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If she won’t eat, trick her.

It dissolves right away and has no taste. The powder comes in a canister that says PROTEIN POWER! and has a little black plastic scoop to spoon it out with. I don’t use the scoop, I have to start much smaller. The first time is when we’re both home after school, sitting on the couch, and she has a glass of diet soda on the table. When she goes to the bathroom, I pull the canister out from under the couch, peel off the lid, and pinch a tiny amount between my thumb and finger. I sprinkle it into her soda and stir it with my finger. It dissolves right away. When she comes back and takes a sip, I try not to watch her to see if she notices. She doesn’t.

After that I buy two more containers. I keep one under the couch, one in the kitchen in the slow cooker that sits on the counter even though we never use it, and one in my bedroom so I can sprinkle it into her water at night when she gets up to pee.

Dinnertime’s a little more complicated. I can’t always get alone with her food because she’s such a freak about making it just right. It’s hardest if she’s just eating vegetables or something, because then I have to sprinkle it right on and try to rub it in with my finger. It’s best if she makes herself soup or something, because then I can really dump it in. I don’t know if it’s making a difference. But I have to do something. She’s getting so small.