MIA WAS ALWAYS WAITING. She awoke in the morning, and if Jeff wasn’t her first thought, he was no further away than her second. Sometimes he was in her dreams. Once she dreamt that he was kneeling in the yard where she had seen him with the tarantula, and when he stood up, he was holding the tarantula on his arm, staring at it eye to eye.
She was waiting for the daytime hours to run their course so she could be with him, because in the five days since they’d listened together to the coyotes, he seemed to seek her out. It wasn’t her imagination. When he called Chris’s office, he spent so long with her on the phone, that once she forgot to put the call through. He could talk about anything. Anything except himself. When she asked him questions, she geared them carefully toward his cottage, or the cat, or the promised rain.
They ate together at night, Mia purposely changing her routine so that she didn’t begin cooking until nearly sunset, when she knew he would be home. He was no longer working into the dark hours of the night, and he didn’t even pretend that his early arrival at Sugarbush was an accident. He’d come over, the cat tagging along, and eat Mia’s steamed vegetables as if they were filet mignon. On one occasion, he brought over his own set of vegetables and made her eggplant stuffed with rice and spinach, assuring her the recipe contained not a drop of fat. “Although,” he said, “you sure look as if you could use some.”
She began to hope that Rick was wrong, that Jeff wouldn’t succeed in producing rain, at least not any time soon. He would have to stay in Valle Rosa, wrestling with the problem for months. She began to relish the breath-stealing heat, the crackling dry leaves of the scrub oaks and the scent of newborn fires, all symbols of the drought that kept him close.
After dinner she would work with her clay or on the design of the fountain, while he’d sit on the sofa with the kitten at his side, a pencil in his hand, and his usual pile of papers resting on his lap. Occasionally she’d catch him watching her, his smile open and genuine, and she’d return to her work with a delicious warmth inside her and a telltale wash of color in her cheeks.
Sometimes they would talk, sometimes not, but she was surprised by the ease she felt sharing parts of her life with him. She told him about Glen—not everything, of course—but about how he had taught her sculpting, how he’d called her Sunny, and a little bit of how she’d loved him.
“And why did it end?” Jeff asked her, leaning forward on the couch, the intensity in his eyes almost too much to bear.
“I can’t talk about it,” she answered, and he smiled.
“I understand that feeling.”
He returned to his own work, and she wished he hadn’t let her off the hook quite so easily.
Her fantasies pulsed with new life. Maybe he would stay in Valle Rosa so long that she would have her reconstructive surgery. Or maybe he would have to leave, but he would tell her—trust only her to know—where he was going, and she could find him after the surgery. But then, reality would settle over her like a suffocating cloud of smoke. She would remember Glen. She would remember her mother, and she’d explore her right breast gingerly, reluctantly, terrified of finding something that would set her back that much further.
At ten o’clock on the fifth night after they’d taped the coyotes, Mia turned on the television to watch the news. Jeff, sprawled on the couch, barely glanced up from his work until the anchor with the patent leather hair introduced Carmen and her North County Report. Jeff raised his head then, setting his pencil on the coffee table, and folded his arms across his chest.
There was something magical about Carmen on television. The color in her face was vibrant; her eyes were huge, dark and exotic. Ordinarily, Mia enjoyed simply looking at her, but tonight she picked up Jeff’s tension, and stilled her hands on her clay.
“More information now about Valle Rosa’s mystery man, Jeff Cabrio,” Carmen began. “News Ninehas learned that Mr. Cabrio was the illegitimate son of a very young homeless mother who lived in or near Newark, New Jersey, and who struggled to keep her son fed and clothed.” While Carmen spoke, a photograph of a blond girl and a toddler appeared behind her. Jeff sucked in his breath and sat up on the sofa.
“Once in school,” Carmen continued, “young Jeff Cabrio’s brightness was at first misinterpreted, and he was held back a grade. Later though, his superior intelligence was recognized and he skipped two grades.”
“Three,” Jeff said quietly. “Get your goddamned facts straight.”
Mia looked at him as the camera swept back to the anchorman. Jeff’s cheeks had reddened; a vein pulsed at his temple. Suddenly, he raised his fists and brought them down hard on the table. “Where the hell is she getting this stuff?” He was on his feet, papers flying. The cat leapt away from him onto the floor, then up to the window sill. Jeff ran his hands through his hair. “Where did she get that picture? I’ve never even seen it before.”
“Is she… I mean, is what she’s saying… accurate?”
“Close enough. Accurate enough to tell me she’s got a source. She’s got a bead on me.”
Mia leaned back in her chair. “What does it matter? Do you honestly care what people think? Do you think anybody gives a damn if you were illegitimate or—”
“That’s not it.”
“Well, what is it then, Jeff?” she asked gently. “What are you so afraid of?”
He walked across the room to the window that faced the dark adobe. “Don’t ask, Mia, all right? I like that you don’t ask me questions.” He turned to look at her. “I like sitting here with you in the evening. It reminds me of… “ His smile was sudden. Small. Wry. He turned back to the window again. “It’s just comforting, and I find that I need that sort of comfort more than I expected. I need other people more than I thought I did. Please though, don’t ask me questions you know I can’t answer.”
“I only want to console you,” she said, “and I don’t know how to do that because I don’t understand—”
“She’s going to do me in, bit by bit. I should get out of here. Out of Valle Rosa.” He rubbed his hand slowly across his chin, his eyes never leaving the window. “But I’m so close. And it’s going to work.”
“Maybe you should just leave Sugarbush,” Mia said, panicked by the thought of him leaving Valle Rosa altogether. “There must be someplace else you could live. Chris could—”
“No. As long as I’m in Valle Rosa, I need to stay here. Carmen Perez is one scared woman, and her fear makes her very dangerous, but as long as I’m living on her property, no other reporter can get to me. It’s symbiosis, pure and simple. She protects me from other predators, and in exchange she gets to feed off me. It won’t be much longer. I only wish I knew who her source is.” He shuddered. “I don’t know what she’ll say in her next report, or the report after that.”
He stared out into the darkness, and Mia saw the real-life image of her sculpture—Jeff and the bas-relief of a window—in front of her.
“What do you mean, she’s scared?” she asked. “What is she afraid of?”
“Losing,” he said. “Losing everything she’s worked for.” He turned to face her. “She could unveil me now, Mia. She has enough knowledge, enough power, that if she wanted to, she could move in for the kill. But she’s playing some sort of game. Did you see the gleam in her eyes?”
Mia nodded, but Jeff had already turned back to the window. “She loves this,” he said. “And it’s really my own fault.”
“How is it your fault?” She wasn’t following him at all.
“I told her where I was born. I told her in a cryptic way, and I never thought she’d be able to figure out all of this”—he waved toward the television—”from that little piece of information.” He sighed. “Maybe I wanted her to. Maybe I’m sick and tired of running.”
Running from what, she wanted to ask, but knew better.
Jeff walked to the sofa and gathered up his papers. The cat came running when he called him, and he reached down to pick him up. He stopped behind Mia’s chair as he was walking toward the door. Leaning over, he slipped his arm across her chest from shoulder to shoulder, surprising her. He touched his cheek to the top of her head, and she stiffened at the weight of his arm on her breast. She could feel her heart beating against the prosthesis.
“See you tomorrow,” he said, letting go. “Dinner will be on me.”
Mia didn’t let out her breath until he had closed the door behind him. She listened to his footsteps on the porch, and in a moment she heard his own cottage door open and close. Then she looked down at the sculpture on the stool in front of her. Right now it was nothing more than clay over an armature, a vaguely human form, the head and face a smooth, featureless sphere that gave nothing away. She hadn’t yet settled on an expression, an emotion for him, but she knew that in the next few days she would begin to shape the clay, to carve it, until its secrets gave way bit by bit beneath the patient, careful touch of her hands.