When he left the meeting with the FBI he met with the team in a Home Depot parking lot off the frontage road in San Rafael. Their pickups and battered vans blended easily with the carpenter and contractor crowd and no one really paid them any attention as they parked off to one side, away from the rolling carts and foot traffic coming and going through the front doors. The parking lot was windy and vast and the faces of his wardens looked somehow more weathered and tired than yesterday. They wore their sunglasses and kept their distance, their postures quiet, an edge of wariness radiating from them as they waited for him to explain away their confusion and mistrust. He distributed the telelocators as he talked, watched Roberts quickly drop hers on the driver’s seat of her van as though she didn’t want it touching her flesh. Alvarez turned his in his right hand while his eyes burned with the intensity and indignation of a man who’d just been robbed.
“What gives, Lieutenant?” he asked. “Are they going to tell us where to go and what to do?”
“They’re not going to direct our days, but whatever Kline has planned they don’t want us to get in the middle of. They’ll let us know if they have a conflict with our location, or who we’re following.”
“Do we need to get their approval for a bust or surveillance?”
“Or even who we build a case against,” Shauf threw in, and Marquez glanced at her, hands in the pockets of her jacket, wind ruffling blonde hair at her temples. He turned back to Alvarez.
“They’re planning to take down Eugene Kline, but they don’t know where he is and they’re concerned we’re going to inadvertently blow it for them. That’s all I really know and my orders are to distribute these.”
It was the fourth time he’d said it. He felt the same way as Alvarez, but he’d stepped back into his patrol lieutenant shoes. He’d deal with it a different way.
“We may as well all go home,” Alvarez said.
“We’re not going to quit, but we are going to stand down for a day while we get it figured out.”
He heard the bite in his voice, felt his face tighten. They definitely weren’t going to quit or let up. They’d improvise, adjust, find out what the FBI had going. He looked from Alvarez’s skepticism to Petersen’s quiet watchfulness, to the earnest face of Shauf, to Cairo’s bemused eyes, Roberts’s angry focused intelligence. The team had been larger three months ago. He probably missed Peter Chee most, for his clear reasoning.
“First they call off the pursuit of the Emily Jane and now we’re reporting to them.” Alvarez shook his head.
“They’ve got the money and the tech tools, maybe it’ll help us.”
“Right.”
“And we’ll adjust to it.”
“They’re pulling the strings. We’re puppets now.”
“Carry the telelocators and we’ll see what the Bureau can do for us. We’ll work the lead from Li, we’ll stay on Bailey, and we’ve got tips to follow up on.”
“Come on, Lieutenant, they just put a leash on us. By the time they get through analyzing each situation it’ll be too late. They don’t care about what we’re doing; it’s just shellfish to them. They’re busy saving the world.”
He could come down on Alvarez, tell him to get over it and forget the Feds, and he was close to it, but checked himself. Let them think it over tonight and they’d start focusing on the fish broker, Billy Mauro, tomorrow. He understood and felt the same frustration.
“We’ll start working on Mauro and stay close on Bailey.”
“Hey, maybe Bailey is working for them,” Cairo said, “and that’s how come he ran. He knew the Feds were there watching him. He could have gotten a ride out of there in a Fed car. Maybe that’s how he disappeared.”
“Bailey isn’t working for them. They don’t know much about Bailey other than his criminal history. They don’t think he links to Kline. I asked.”
“But what do you think?” Alvarez asked, and he knew they’d all been wondering. Bailey had been Marquez’s informant. Only Marquez had worked him and Bailey had burned them, and now Alvarez was speaking for all of them. They needed to know what he really thought.
“I think he’s being used by Kline and he ran because he expected a gunfight. Maybe Kline’s people told him they’d take out Roberts and me and the Sausalito cops complicated the plan.”
Marquez shrugged. He wasn’t going to speculate beyond what he had already about Bailey’s motives. He let it go at that and ended the meeting. Shauf would go back to the borrowed condo across from Pillar Point with Roberts, Cairo to Fort Bragg, and the others would stand down, take motel rooms, or make the drive home. He watched them go to their vehicles with an air of defeat and decided he’d get everybody together again in the next couple of days. He didn’t think he’d said it very well, hadn’t made clear that they would keep their autonomy no matter what. They’d figure it out, or at least he would. Law enforcement was all push, pull, a mix of failure and success and you did what you had to do to keep it going. They were at that sort of crossroads and his gut said the FBI was worried and that his Fish and Game team had been pulled into the mix not so much because they’d interfered or stood to, but more likely because satellite imagery and agents in suits driving Crown Vic’s into small coastal towns and asking questions wasn’t adequate. They need us more than they’re worried about us interfering, he thought.
“I talked to Nick Hansen today,” Petersen said—she’d lingered behind, was in her truck now with the window down. She smiled at a memory of the conversation, probably Hansen’s dry humor, coming back to her. “He asked me if there was anything I want to know about the Golden Gate Bridge pilings. He says he can’t even count the trips he’s made out there and says he spends half his days on Fed patrols.”
“We aren’t going to work for them. I promise you that.”
“Even if they sing their common cause, all for the greater good song? We’re after the same guy and all.”
“No way, no chance.”
“What about the chief?”
“He won’t cave.”
“That’s what I wanted to hear. Well, I might make a run all the way home tonight.”
“You can drive with an easy heart now.”
She laughed. “I’ll come back down to Fort Bragg in the morning and check out that other tip.” She put on her seatbelt and then looked puzzled, glancing back at his eyes as she started the engine. “I’ve got a question.”
“Does Douglas know this Kline said he’d kill you someday?”
“No.” And there’s no reason to tell him, he thought.
Marquez watched her drive off, made a couple of phone calls from the parking lot, then drove down to Tim’s Treads, a tire store Alvarez said he was headed to. He found him in the small waiting room and they walked outside, looking at the traffic on the frontage road, Highway 101 across the fence beyond.
“They want control of us,” Alvarez said.
“It’s a telelocator, not an implant in your brain.”
“You know they’re using us.”
“What I think is they need us. They have information that makes them believe Kline is here for more than dope smuggling and abalone. He’s an enterprise, Brad.”
“Like we’re not up against it already.”
“Get over it tonight and I’ll talk to you in the morning.”
He thought about Petersen’s last question as he drove away. He’d been injured and sick the night Kline came for him, but how had Kline known he was vulnerable? He’d never have that answer and never stop wondering. He got ready to call Katherine as he drove away. It was a spur-of-the-moment idea, but early enough in the afternoon that maybe she and Maria didn’t have a dinner plan yet.
He waited for her cell to ring and remembered crossing the border back into Texas and the old two-story wood frame he had rented for next to nothing and barely used. There’d been a single working bathroom, a bed, a place to cook. He’d had trouble getting out of the car and the house had been hot, dusty, the tap water running with rust that he’d thought was blood in his fevered state. He’d barely made it upstairs to the bed, forced a window open, left the lights off, was lying on his back on sheets that were drenched with his sweat when he’d heard noise in the yard, a car engine, someone down there, idling with their headlights off. He’d managed to get his gun, get into the attic space where he had access to the roof before the front door opened. Then he’d waited, shaking with fever in the dry attic heat, his breath rasping hoarsely, the gun slick in his hand, watching through the crack, watching and listening as he tried to quiet his breathing, tried to focus outside the fever.
A figure had entered the darkened room. He’d heard boots clicking like hoofs on the ancient wood floor and looked down on the figure whose shoulders were hunched and indistinct and whose eyes by some trick of reflected light were faintly red as the face turned upward.
“I will find you,” said a voice that seemed to come from inside his head. “I’ll hold your heart in my hand.”
He’d heard liquid sloshing as the steps retreated, smelled gasoline as he’d tumbled from the attic, heard the whoosh as it ignited and a ball of bright light illuminated the room. He’d climbed out on the roof, slid on the asphalt, grabbed at old wooden gutters and fallen two stories as the gutter gave way and fire enveloped the house. He remembered hearing ammunition popping as the heat caught it, as the volunteer fire brigade strapped him on a board before sliding him into an old hearse converted to an ambulance. He’d had nothing left, not even his passport, and the hospital had called the DEA and verified he was who he said he was. He’d been ten days in the hospital and had come home to California.
“John,” Katherine said, and her voice was light.
“I’m off this afternoon. I could pick up some food and the three of us could barbecue tonight.” When she hesitated he knew it could easily be that she had other plans, and he felt funny immediately and wondered if he should have made the call.
“Where?” she asked.
“Either house. I can pick up food right now.”
It was like dating Katherine, inviting her to dinner, hoping she’d agree, his pulse rising as he waited for her answer. The distance kept on hurting, same old sad story, a cycle he had to break for both of them. Either they went forward or called it, no way around that truth. It made him think of his sister living in London. She’d built a new life with a British banker husband, erased America from her head, and told him he’d never have a normal marriage because their childhood had been too much of a mess. Their mother had dropped his sister and him at their grandparents when he was nine and his sister was twelve. Their father had already left; mom was headed for rehab. She’d never really returned, had visited, but never took them home, and when he was thirteen and his sister a junior at Redwood High, their grandfather sat them down and told them their mother had died the day before in a train accident in India. For a long time he’d gone on believing she was still alive and he’d imagine he was seeing her on a street corner or driving past in a car.
Then in the summer of her senior year in high school his blue-eyed sister had graduated to heroin rather than college. She’d become rail-thin within six months. She’d moved out and he’d found her in a Tenderloin crack house a few months later, had told a pimp he was her brother and turned his back on a gun and carried her out in his arms. Darcey was why he’d gone into the DEA. Darcey was also one of the few people he’d ever seen beat heroin, or at least get to where she could live without it. The last long conversation they’d had, he’d told her he and Katherine were having trouble.
That night, he barbecued salmon and roasted potatoes in the fire, two of Maria’s old favorites, though she said she’d stopped liking salmon as much and wasn’t hungry for it at all tonight. She made them a salad and her own separately, putting only a few drops of olive oil on the leaves she planned to eat. She cut the end of a cucumber over the lettuce while Katherine lectured her. Maria’s salmon sat on a corner of her plate throughout dinner and Marquez watched her feed it to the sink as her mom’s head was turned. Then she got on the phone with her friends, after explaining that she’d actually eaten a big lunch.
“Do you see it now?” Katherine asked, as Maria talked to her friend in the back room and the two of them sat out on the deck in front of the dying embers.
“Yeah, I see it. Her weight is down.”
“Way down. I’m taking her back to her doctor.”
He drank a beer and they moved off Maria. He listened to the day’s problems at the coffee bar, some of the complaints she’d fielded today, her expansion ideas. He questioned her more about the two men who’d come in, then showed her the video from Oakland and without looking very close or long she dismissed those men. He didn’t push her on it because she didn’t want to think that way tonight, and they tried to make it normal and sit out here like they used to and have it be easy and the way it used to feel, but couldn’t do it. And yet, she sat close to him, curled in the chair, resting an arm on top of his, her fingers through his fingers, everything as fragile as glass. He held her hand gently and thought carefully about the chain of events with Heinemann while staring at the fire. When his cell rang he put the beer down and Katherine said she was going to get Maria and it was time for them to go. She got up slowly, her eyes averted as he answered the phone, figured he had to answer.
“I helped load two thousand abalone onto their boat today,” Davies said. “We winched it over from a salmon trawler. The trawler dragged the catch underwater to the meeting. They had the bags hanging off the back of the boat in case they ran into any of your people. They were going to take a knife and cut the line. These people would take a knife to you, too, Lieutenant. I got some film for you if you want to meet tomorrow morning.”
“What did you film?”
“Their boat and the guys that came in to pick me up. I bought this little video camera off the Internet that I hooked up to my boat cabin. I can run it remote control. If we sit down I can draw you the hull and give you a top-down view of their boat. I can meet you around dawn in Sausalito, unless you’re done with me.”
Marquez watched Maria walk out from the back room, saw the hall light go off.
“Or I’ll meet you near that engineers’ dock.”
“I’ll be there if you’ve got film for me.”
“What did I just tell you?”
Davies hung up, not waiting for any more, a statement in that, and Marquez laid the phone down as Katherine walked out onto the deck again.
“We’re leaving,” Katherine said, and Maria was already out the door, not checking back to say good-bye. “She’s angry at me, not you, John.”
“I can be there when you take her back to the doctor.”
“The doctor wants to talk to her alone, but I’ll call you after.”
Marquez put his arms around her and drew her close. He didn’t kiss her but slid his hand under the hair on the nape of her neck and held her face against his. He felt her hold him, her fingers briefly on his spine. She straightened and he saw Maria standing in the front doorway staring at them, her hands pressed together in front of her, her facial expression one out of childhood. Maria’s eyes found his and questioned, then she turned and he heard her feet go down the stairs.