo for a second before I ask

What happened to Kadon?

Worry about yourself

she says

as she types on her

keyboard

and fills out another form

like it’s her actual job—

writing report cards for us

Who brought that man here—

Dr. Bennu?

I ask

He made us write our mistakes down

and then we had to read

somebody else’s mistake

That meant something, right?

We were doing something

that made us think differently—

at least I know I did

But you’re over here

being the judge and jury

when that’s not even your job—

Excuse me?

Who do you think you’re

talking to?

What are you gonna tell

Kadon’s mother and father

about what happened to him?

She folds her hands across

her desk and leans in

But before she can say anything

I get up to leave