The Woodshed
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Michael Brooks’ boss waved him into the cramped quarters and muttered his usual how wazzit while corralling a stack of folders slip-sliding toward the tired linoleum floor.
The careless question referred to two weeks suspension spent doing community service. Service that amounted to entertaining a group of delinquents on loan from parents too cheap to provide a summer camp experience. Entitled, snotty, bratty...
“Fine, Paul.” Fucking wonderful. “It went great.” If I change my name and head for Canada, I might avoid the lawsuits.
Paul Trader looked up, grimaced. “That’s not what I heard, Brooks.”
Fists clenching, Michael let his ragged nails dig trenches deep enough into his thick skin to remind him his hair-trigger temper was what had gotten him into his stint in purgatory in the first place. That he had cause, fucking good cause for going off the rails, hadn’t counted for much when the spin doctors had gotten done with him.
Water.
Bridge.
Career.
“I’m on your side, boy.” Paul went squinty-eyed, pursing his lips and folding his hands on the blotter. “I know you don’t think that right now, but you put this department in a world of hurt going all lone gunman out there.” He slipped a folder from the stack. It was thick, very very thick. “You don’t want to know what I had to do to sugar coat this... this mess you made.”
Michael tensed, anticipating the words that would strip him of the reason he got up in the morning, the only way he’d found meaning and purpose to his sorry-assed existence. He could fold his tent, say it before it got said to him. I’m done, outa here, had enough of this shit... Instead, he growled, “Sorry,” and tried hard to mean it.
Paul didn’t buy it. Why should he? They’d been friends and co-workers for nearly six years. The man had been the father Michael had never known. If anyone had the right to pass judgment? Well, that man sitting across from him was it.
Cowboy up, Brooks. Grow a set. Grow two.
Paul mumbled, “You’re a lucky bastard.”
“Huh. Lucky? How do you figure that?” Flipping the folder open, Paul extracted a sheet of paper and spun it around for Michael to read. At first glance it looked like more allegations of misconduct. He’d been burdened with enough of that lately all it did was annoy him, so he barked, “Why am I looking at this again?”
“Witnesses.”
“Yeah, so?” Witnesses could cover a broad spectrum of his latest foul-ups. He figured, with Paul’s attention span tottering on the edge of one last straw, he likely referred to the most recent incident.
There had been at least a half dozen in the gang who’d seen him pick up the ringleader by his belt and toss the asshole into the middle of the lake. Water fed by snow melt. The kid couldn’t swim. And he sank like a rock. After nearly ten days of hell as camp counselor and environmental advocate, that moment had been immensely satisfying. He hadn’t really minded wading out and dragging the bully back to shore to defrost on his own.
Who needed witnesses when he’d already fessed up to doing the deed?
Paul got that look, the one that said you’re a stupid fuck, shut up and listen. Despite the stern demeanor, the man voiced an assurance. “Not what you’re thinking, son.”
Michael cringed. Paul had a bad habit of calling him boy or son when he donned his father confessor cloak. Usually Michael preferred asshole or shit head, because then you knew where you stood, knew when to duck... mostly.
Paul continued, “This here’s a copy of the police statement. The alleged victim you were defending decided to change his tune.”
Michael swore under his breath, then said, “What, he’s suddenly there now? First he says he was nowhere near the lake, then he says he saw me toss that bastard into the water for no good reason.” Based on that testimony, Michael knew he could go down on reckless endangerment charges, at a minimum. Assault and a few of its embellishments could also be levied at the whim of a legal system that defined in loco parentis very narrowly.
Paul explained, “Thanks to Det. Haskell, the kid finally admitted he’d been there and that he’d been surrounded and threatened. No details given. However, he claims he got away just in time.”
“Yeah, right. Just in time to pee blood. That juvie knew exactly how to hit without leaving a mark. Sumbitch had half the kids shitting their pants every time him and that mob decided they needed entertainment.”
Michael wasn’t going to mention them threatening him in the dead of night, caught out walking the perimeter of the camp alone. Unarmed. He, of anyone, should have known better, especially after a few days of watching the bullies put the screws to one target after another.
“Not saying you’re wrong, son, but parents... especially parents who practice corporate law in Denver... don’t take kindly to Wyoming Fish and Game personnel manhandling their bits of precious.” Paul replaced the piece of paper in the folder and steepled his fingers, his expression gone neutral.
Michael hated neutral. He liked knowing where a man stood. But Paul had come up the ranks with some law enforcement in his back pocket. That experience had given him those dead cop eyes, the ones that said you’re guilty until I say different. He didn’t flash them often, and if truth be told, he mostly used them when it came to this kind of confrontation between them. The outcome was usually a healthy dose of blame ladled on with restraint, always deserved. Michael had learned to roll with it.
What he couldn’t roll with was Paul’s disappointment. That was edge play he wasn’t comfortable dealing with. He needed to get out of the woodshed, fast, before he started pleading his case instead of the expected mea culpas his boss would take with a grain of salt but accept publicly as an apology.
Before committing full throttle to an apology he wasn’t feeling, Michael clasped onto a loose thread. “You, um, said witnesses. Plural?”
Lips twitching, Paul worked his fingertips down, up, down, up... forming a little heart shape in the air with each downward movement. After an interminable pause, Paul said, “Couple of day trippers with kids were hiking on the blue trail, saw what happened. They reported the incident to the ranger. Took a while for it to make its way through the right channels.”
Breathing a sigh of relief, Michael said, “Then I’m in the clear.”
“Not exactly.”
“What’s that mean... not exactly?” Michael made finger quotes, then slapped his palms on his thighs in irritation.
Paul stood and came around to Michael’s side of the desk. He rested a hip on the corner and leaned forward, his expression kindly. Concerned. Prepared to lay some hurting on his intended victim. Killing him softly...
“Do I need to remind you why you were assigned to babysitter duties in the first place? You shot a man, Michael. In front of a dozen or more witnesses. Tourists for Christ’s sake. With kids. Moms, dads, grannies. What did you expect?”
Bleating, “A fucking medal?” Michael went for surly and fed up. “He was packing enough hardware to arm a third world country. Killing and mutilating for sport. What was I supposed to do? Let him sashay into the campground and nab that kid, have the same outcome as that cougar I found with its paws amputated, bleeding out?”
He’d tracked the bastard from south of the reservoir to the campground’s lower side. Thank God, only eight sites had been open that early in the season, otherwise he’d have had to contend with a crush of tourists and boaters.
Paul tried for amelioration. “I know you thought he was going for his...”
Michael stood so abruptly the chair went flying, crashing into the wall behind him. He shouted, “Thought!? I didn’t think anything. I saw him pull the blade. The kid was sitting on the bank, fishing. Completely oblivious.” He paced in a small circle, not believing he was having this conversation yet again. Throat tight, he whispered, “You didn’t see the carnage he left. He still had blood on his hands. I didn’t have a choice.”
He’d been so far away. Exhausted, barely able to catch his breath with the altitude starving his lungs for oxygen, his muscles screaming bloody murder. The pervert had taken a step, then another, eyes boring into the back of the boy’s head. All Michael remembered was raising his rifle, taking aim, putting the bastard down.
Then came the screaming...
Defeated Michael asked, “What do you want from me, Paul? My resignation? Or are you firing me, which is it?”
“Do you want to quit?” The tone was gentle, overlaid with curiosity.
Did he? God, no. He loved his job. He loved being a caretaker and protector of the land and all that it provided. He shook his head no and pleaded, “Tell me what I need to do, Paul.”
Sighing, his boss said, “This has been a rough couple years for you, son. I get that. Losing your mom. The ranch.” He perched on the edge of the desk, a port of calm in an ocean of unrest flooding Michael’s chest. It was almost a non-sequitur, the next words out of Paul’s mouth. “You haven’t taken time for yourself in years, boy. I think this might be a good point to back off, get your shit together. Fresh start.”
Michael snorted. “Like you? Kettle. Black.”
“Guilty as charged. Thing is, we’re running so lean now we can’t possibly do everything we need. That ain’t gonna change. You know it, I know it. Doesn’t mean we have to go down with the ship.”
That was Paul, the master of the obvious, preaching to the choir, and every other inane metaphor or idiom you could dredge up. Problem was, the man wasn’t wrong. Say it anyway you wanted, they were hanging on by their fingernails while poaching and mindless vandalism wreaked havoc throughout their wilderness territory. The lakes, streams, hiking trails... Everything in and around the Snowy Range seemed fair game lately.
Whether or not he agreed, Michael understood the subtext. The brass in Cheyenne would be shitting blue bricks over his newest peccadillo—him winging a madman threatening a kid with a knife, followed by his timeout in the corner playing camp counselor and tossing a hoodlum into the lake for beating up another kid. Oh yeah, they were definitely calling for his head on a plate. Maybe even Paul’s.
That brought him up short. The last thing he wanted was for Paul to take flak for his actions, as justified as they might seem in his own mind. Chewing his bottom lip, he dropped his gaze and let the guilt eat at him. He probably deserved it, every last damn bit, but guilt wasn’t the only pill he had to swallow.
Bitterly he barked, “So you’re putting me back on suspension.” It wasn’t a question and it wasn’t unexpected, yet bile rose in the back of his throat. He’d acted out during that rough patch, at least as much as a grown man could do, losing his temper when he should have been setting an example. Said a few things that could be taken the wrong way, and had. That was on him. No excuses.
He’d taken the disciplinary hearing to heart, had determined to dial up his sensitivity meter. What happened later—the shooting, him dealing in his own way with a delinquent—those events had justifiable written all over them, at least in his own mind. But guilt seemed to be in the eye of the beholder when it came to bureaucrats anxious to keep a low profile.
Paul was saying something, but Michael hadn’t been listening. He muttered, “I’m sorry, what?”
“I said, it’s not a suspension.”
“Then what the hell is it?”
“Some folks call it a vacation.”
A suspension by any other name... Michael mumbled, “How long are we talking about?”
Paul backed away, a leery expression on his face. “A month.” It was more a question than a statement. He quickly added, “With full salary and benefits.”
Michael wondered which kidney Paul had to cough up to get the powers that be to agree to that. Of course, squirrelling him away, out of sight and out of mind, might be the best solution all around. The bully’s lawyer parents might still come after him with a civil suit, but there were risks to having evidence of their son’s violently aggressive behavior splashed all over the internet. And now he had real, died-in-the-wool eye witnesses to back up his own testimony, putting the odds solidly in his favor.
With some relief, Michael agreed, “That’s generous,” but pointed out the department didn’t have the manpower to handle high summer traffic and all the problems that cropped up as it was. His being gone meant pulling somebody off paper shuffling and onto horseback or an ATV, getting their wingtips dirty. Plus, he was only one of two in their quadrant with the training to deal with environmental issues.
He offered, “How about we make that half time instead? You know, let me check on census data. Do some sweeps around the lakes. Make sure nobody’s getting into trouble out there.”
Paul looked tempted, just for an instant, but then he said, “I got my orders. Now you have yours, Brooks. I don’t want to see you back here until mid-August.” He tapped the folder with the incriminating evidence. “Are we clear on that?”
“Crystal.” Michael stomped to the door and yanked it open.
Paul called out, “Relax, have some fun. When you come back, all this will be behind you.”
Michael muttered, “I don’t know how to have fun.”
As he walked through the door, Paul said, “I know, son. But try.”
****
Instead of his usual meandering route to what he laughingly called home base, Michael hopped on the interstate for the two mile run to the truck stop. After filling his dual diesel fuel tanks, he ran into the market to pay for the fuel and picked up a turkey sub and a cold soda, then headed south to the KOA campground.
Even mid-week, the place was a beehive of activity. With Jubilee Days bearing down on Laramie, rodeo participants and fans alike were gathering in preparation for the weekend’s start of festivities.
Parking next to his travel trailer, Michael left the engine running as he ran inside to grab his checkbook and his final guilty pleasure, a pack of Marlboros with five cancer sticks remaining. He’d saved them for when he needed a pick-me-up. Today seemed like just the right time to indulge in a bad habit.
After climbing back into the cab of the truck, he carefully extracted a smoke, lit it and inhaled deeply. The acrid burn was a pleasure he’d long denied himself. That, along with other things... things he wasn’t going to think about. Not now. Probably not ever.
On his way to the fairgrounds, he stopped at the office to pay his month’s rent. Sally at the counter waved him toward the office. “The girl will take care of you, Michael.” The girl was Sally’s daughter. He had to fish for the gal’s name, experiencing a flush of guilt for forgetting it, not that he had any particular reason to remember.
No reason at all. Other than the twenty hundred times Sally had tried to hook him up with her. Her, who is her?
Deb. Dora. Doreen?
Dolly. Shit, it’s Dolly.
Plastering a smile on his face, he sidled into the makeshift office and nodded in greeting to the doe-eyed young woman tapping on a keyboard. As usual, she blushed crimson and stuttered, “H-hi, Mr. Brookes. Nice day today.”
It could be hailing a blue streak and the girl would say the same thing... hi, nice day, always mister, not Michael, keeping him at arm’s length despite the fact her mom was fondling an imaginary engagement ring just in case.
From the counter Sally announced, shrill enough to rattle the windows, “Dolly’s doing barrels, ya know.”
Michael loudly agreed, “Yes, I know.”
“Don’t start ’til nine-thirty. Last event.”
“Thanks, got it.” He clicked his pen and raised his eyebrows at Dolly who was tittering as she cupped her hand across her mouth. She had a chipped tooth from a face plant into a barrel. The mother hadn’t seen fit to send the kid to the dentist to get it fixed, treating it like normal wear and tear. Dolly, self-conscious and shy at the best of times, obviously didn’t see it that way.
Not that he had a right to judge. He had some gouges and scarring to show for the few times he’d been on the wrong side of a bull’s foul humor back in college. The rodeo boys hadn’t gotten to him fast enough as Mr. Django did a foxtrot on his hard skull. After waking up to dancing girls circling his head instead of the male strippers he fancied, he switched to team roping and the opportunity to blow out his knees and shoulder instead.
Seemed a fair trade at the time.
Dolly mouthed, “Three seventy-five,” as Michael scrawled his signature on the check. Sally must really want him to take the girl off her hands if she was still letting him get away with paying winter rates during the high season. He was a hundred and ten percent certain it wasn’t his sparkling personality and devastating good looks that tipped the scales.
He was flirting with his thirty-second birthday at the end of the month, pretty much over-the-hill by most standards, but he had a steady job, drove a late model dually and kept his patch of real estate clean and tidy. And he said yes ma’am, no ma’am, tipped his hat and opened doors for the blue-haired ladies at the grocery store, and kept his drinking and other habits out of public view.
Michael felt moved to say something nice, even though he realized how the mother’s big ears on the other side of the door would take it. The girl deserved better than being a slab of meat hung out for anything wearing a jockstrap to consider. No beauty by any stretch of the imagination, Dolly overcompensated by being nice in a browbeaten way. She’d make somebody a good wife. Grateful, attentive.
If he batted for that team, he could do a hell of a lot worse than to take her out and show her there was more to life than being under the thumb of an old bat too cheap to see to her kid’s dental hygiene.
He smiled. Not with teeth. That was a bit too personal, too welcoming. Too fucking filled with promise. He asked, “You running Samson on Saturday?” The gelding was her fastest mount, though not necessarily her steadiest. He’d been the one to drop his shoulder and buck-pitch her during the sharp left turn. She’d landed on the lip of the barrel. With her mouth. Ouch. She was lucky to have any teeth left at all.
Dolly’s eyes sparkled as she nodded yes enthusiastically. Eyes darting toward the door, she asked sotto voce, “Will you be there?”
Michael tapped his forefinger on the girl’s nose, and this time he flashed her a genuine grin. “Wouldn’t miss it. But only on one condition.”
Blushing crimson, Dolly stuttered, “S-s-sure.”
“I need someone to hold my gelding while I get ready for the calf roping Friday afternoon. Think your ma would let you off to help me out?”
Dolly peered over his shoulder, her face lighting up with hope and delight. He was certain mom had just given the kid a thumb’s up. What mom, and Dolly, didn’t know was that his partner for the event was a painfully shy nineteen year old planning on becoming a veterinarian.
Feeling smug about his plans for playing cupid, he said his goodbyes and resumed his trip to the fairgrounds so he could sign up for the two events. He hadn’t planned on competing, but now that he was on enforced layup, so to speak, there was no reason why he couldn’t get back into rodeo competitions again.
It offered a bright spot in an otherwise shitty time of his life, the bittersweet memory of the last time he’d indulged his passion being when he’d had a steady partner to come home to. A man to love and to share nearly everything with.
A man who’d left him alone when a better offer had come along.
Paul had been partially right. He did need to get his head screwed on straight. But mostly he needed to get back out there, find somebody to have a real live conversation with. Give his right hand a rest.
Maybe being on vacation wasn’t going to be so bad after all.