Still fighting tears, Deborah slipped into a clean dress for tonight. She and Mahlon had made plans, but she was in no mood for going out. Part of her wanted to crawl into bed and pull the blankets over her head. But she hoped to get Mahlon to change his mind about leaving tomorrow, and she wouldn’t pass up the opportunity to be near Ephraim. Maybe once she had time with him, she’d begin to understand why he’d done such a brazen, foolish thing.
Hearing men’s voices outside, she moved to the window. The bishop and her Daed stood in the side yard, talking to Ephraim. She raised the window higher so she could eavesdrop.
“I understand how this looks,” Ephraim said, “but I’ve done nothing wrong. I’m just asking for some time to work with her, to help her get on her feet.”
“She’s worse than her mother,” Daed said. “Malinda would never have dressed like that or stolen from us or dragged her child around, homeless. If you don’t put a separation between you and her, you’ll put one between you and God.”
“It’s not like that. She’s on a path she didn’t choose. It was chosen for her, and I want to help her get off it. And she’s not a bad influence.” Deborah heard the ire in her brother’s voice as he defended himself. She couldn’t imagine him giving in to any temptations with a girl, but she never would’ve believed he’d invite an Englischer woman, this Cara, to stay with him either.
“Did we not see her dancing in your home? In that tight clothing, with too much skin showing, even her belly.” The bishops voice remained calm as he tried to reason with Ephraim.
“She doesn’t see things like we do. You see her ways as sinful. She sees them as normal.”
“It doesn’t matter how she sees them. Get her out of your life and away from this community,” Daed added.
Deborah wondered why they wanted to get rid of the girl. She understood getting her out of her brother’s house and away from him, whether he was sleeping in the shop or not. But why would they want her out of Dry Lake?
“I can’t do that.”
A knot formed in Deborah’s stomach.
“Please don’t do this,” the bishop said. “If you refuse to submit, we’ll have no choice but to be very strict on you until you’re willing to follow wisdom. A shunning is always painful, but will I be forced to draw lines even more severe than is normal?”
Someone knocked on Deborah’s door. “Kumm.”
Anna Mary held out Deborah’s black apron. “All pressed and ready to go.”
“Denki.”
The bishop stood near Ephraim, talking softly, and she could no longer hear him.
“What are you looking at?” Anna Mary moved to the window.
Deborah felt like a dress being run through the wringer. Why was Ephraim being so stubborn?
Anna Mary’s face turned ashen. “The bishop knows?”
Deborah slid into her apron. There wasn’t anything she could say that would make this better. The damage had been done.
Anna Mary slowly turned from the window and sat on the bed. “Don’t worry so much about Ephraim. He wanted to help this girl, but I also think he wants to test me.”
Deborah pinned the apron in place around her waist. “What do you mean?”
“He’s been single all these years, goes for long spells without courting. He’s been seeing me longer than anyone. We’ve been getting really close. I can feel his voice inside me even when he’s working out of town.” She pulled a pillow into her lap. “And now he does this? You can’t tell me it’s not odd.”
Mulling over her friend’s conclusions, Deborah placed her Kapp on her head. “If he’s shunned, will you wait for him?”
“Of course. We’ll be allowed to visit him, and we can take him special dinners. Singings and outings will be forbidden, but we can work around that.”
Deborah sat beside her friend. “I heard what the bishop said. I don’t think the normal restrictions will apply.”
“Why?”
“Because Ephraim’s refusing to remove Cara from his home or separate his life from hers. He intends to do as he sees fit.”
Hurt filled Anna Mary’s eyes. “For me there is no one else. But the waiting won’t be the hardest part. The damage to his reputation won’t fade for years.”
Deborah grabbed straight pins from the nightstand and weaved one through the Kapp and strands of her hair. “It makes me feel sick thinking about it.”
“Cara is nothing more than a troublemaking nobody…a…a tramp.” Anna Mary tossed the pillow onto the bed. “He felt sorry for her and was willing to help. The idea of people thinking otherwise just makes me mad.”
Taken aback by her friend’s harsh view of Cara, Deborah moved to the window. The yard was empty now, the conversation over. Ephraim and Mahlon were probably downstairs, waiting for them. “Excommunicated.” She hated the feel of the word in her mouth. “Ephraim’s doing this. Mahlon is getting away because he feels like it. Why do men have to be so hardheaded sometimes?”
Anna Mary opened the bedroom door. “I have no idea. And they say women are difficult to understand.” She shrugged. “Maybe the bishop won’t be so tough on him after all.”
“Maybe.” But Deborah didn’t think so, not after hearing what the bishop had said to Ephraim.
As they walked into the living room looking for Mahlon and Ephraim, she caught a glimpse of movement in her parents’ bedroom. “I’ll be back.”
She went to the doorway. Her Daed was sitting on the side of the bed, his elbows propped on his knees and his head in his hands.
Becca stood near him with her back to the doorway. “He won’t be allowed to work at his shop? That’s never been part of a shunning before. Will the business survive without Ephraim?”
“I can’t think of that right now.”
“That shop puts food in our babies’ mouths.”
Deborah tapped on the door. “Daed?”
“Deborah.” He stood, wiping his eyes. “You look nice, like a young woman ready for her beau.”
She nodded. “Are you okay?”
“Ya. A bit rattled, that’s all.”
“Your brother…” Becca burst into tears. “All these children left to raise, and the oldest, who’s been a man of faith for many years, now begins to waver?”
“He’s not wavering.” Deborah choked back the tears. “He’s not. He stepped outside the Ordnung, but he’ll take the discipline and go through the steps to become a member in good standing again. I know he will.”
Her Daed brushed her cheek with his hand. “Of course he will. Now, what did you need to see me about?”
“I was looking for Ephraim and Mahlon.”
“They’ve gone to the shop. Your brother needs to teach Mahlon a lot between now and Sunday.”
She couldn’t believe the procedure for a shunning was moving so quickly. “Sunday?”
Daed nodded. “The announcement will happen at church.” Her heart thudded against her chest. “Why so soon?”
“This situation with Cara is worse than Ephraim said.” The ache that settled inside her chest was familiar, like she was losing a family member all over again. “Oh, Daed.”
“It’ll be fine, Deborah. Just a little storm. We’ll get through it.” But she knew he didn’t really believe that. She could see it in his eyes and hear it in his voice. “I’ll be with Ephraim, Mahlon, and Anna Mary tonight. I’ll talk with him. Okay, Daed?”
He smiled, his eyes misting. “Sure. Do what you can.” He rubbed his chest. “I…I think I’ll lie down for a bit.”
Deborah helped him get comfortable and kissed his cheek. “Please don’t take this too hard. He’s doing this because he’s a good man, not because of sin.”
Her Daed patted her hand. “I hope you’re right.”
She left, eager to try to talk some sense into her brother.
Standing at his desk, Ephraim tried explaining unfamiliar things about the business to Mahlon: bookkeeping and ordering hardware, lumber, and various items from the paint store. Open in front of them was a color-coded calendar that mapped out daily goals as well as long-term goals. It all had to do with the business of cabinetmaking, including customer service.
Mahlon shoved his hands into his pockets. “I thought your roots and your respect for the Old Ways went deeper than doing something like this.”
Ephraim tossed his pen onto the work-load chart. “Are you hearing anything I’m saying about the shop operations?”
“I can’t get all this by Sunday You’re the owner. Grey’s the foreman. I just build cabinets and do what I’m told.”
As the reality of the impending ban began to press in tighter, Ephraim couldn’t stop wondering how his family and business would fare without him. He moved to a file cabinet and began searching for any records that might help Grey and Mahlon during his absence. He’d expected to be excommunicated, but he’d never imagined the kind of strictness the bishop had just imposed on him.
A shunning was a rare thing. When the bishop did see it as necessary, the disciplinary time usually included a few painful restrictions. People couldn’t take anything from his hand, but they could give things to him and were encouraged to do so to show love. He wouldn’t be allowed to sit at a table with others during mealtime. He knew his family; they’d simply choose not to eat at a table. Instead they’d share meals while sitting in the living room or outside in lawn chairs, and Ephraim could join them in those settings. Being under the ban would cause conversations to be awkward at first, but he and his family and friends would work their way through that discomfort, and inside a normal shunning he would have been allowed to do his job, even if he couldn’t hand things to anyone Amish or tote one end of a set of cabinets.
Typically, the hardest parts about a shunning were the embarrassment and the fact that the person couldn’t stay for any of the after-church meals and couldn’t attend any kind of fellowships or singings.
But this kind of shunning?
Be me to her. The phrase returned, jarring him out of his self-centered thoughts.
With several files in hand, he turned to Mahlon. “Bills have to be paid for Daed’s household and the shop.” He tossed the information onto the desk. “Grey’s going to need your help, and you have to try. You said you would stay next week instead of going on your trip. But will you stick around until I’m no longer being shunned?”
“Why are you letting this happen over an outsider? I could understand if your own heart pulled you to step outside the Ordnung, but some stranger coming through?”
Ephraim didn’t miss that Mahlon hadn’t answered his question. “She showed up and needed help. I couldn’t exactly say ‘Could you come back next year when my Daed is better and when Mahlon gets his head on straight?’”
“Get my head on straight?” Mahlon mumbled. “Try being more direct next time.” He leaned in. “Who is she?”
“Someone who’s paying the price for her parents’ choices—just like the church leaders always warned us about when we were growing up.”
“She has Amish roots?”
Ephraim nodded. “She doesn’t know. She thinks her mother had Amish friends.”
“If her life is an example of what happens when relatives from the past have left the church, I’ll hold on with a death grip.”
“One would hope you’d hold on to the Old Ways because you believe in them.”
“You’re in no position to lecture me.”
Ephraim changed the subject. “I hate to bother Grey at home, but I think we should go by his place tonight and prepare him for what’s going to happen next week. It’ll help Monday go smoother. If you need to know something, ask Grey. But he’s going to need you to do your part plus some.”
The shop door opened, and Deborah and Anna Mary walked in.
Anna Mary’s eyes reflected worry. “Is it true? Starting Sunday?”
He moved to her and wrapped her in his arms. She’d handled hearing about Cara staying in his home pretty well. But learning that the shunning had been confirmed and that it’d begin so soon seemed too much for her. He hated it, but he had to warn her about the enforcement of his shunning, beginning Sunday, and she would barely be allowed to acknowledge his existence until the ban was over.
Mahlon went to Deborah and whispered something, causing her to nod. So much rested in Mahlon’s hands over the next few weeks or months. Ephraim hoped he was up to it.